(new) A/N: omg i am so sorry i am the biggest gimp known to man-i admitit lol- i tried to do a good deed and it kinda backfired-FOOL, ok it must hav been lack of sleep...obviously kk so lets just forget that ever happend and heres the RIGHT peice 4 chapter 5, i hope!

(old)A/N:Well hey there! i have returned 4rm Paris and...OASIS yesterday lol was so emmense(emmense!lol) i have aslo returned with a new instalment which i hope you may like. one last thing my updated probably won't be as frequent as the 1st bulk but i will try to keep them comming asap kk thats all :op

Disclaimer: Same as before and if you cant remember that go back and check...(still dont appreciate sueing)

Once Marissa had composed herself again, she continued with a fresh wave of determination; strength appeared out of nowhere. She was resolute not to cave again.

"Well, I couldn't loose him, but I didn't know what to do; what could I do call him back and demand the truth? I was stuck. So, so; I didn't know what else to do OK!" She yelled as another few tears fell down her cheeks

"I didn't know how else to deal with it," she said in barley more than a whisper.

"The alcohol always numbed it for me; but I knew how much of a strain this would put on our relationship if Ryan ever found out, I hadn't touched it in ages. I hadn't needed to; I'd been happy. But that had all changed.

I went down to the beach; I felt free there (or maybe that was the alcohol taking over) and it let me forget my problems; if only for a short while."

"I was sitting on some rocks, a bit out of sight –well I didn't want t broadcast myself drinking neat vodka alone, on the beach. But I heard something, which caught my attention

"Ryan, stop moving! Or the picture will blur!"

"Oh right, yeah, sorry."

"Sure" some laughter "I sorry if I want my son's first trip to the sea to be a nice memory!" more laughter.

"Our son; you know I'm here for him no matter what. You only have to call."

"I kno-Marissa?"

I couldn't believe what I was hearing; but I sure as hell didn't want to hear anymore.

"What; what is this?"

"Look, Marissa, I know how this looks, might look-strange"

"STRANGE! I've never seen anything less strange-that bastard's meant to be dead. Or, wait, don't tell me-you got her pregnant again!"

"Marissa-"

"No, don't you 'Marissa' me again. How did you keep this from me-why? Did you really think it was a good idea to keep this from me? I just don't get it."

"Ryan, I'm gonna go, you guys, need some space-come on Benjy; da-daddy will see you soon-bye."

Once Theresa left, left with his baby, his son, it all began to sink in, but it was still so hard to believe. But I did believe one thing; I was surer of it than anything else in the world-he was leaving. He was leaving me, to be with her and Benjy. Leaving all over again.

It was like when someone catches their partner in an affair; that was the escape route for the partner; they didn't want to tell the other one, so they waited until they got found out.

"You weren't meant to find out like this" "Oh, so when was I meant to find out then-on his 21st?" "No! It's not like that, not at al! I only found out a month ago-when he was rushed in to hospital- Theresa's mom called me. He had something go drastically wrong, they thought he wouldn't make it. Her mom said she wouldn't be able to forgive herself if I never knew about him-or only found out when it was too late." "And you think that will get you a sympathy vote?"

"What? No, I'm just telling you the truth-I couldn't come to terms with it myself for a while and when he came out of hospital I knew I had to be a part of his life"

She paused for a bit this recall was draining her mentally and physically. She looked over at Seth-to check he hadn't left or fallen asleep, when she saw him with a complete look of shock on his face.

"Seth, what's up?" she enquired slightly nervously.

"He-he had a kid. All this time. And-and it just slipped his mind to tell me?" He looked completely lost, like an animal separated from its group, bewildered and alone.

so erm hope u liked that 1 and agen reli reli sorry, im just a girl of very little brain..am i forgiven? plz lol