Title: You Left Me Alone
Author: Wereleopard
Posted:
Rating: PG
Email: PG
Genre: Angst
Summary: Angel until season 4.
Disclaimer: The characters in the Angel verse were created by Joss Whedon & David Greenwalt. No infringement is intended, no profit is made I am just poor. Distribution: FSB if anywhere else please just let me know!
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Note: Yes these are short but it will be two POV and then the main conversation

Cordelia's POV

Cordy paced the lobby of the Hyperion Hotel back and forth, taking deep breaths trying to control the fear that was inside of her, grabbing hold of her heart. She stared up the stairs to Angel's room, she had promised that they would talk and she knew that the time was here. She stopped and shook her head it was Angel, her best friend. She could do this, they could do this.

So she made her way to his room and as she opened the door what she saw broke her heart, her gaze was on Angel he had never looked up from the floor. But once he did her heart jumped out from her chest. Angel looked so lost, the vampire had the look of someone who had just had everything that had been important to him ripped away. Was she that important to him? Was he that important to her? That answer was yes, otherwise she wouldn't be here she wouldn't be fighting for their friendship.

His look seemed to call out to her, stake me, it said, I can't live without you in my life, end my misery. The vampire's look told her all of that and more. In an instance she was in front of him. "Angel?" Cordy whispered amazed that she could say anything.

When he told her he couldn't be without her she stopped breathing, tears welled up in her eyes. She smiled sadly at him. "You will always be in my life but.." she stopped for a moment. "We need to talk before we go anywhere, ok?" She saw Angel nod in agreement but she could still see the fear in his eyes.

Cordy heard him apologise but he done that over and over again, saying sorry did not change what had happened did not make anything different or explain why? The, I'm sorry no longer mattered.

"Angel we were best friends and I thought that we could talk about anything but this thing with Darla why…" Cordy didn't know how to continue she just wanted to know why he did what he did? Why she couldn't come to them, to her?

Cordy just stared at him as he explained or tried to about Darla about the dreams and wanting to be saved or to save her but that didn't explain why. She stood and walked over to him and laid a delicate hand on his shoulder. "But why couldn't you come to us, to me?" She asked a slight hitch of anger to her voice. The anger started to vibrate through her body all he knew what she wanted to hear.

"I'm not going to use the dreams as an excuse but.." Angel stuttered for a moment.

Cordy got angry all she wanted was the truth. "DAMN YOU ANGEL." She screamed and snatched her hand from his shoulder and turned away from him. "Weren't we good enough for you to trust, were we really your friends?" Tears fell from her eyes this is what she was really worried about that Angel didn't care about them, that they were just here to help him and not important.

She heard the anger in his voice as he vented. What right did he have to be angry, he betrayed them not the other way around. Tears came to her eyes, she was not one to throw stones she still hadn't told him or any of them that she was dying. But this was different Cordy knew that if she told them their mission would be forgotten, Angel would stop on his path to redemption and so many innocents would die.

"Angel." She said softly. "Just let me know how you feel, how you felt?" That is all she wanted, that is all she had ever wanted.

Fear hit her heart as his eyes blazed yellow Cordy couldn't help it as she backed away from him until her back hit the hardness of the wall. His fist hit the wall behind her and she flinched Cordy tried not to cower from the vampire in front of her she could feel the anger vibrating from him, she could feel the power from each muscle, his power and strength seemed to surround her. Then his face changed the vampire the ridges appeared on his face, his fangs grew but when she heard him utter those words that he was a monster and that is what people saw, her eyes softened. Yes he had the demon within him and yes he was a vampire but she didn't see a monster she saw her friend.

Cordy reached out and touched the ridges on his face. "I've always known this about you Angel." She had to make him understand that there was more to him and that she had always known that but he didn't seem to believe it not anymore. Had she done this to him?

She had moved forward to touch him but he slammed her hard back against the wall that made her teeth chatter. Cordy felt Angel's tongue lick against her neck her body shivered and she wasn't sure if it was from sexual or from fear, it may have been a little bit of both but her body reacted, she could feel the arousal course through her body. His mouth rose to her ear and his breath whispered across her lobe and he whispered, her body shook at the gentle tickle his words created on her skin.

"Do you understand do you truly trust me?" He said, his chest firm against hers and she could feel his anger vibrating through his chest as it ran through hers she raised her eyes and stared into his as he pulled his face away from her ear to look at her.