Incomplete Part of Me 8

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Wow, I was amazed at how many people reviewed, I'm glad so many people want me to update, hope you enjoy this chapter. I will be putting in a lemon scene, in a latter chapter so just be patient with me. Sorry it took me a while to get this up but with exams and the end of school for a few months I've been real busy, plus I've been sick lately then had some problems with some of my friends, but everything's finally calmed down and I got the chance to finish this and post.

This time on Incomplete Part of Me: Seto writes a letter for a certain someone, and then the chapter is over.

"Morning sleepy head." Jou muttered as he pushed some of Seto's hair out of his face. He smiled slightly as Seto buried his face back in his pillow. "Come on, it's nearly noon, you've been asleep for almost thirteen hours Seto." Seto groaned into the pillow and muttered incoherently through it the words 'fuck off'. Though Jonouchi was slightly offended he understood. His dragon had taken a lot of medication the day before, so it was understandable that he would be slightly moody. Of course that didn't excuse him beating Jonouchi with a pillow for nearly ten minutes.

Seto refused to eat anything, but agreed to eat something later that the cook made for him. Jonouchi wanted to be there but since he still had school, he had no choice but to leave Seto at school. Seto felt like a child as Jou left. He was given strict rules, and even told to have a 'nap' later in the day so he didn't stress himself too much. Of course Seto could understand, especially when they had to attend Mokuba's funeral that night. That remind him of something he had wanted to do, he wasn't able to voice his feelings to Mokuba anymore but he hoped that maybe if he wrote a letter and slipped it into the coffin with Mokuba, his feelings would reach him, everything he wrote would reach him. It was a faint hope, a small light in a dark world, but it was the only thing he had left.

Dearest Mokuba,

This isn't the way I wanted to tell you the things that will follow this, but now that you're gone I have no other way to tell you. I never wanted to have to tell you these things, right now this is so painful for me, I'm so afraid, I know I'm usually the strong one, but I have to tell you this, I can't live with myself if I don't tell you.

You know all of my secrets, you know ever last little thing about me, my past, my presents and possible my future if I fail to undo what I've done. Tonight, is you're viewing, and your funeral, I don't know if I'll make it through but I know I have to try. I plan on sneaking this letter to you because that's the only way I know to get this message to you. You know, I can't express in this letter how sorry I am for everything I've done, and for letting you die. If I hadn't had such bad secrets you most likely would still be alive. I got involved in something I shouldn't have, and because I was too weak and stupid, you died. They stole you away from me as punishment for what I've done, and now they're going to go after my friends and Jonouchi…

He knows everything you know. Jonouchi knows what kind of a mess I'm in and everything. He told me doesn't care; he said he wants to help; he wants to make sure I don't suffer any longer. He said that he loves me and wants to help me no matter what. And as much as I love him, and want his help I don't know if I can accept his help. I've gotten myself into this mess and I need to get out of it myself. I can't rely on him and I can't put him in danger like that.

I know you probably don't need to know this because it's not that important to you, it's my problem that I need to figure out. Right now I don't know what to do; this letter is taking me so long to write because my hands are shaking too much. It's stupid I know, but I know that this is the last time I'm going to get to communicate with you. After this, you'll truly be gone from me forever. I'll have pictures of you of course but those pictures of you are only of you when you were younger. I'll have memories, but again those are only of the past, and some of them are just too horrible that I want to forget them. I won't get to see you graduate, get a job, go on a first date, get married, have a child, nothing. It's too cruel that I shall get to see more of the world then you. God knows that you deserved to live more then I did. Is this a way of punishment? Am I being punished for my sins? For being so self centered, ignoring you and my friends, and getting involved in horrible things. You died because of me, and the actions that I did in order to get what I wanted. You never got to meet our sister () either, though I haven't met her either, I was told she'll be at your funeral today. I wonder where she's been all these years.

I feel very confused Mokuba; right now I have no idea what I should do with my life, and with my problems. Have I made a mistake letting Jonouchi into my life, and my problems? I hope though…wherever you are you're happy. I feel so selfish; I'm sitting here in our mansion writing this to you. Is that really fair? I'm sorry; I'm asking so many stupid questions that you won't be able to answer. I keep asking the same questions over and over; maybe it's because I don't know what to say to you. Maybe I've afraid of admitting my mistakes to you and to everyone.

I've written a speech to say at your funeral. Though I'm not sure if I'll make it through, I feel so much grief, but I'll try to do it just for you. I'll tell everyone what an amazing person you were and how you didn't deserve this. I'll stand in front of everyone and show them just how I'm feeling. Then when it's over, you'll just be a memory to everyone. Honestly Mokuba, I'm afraid to go tonight, I'm afraid of letting go of my last tie to you, I'm afraid of burying your body, and never seeing your face again. These tears that are running down my face now are the first of many tears to come. These tears are parts of me, and my connection to you. When they're gone, out connection is gone, and I'll have to burry you, and our memories. I'm afraid of that. I can't imagine letting you go, but I guess, I have no choice, because if I cling to you, I'll fade away and disgrace your memory.

I don't want to be happy knowing your gone, but I don't want to be emotionless either. I love Jonouchi, and I want to be happy for him, is that fair Mokuba? Is that okay with you? I guess I'll never know your answer but I can't imagine it. You said in your letter to me that you wanted me to be happy. Though I'm afraid to, I'm going to try, as hard as it might be, especially tonight when our last ties are gone. I promise, I'll never forget you, my brother.

Love, with all my heart.

Seto

Wow, finally finished, I kind of got stuck on the first two paragraphs but while watching Escaflowne, I became inspired. Hope everyone likes this chapter, next chapters going to be sad; it'll be of Mokuba's funeral. I'll be posting it in the next two to three days! I think this is the longest chapter so far, oh and if I missed anyone in the thank you's I'm sorry, I promise to get you added in the next chapter!