Chapter 12

Spike walked into the self defense class to pick Buffy up. He noticed a lot of mats on the floor and a lot of the kids were starting to leave. He finally found Buffy sparring with a taller man and he couldn't help watching her. She started taking self defense a month ago because she wanted to be able to defend herself better. You never know when you would need it. She looked amazing as she was blocking all of his punches. She then lifted up her leg and kicked the man hard in the chest, which sent him crashing to the floor. Buffy was surprised as she put her hand over her mouth. "God, I'm so sorry. Guess I don't know my own strength sometimes." She said as she held her hand out to him. He looked at it for a moment and then placed his hand in hers. She pulled him up and he rubbed his chest.

"It's nothing, I've dealt with worse." Buffy felt a little better, when she then noticed Spike there. She gave him a big smile and walked over to him.

"Did you see me? I was totally kicking ass!" She exclaimed as she looked back at the other man, with an apologetic look on her face. "Sorry about that." She told him and he shrugged.

"Don't worry about it, Buffy. So, you must be Spike?" He said as he turned his gaze on Spike, who only nodded.

"Yeah, who might you be?" Spike wondered.

"My name's Riley." He replied as they shook hands, letting go after a few seconds. "I teach this self defense class. I was just giving Buffy some extra pointers, but I don't think she needs them." Buffy smiled at him.

"Yeah, after only a month of class I'm ready to take on anyone." She stated as she noticed the two men giving her strange looks. "Well, not that I would. You know, because violence is bad. It's…It's wrong. Big no to violence." Spike smiled at her and placed a kiss on the top of her head.

"Come on, love. I better get you home." Buffy nodded as she went to grab her stuff.

"Great moves today, Buffy." Riley said to her and she gave him a smile.

"Thanks, see you next week." She replied as she walked away with Spike. Riley watched the young couple and smiled as he grabbed his cell phone to call his wife.

Buffy pushed Spike against the front door when they got to her house. She attacked his mouth in a passionate kiss and he kissed her back. He suddenly pulled away when breathing became an issue. "Buffy, don't you think we should wait until we get inside?" Buffy thought about it and nodded as she opened the door and pulled him in behind her. She closed the door and then pushed him back into it.

"My mom won't be home for hours." She whispered seductively as she attacked his mouth again. She ran her hands down his chest and stopped when she reached his jeans. She then cupped his crotch and squeezed as he started to breathe more heavily. He pulled his mouth away from hers again.

"Jesus, Buffy. What's gotten into you?" Buffy stopped when she realized what was happening and moved away from him. She forgot for a second that he wasn't like the other guys and that he would never have sex with her against a door. She forgot that he was a virgin for a second. She looked into his eyes to see confusion there.

"I'm sorry, I got carried away." Spike nodded and moved closer to her.

"It's okay, I guess that happens. Are you alright?" Buffy ran her fingers through her hair.

"Yeah, I'm fine. I'm just not used to this." Spike was confused again.

"Not used to what?" He wondered and she threw her hands in the air.

"I don't know, all of this. I'm not used to being in an actual relationship. The guys that I've been involved with in the past usually only wanted sex. I have to remember that you're different." Spike then wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her closer to him.

"I am different, but that doesn't mean I don't think about sex. I think about that every bloody day, being with you like that. It would be everything to me, but I'm worried. I'm worried that it won't be good enough for you. I don't exactly have any experience in that area." He explained and Buffy couldn't believe he thought that.

"William, you would be amazing. I already know that. The first guy I was ever intimate with told me that it was nothing the next day. I used to think that I wasn't good enough. I don't want you to think that you aren't good enough. When it happens with us, it will be amazing." Spike smiled and kissed her on the lips. He then frowned suddenly as he pulled away from her.

"Wait, you never told me about that. Who was this guy?" Buffy shrugged.

"It was a while ago, before I met you. It's not important now. That's all in the past, what matters now is the present and future." She was about to walk away, when Spike grabbed her arm and pulled her back to him.

"I wish I could have been your first." He told her in a quiet voice and Buffy felt tears in her eyes, but she held them back.

"So do I, but I'll get to be your first." Spike tucked a lock of hair behind her ear and gave her a smile.

"You'll get to be my only." Buffy returned his smile and gave him a soft kiss on the lips. He then looked into her eyes when she pulled away. "I think I'm ready for that, Buffy." He told her and Buffy was surprised.

"Are you sure? I don't want you to think that you have to do this. We don't have to rush into anything." She explained.

"I've never been so sure about anything in my life." Buffy gave him another smile and grasped his hand in hers.

"Let's go to my room." Spike only nodded and couldn't think of anything else to say as he let Buffy lead him to her room. He knew that he was doing the right thing. He was going to be with the woman he loved in every way possible. He smiled and realized that his dream was finally coming true as Buffy pulled him into her room and closed the door.