A/N: Thanks to Trinityday and MissBlueAngel for the reviews, much appreciated. And yeah it would be nice to get more reviews (so take that as a hint people :D). I am starting to think this fic is shithouse otherwise....and I didn't think it was that bad shrugs

And Trinityday, I do have a beta of sorts, but she mostly just looks at story development (actually she just likes to get a sneak peek before everyone else!). I'll try and keep a closer eye on errors. Is hard to, cause some spelling is different depending where you are from :D

Ahh, after this chapter updates will be done in parts, so they won't be as long, but I always try to make them at least 1000 words.

Chapter 4 part 1-

Sirius leant against the wall outside the Charms room, waiting for James to finish whatever argument he was having with Lily. Sirius would have been more concerned with the amount of bickering that was going on between the two of them, but he had his own problems to worry about. He was still reeling from the fact that he had been partnered with Semasky for Potions. His least favourite subject was going to become even more unbearable. At least they had come to an unspoken rule to ignore each other as much as possible. He doubted they spoke more than two words to each other the whole class.

"I hate to break this to you Potter, but not everything is bloody well about you," Lily's cold voice came from inside the room.

Sirius stood up with a slight smirk on his face at the bickering that was going on inside. He heard Lily's footsteps come to the doorway and saw a very angry, red faced Lilly emerge.

"Eva..." he started, but was interrupted by Lily pulling his arm roughly, so that he followed her down the corridor.

Sirius was startled by Lily's behaviour, and although he knew he would be able to break free from her grip, he was interested as to what she wanted.

"Lily, what the hell are you doing?" he asked, as Lily's grip became firmer around his arm.

But Lily ignored him and kept stalking down the corridor, before heading towards an empty classroom. Sirius looked fleetingly behind him, and saw James further down the corridor, a perplexed look on his face. This is not going to be good, Sirius thought, as Lily shoved him in the room, sealed the door shut, and placed an Imperturbable Charm on the door.

"I'm used to girls acting a bit desperately to get me alone, and I'm usually up for a bit of rough treatment, but I'm just not into you that way Evans. I'm sorry to disappoint you, but I'm sure you'll get over it. Eventually," Sirius smirked slightly as Lily turned around to face him, the look on her face clearly expressing that she was unimpressed with the comment.

"Are you done?" she asked. "Honestly I don't know who's more arrogant, you or Potter."

Sirius grinned, "That would be me. Trust me, I've known both of us for a long time, and I'm definitely more arrogant."

Lily shook her head slightly, "you say that like it's a good thing."

Sirius just shrugged in response.

"Somehow I doubt you dragged me in here to have a discussion about the different arrogance levels in the male population." Sirius stated bluntly.

"No sadly that intriguing conversation will have to wait for another time Sirius," Lily remarked sarcastically, "I needed to talk to you about something, and I figured you might be the best person to talk to." Lily's voice became soft as she spoke, and her eyes dropped to the floor.

Sirius grinned, "Is this about James? You like him don't you?"

Lily's eyes flared up as she lifted her head sharply towards him, "You are just as bad as he is. I know this might shock you but my life doesn't revolve around James bloody Potter! God I don't know why I thought I could talk to you about this," Lily turned and made her way to the door.

Sirius watched her start to leave, "Hey Lily wait. I'm sorry ok? I promise I will try not to make any more insinuations about you and James."

Lily's shoulders dropped slightly, as she turned around to face him.

"What did you want to talk to me about?" Sirius said softly.

Lily looked up at him, and Sirius saw tears falling silently down her face. Oh shit, crying girls, this is really not good.

Sirius stepped towards her and grabbed her arm lightly, pulling her over to one of the desks. Lily slumped into the chair, while Sirius sat beside her. They sat in silence for a while; the only sound was the silent sobbing coming from Lily.

Sirius looked at her helplessly. He didn't know what he should do, or what she wanted him to do. It was at times like these that he wished he had a sister, or at least a caring mother. He somehow doubted that 'stop crying and show some strength,' would be appropriate. And then he remembered what Mrs Potter did for him, and so Sirius sat there patiently until Lily was ready to talk.

"I'm sorry," Lily said quietly, looking up at Sirius, her eyes red and swollen. She had streak marks down her face, where her tears had travelled.

"Don't be. Here," he said, handing her a handkerchief that he had transfigured from a piece of paper.

Lily smiled slightly, taking the handkerchief from Sirius gratefully, "Thankyou."

"Don't mention it," he said, leaning back in his chair slightly, while still keeping his gaze on her.

"I'm sorry to drag you here, and then I start crying. And what are you supposed to do, you must think I'm pathetic. I just wanted to talk to you; because I figured you may understand what I'm going through. And I tried dealing with it myself but it's just too much, and I don't know what to do, or who to turn too," Lily blurted out quickly. She took a deep breath and put her head in her hands.

"Lily you have nothing to be sorry for, and you're going to have to explain from the beginning. Because as you know I need things simplified for me to understand."

Lily lifted her head from her hands and smiled slightly, "You and I both know that's untrue Sirius."

Lily sighed deeply and looked him in the eyes. Sirius could see the sadness that was bottled up in her.

"I thought you may be the best person to talk to, because you are kind of in the same position as me. I know there are huge differences in our situation, but you would have more of an idea than anyone else I know."

Sirius looked at her curiously, "What do you mean?"

"You know what it's like not to have any parents," she replied, her voice extremely quiet and low.

Sirius looked at her, his eyes wide as he processed the information. Sirius was surprised, he thought she had a great relationship with her parents. She had always looked so happy when he heard her talking about them.

"I thought you got on with your parents Lily?"

She looked up at him, tears welling in her eyes.

Chapter 4 part 2-

Sirius heard her take a deep breath as if to steady herself, "I did. But they died in summer."

"Oh shit," Sirius replied, before grimacing at his stupid reply. A girl tells you that her parents have died and all you can come up with is 'Oh Shit?'

Sirius watched as Lily fought to keep herself from crying again. She was gripping onto the handkerchief tightly, twisting it around her fingers, and then unraveling again. Sirius was transfixed for a moment as he watched her continue with the process. Watching as her knuckles turned white as she tightened it around her hand, and then watching the colour flow back through as she let it go.

He pulled his gaze away from her hands, "How?" he asked, and then a sudden thought hit him, "They weren't killed by Voldemort were they?"

Lily looked up quickly, and shook her head solemnly, "They died in a car accident in July. There was apparently something on the road, a deer or something, they're not sure what. And they swerved to miss it, but Dad lost control of the car and it, it..." Lily lost the fight against her emotions, and tears spilled down her cheeks again, stopping her from finishing her story.

But Sirius didn't need to hear it, he had a fair idea what had happened, and he didn't think he needed Lily to spell it out for him.

"And I just thought, that you would be the best person to talk to, because I know you left your family and..." her voice trailed off again, as her sobbing increased.

Sirius sighed. Yes he as good as didn't have any parents, but his situation was completely different to Lily's. Lily loved her parents completely and they her. Sirius couldn't imagine that feeling. He never really felt love from his family, not even when he was younger. And although it was hard walking away from them, it was nowhere near the feeling of having them taken away from him and he helpless to prevent it.

"I really don't know what to say Lily. I can't imagine how painful this must be for you."

Lily wiped the tears away from her eyes, and started breathing steadily again.

"I just. How did you cope? Without parents. What did you do to cope?" She looked at him pleadingly, as if begging for a way to make the hurt disappear.

"Honestly? I went to the first person I knew would be there for me no matter what," he replied easily.

"Someone in your family?" Lily asked.

Sirius shrugged his shoulders, "as good as. I went to James."

Sirius remembered the night that he had decided to leave home. He had gone home, reluctantly, during the summer after his 5th year at Hogwarts. He lasted at home a week. His parents were even more furious with him than before he had left for Hogwarts that year. Mainly because this time he wasn't going to stand for his parents ranting any longer, he stood up for himself, he stood up for his friends. He felt no real love for his family, it was overshadowed with disappointment in what they were following; the same thing that they were feeling for him. He could still remember the fight that broke out the Sunday of his first week back; it still ran shivers down his spine. That fight was what made him decide to leave. He knew he was better off without them. So he ended up at James' house and James let him stay, no questions asked, no hesitations. James told him he had a home here for as long as needed. It was James' enthusiasm and unspoken understanding that gave Sirius the strength to leave his family behind. And he had received more than somewhere to stay when he went home with James; he was given a second family.

Lily hiccuped slightly, "James?"

Sirius nodded, "It may shock you to know this Lily, but James would do anything for any of his friends. And he helped me at a time, when not many others would. You know Lily, even if your friends may not know exactly what you're going through, it doesn't mean they can't help. You can't deal with something this big by yourself."

Lily nodded and let out a shaky breath. Her eyes were even more puffy and red; she looked a mess.

"Can you promise me that you won't say anything to anyone?" Lily asked, "I just need to do it when I'm ready. And with the deaths that have occurred in some families, I don't want people worrying about me and my family."

Sirius looked at her carefully, before shaking his head slightly in disbelief, "just because your parents were Muggles and they died as a result of something completely separate from the Wizarding World, doesn't mean their deaths are less important to us. It makes no difference Lily. They were your parents and that is all that matters. Just don't leave it too long to tell people. And if you ever need someone to talk to Lily," he said, reaching a hand out for her to pull her up from the chair.

Lily took his hand graciously, "thanks Sirius."

And for the first time during their conversation she smiled, before giving Sirius a sideways look, "you know this doesn't mean that I have become one of your groupies."

Sirius laughed, "for starters you're too intelligent to be put into the same category, secondly, I just don't fancy you in that way, and third James would kill me if anything happened between us."

Lily rolled her eyes, "this may shock you also, but I really don't fancy you in that way either Sirius. And I do not belong to Potter."

Sirius chuckled, "not yet."

Lily hit him hard on the shoulder and gave him a withering look.

Sirius recoiled, "Jeez Evans that hurt!"

Lily smiled sweetly, "well if you say anything to that effect again, I won't hold back next time"

Sirius chuckled, "so do you want to go down to the Kitchen's and get something to eat? I have a feeling dinner has finished being served in the Great Hall. Plus, it would ruin my reputation to be seen with a dishevelled Head Girl," Sirius asked lightly.

Lily laughed, and turned to pull Sirius into a quick hug, "thankyou, for everything."

Sirius, recovering quickly after the shock of having a girl throw her arms around him in a purely platonic way, hugged her in return, "no problems Lily, that's what friends are for."

Sirius and Lily made their way back from the kitchens, after being fed extremely well by the eager house elves. They walked together silently and parted as they walked through the portrait hole.

"See you later Sirius," Lily said quietly as she headed up to her dorm.

Sirius saw Peter and Remus sitting at one of the tables, looking at him cautiously. He wandered over and plonked himself at the table.

"What the hell have you been doing with Lily? Prongs is going to kill you, he has been pacing upstairs since the end of Charms."

Sirius looked at Remus, concern embedded on his friend's face, "I have not been doing anything sordid with Lily, she just needed some help with something. Is that what James thinks?"

"Well that's what we gathered. He's been muttering things underneath his breath, and we caught 'if he has touched her, I swear I will kill him'," Peter spoke up.

"And that was one of the nicer things we caught," Remus added.

"I haven't touched Lily. I'm not that stupid, nor that inclined. Where is he?" Sirius asked Remus.

Remus nodded towards their room, "good luck".