A/N: Ok comments on reviews…thanks to all for taking the time out to comment, much appreciated…Superpan: I always had this fic in mind as a four POV story….and I don't think I will change that..It works best for me for what I want to do in the long run, sorry. But thanks for the input anyway (and yeah I do know how to spell knight, was a typo….and any errors you see are generally typo's I do try to catch them all, but some tend to slip through). ZiONPLAY, thanks you did make me happy :D…and I am glad you are enjoying it. MissBlueAngel, I guess I filled the aim with that update, not the happiest but one of my personal faves….

So here is the new update. I really wasn't happy with this, and if it were not for a very honest friend, you would be reading something even worse than this, so take that into account….enjoy :D

Chapter 7 part 2:

James wasn't sure how long he sat there with Lily crying in his arms, he didn't care. He would have stayed there all night if it helped her. He had imagined holding Lily in his arms countless times before, as he imagined anything with Lily countless times, but he was never expecting it to be like this.

James sat and watched the embers of the fire glow; the flames had already disappeared, leaving a comfortable warmth in the room.

It was a while before Lily spoke up, and when she did she blurted out about her parent's death and how it had exactly happened. A car accident, was what she had said. James had heard about cars, and he couldn't understand why people would use them if they could end up getting killed. He sometimes had to wonder about the sense of Muggles. Lily had said that her parents had run into a tree with their car after swerving to avoid hitting an animal. It seemed such a pointless way to die to James, and he understood why Lily found it so unfair.

Lily continued to cry into James, but with less emotion than before, and he sat holding her, waiting til she was ready to let go. A part of him hoped she never would. You're getting all corny, a voice spoke up. Shut it, he replied.

"Don't get used to this James," Lily said, after the tears had finally ceased to shed. Her voice slightly muffled by James' chest, and husky from crying. James couldn't help but feel how sexy it sounded.

Lily disentangled herself from James' hold and turned to face him, crossing her legs underneath her.

"Don't get used to what?" James asked innocently.

Lily raised her eyebrows at him, "You know damn well what. A girl with any sense would not throw herself into your arms."

James laughed, "Luckily you're not a girl with sense then isn't it?"

Lily smiled begrudgingly, shaking her head slightly. "I must look a mess."

"No you don't," James replied.

Lily paused halfway through fixing her hair, raising her eyebrows at him again. You know one of these days, she is going to look at me with her eyebrows placed at a normal level, he thought.

"Ok, you look like shit, better?"

Lily smiled, "much."

James watched her as she looked down at her hands, fiddling with a ring she had on one of her long fingers.

"You know," she said quietly, "I think I have bottled this up since I found out…." Lily's voice trailed off, not wanting to voice the words. She shook her head slightly, and laughed, "How surprising you would be the one to make me cry." James was well aware of the sarcastic tone in her voice.

Ordinarily James would be confused at Lily's demeanour; she seemed to him, to be all over the place. Something she normally, would not be like. But he knew she was fighting all the emotions raging inside of her, and fighting the truth about her parents. And this fight came through in her character.

"See, and you said my behaviour was pointless, wrong again Lily."

Lily laughed slightly, "I'm never wrong James, you should know that by now."

"Oh you're often wrong, but you just never see that you are wrong."

Lily narrowed her eyes slightly, "careful Potter, you have an emotionally hysterical girl sitting two feet away from you with a wand sitting in the band of her pyjamas."

"Oh to be that wand," James muttered softly.

"What?" Lily asked.

"I just said you must be back to your normal self, you called me Potter again."

Lily shrugged, "old habits die hard" a smile escaping across her lips.

They sat there in silence for a while, each in their own thoughts.

"Why didn't you tell us?" James asked after a while.

The smile vanished from her face as she looked up at him, "I don't know. I wanted to deal with it myself, and I didn't want people to be walking on egg shells around me."

"Lily they have been doing that anyway."

Lily sighed, "Have I been that bad?"

"Yes," James answered, "but understandably. You should have told us so that we could help."

"Help? How? How can you help James?" she asked her voice becoming shaky again. "They're not coming back," Lily added softly, more to herself than anyone. The realisation of what she had said, again caused tears to fall silently down her face.

James waited for Lily to continue, he knew she would when she was ready.

She sighed and looked up at him, "you're right I should have said something, and it may have prevented me from breaking down like a maniac. I just didn't know how. I'm not used to people fussing over me, and worrying about me."

"We do that anyway Lily, that's what friends do."

"You sound remarkably like Sirius at times, you know that?" Lily asked, cocking her head to one side.

James laughed, "I have been told that before, but usually about how arrogant the two of us are, or mischievous, or handsome," he added smirking.

Lily rolled her eyes, "you're right, you are both as big headed as each other."

James laughed, "That hurts Evans, really hurts."

She shook her head and sighed again, returning her attention to the gold band placed around her finger.

James grabbed her hand and pulled it up towards his line of sight. The ring was a soft gold band with tiny diamonds scattered along it.

"You never usually wear jewellery," he commented, as he studied the ring.

"It was my mum's wedding band," she said softly, pulling her hand back towards her, so that she could look at it more carefully.

After another long pause, Lily finally spoke up. "Actually, that's not really why I didn't tell anyone."

James looked at her confused, as she continued. "You want to know why I didn't tell anyone?" Lily asked warily.

James nodded, watching her carefully.

"I didn't want to tell anyone, because it would make it real. It was as if…. if I told people, it would finalise their deaths, and it would be my fault that they couldn't come back," she slumped her shoulders, and raised her eyes to James' slowly. "Stupid I know, but that's how it felt."

"It's not stupid Lily. No one wants to admit that the people you love have gone forever."

Lily nodded, "but deep down I knew that they weren't coming back, I knew that there was nothing I could do to bring them back. I have never felt so useless. I have all these skills, and they are useless." James could sense the anger rising in her voice again.

"They're not useless Lily. There are some things that can't be changed, some things that shouldn't be changed."

Lily fought to control her conflicting emotions, "I know, it's just that…..it's just, I wasn't ready for them to go. I didn't even get to tell them I had become Head Girl. I never got to introduce a boyfriend to them, and watch dad make him squirm," at this James smiled, "I never got to have my dad walk me down the aisle, and my mum fuss over me and drive me crazy with wedding plans. I never got to say goodbye."

She looked at him sadly, and he knew that was what hurt her most; that she didn't get to say goodbye.

"It wouldn't have mattered Lily," James said softly, holding her hand slightly, mainly to prevent her from tearing her finger off. "Even if you got to experience those things, you still would be feeling like this now. You still wouldn't feel ready for them to be taken away from you. You can never be ready for that."

"I know," she said defeatedly. James could see the sorrow in her eyes as she accepted what she was telling him. He sensed that she had been fighting that acceptance for a long time

"There's only one thing that makes me happy about all this," she voiced softly.

"Which is?"

"That they died together. I don't think they would have coped without each other. They were inseparable, and completely in love with each other, even after all these years. I know if it were me, I wouldn't want to spend years without the person that meant more to me than anyone else on this earth. I would rather go together, so I wouldn't have to bear the pain."

James nodded, he felt the same way. He couldn't imagine his parents coping without the other.

Again, another silence came over the both of them, and again it wasn't one that evoked feelings of discomfort.

"You know, I'm only letting you hold my hand because I am not quite with it," she said smiling, breaking the silence.

"And here I was thinking I'd finally got lucky," James smirked.

"Don't hold your breath Potter," she replied, "better yet do, then I wouldn't have to put up with you anymore."

James smiled. He preferred Lily like this than crying or completely blowing her fuse. He knew there was a long way to go before she would see him in any other light than that which he has been bathed in for seven years, but he knew they were getting somewhere at last. He knew that they had finally gotten to the stage they were at last year; friends….and for the two of them, that was something.

"When did you become so sensitive and understanding anyway?" Lily asked as they started to make their way to their dormitories.

James smiled, "Maybe it isn't when I started acting that way, maybe it should be when you started seeing me that way."

He grabbed her hand again quickly, and kissed her lightly on the palm, "Night me lady."

Lily pulled her hand away, attempting to look angry, but failing miserably. "Night James."

With that James climbed the stairs leading to his room, thinking about the look on Lily's face as he left her. Maybe we are getting somewhere? He thought. I am sure you will manage to screw it up, a second voice said. He sighed, I have no doubt.

Ok there you go…so will you review?….please? :D