The Sister (2) - Chapter 17
I said, "No really, what happened to that great guy I married 6 years ago? The one who just meant everything to me.the one who I said screw my father, love is more important.the one who sat by my side every day when I was in chemotherapy just to reassure me everything would be fine, the guy I loved having a son with, the guy I sat with watching how amazing he was to fight back from a career ending injury, just to come back and have the fans scream and cheer his name so loud you couldn't hear yourself breathe for 30 minutes. Because the man I married isn't the one standing in front of me, it's just some monster, who doesn't realize how precious life is, and that when god gives you something, you don't just throw it away like it was nothing."
I moved around a little and continued, "Paul I can't believe you would even think for a minute.no a second, that I would ever have an abortion.my life with you has been wonderful, it's been phenomenal.having Xander when the doctors said, I might not be able to have children because of the Chemo, and now being blessed to get pregnant again, I never imagined it would ever happen a second time.If you think I'm having an abortion, because it just doesn't fit into your life right now, then you are sadly mistaken, and if you can't handle it, that's fine.I will leave, I will move out, we can get divorced if you like.but the word abortion will never be an option in my life.never."
I walked out and left Paul with all his thoughts and my words, and hopefully he'll get his head out of his ass, long enough to realize, the baby is not bad news. I walked into Stephanie's office, by now I had all the tears out and had cleaned up my face.Xander was awake and I said, "Steph, I'm going to go ahead and go back to Greenwich, all this traveling has made me sick.I'm so tired, and I don't feel good. So I'll go ahead and take Xander with me." She said, "You wanna use the company jet?" I said, "No, I have a rental car out back, I'm going to just go ahead and drive the 100 miles. It won't kill me."
Steph looked in my eyes and I said, "What?" She said, "You're lying to me.You're eyes give it away every time.What's really going on?" I said, "Nothing important, Paul and I are just having a small disagreement.but I really am sick.I have the flu bug." Steph said, "No you don't, you're pregnant.aren't you?" I said, "How'd you guess?" She said, "Because you had this same tired ass look on your face when you were pregnant with Xander. Is Paul giving you shit cause of the baby?"
I said, "Stephanie you're my sister, not my therapist, just let things be for a while.I just talked to Paul and it was pretty harsh, I don't know how much of an effect on him it will have, but hopefully something will get through that thick, stubborn head of his." Stephanie said, "You want me to rough him up a bit for you.I could take him.you know I could." We looked at each other and started laughing.and both said, "Yea right." I said, "It was a good effort on your part."
She said, "Really, I thought if I growled a little more, and flexed my muscles.well what muscles I have.would help you make your decision." I said, "Oh yea, to never let you around Paul when either of you are pissed off." Stephanie said, "Hey, Can I help it if I have my fathers temper." I said, "No, but you really did get it honestly from him." We giggled a little and I grabbed Xander and we said our good-byes, and then headed out.
When I got back into town, I went ahead and started looking at apartments, I didn't want to have to bring Xander with me, so my mom took him so I could get things done.I wasn't going to rent an apt, I was only looking in the event that I had too, especially if things just wouldn't work out with Paul. I found a couple of really nice ones that I could fix up and acclimate into mine, but I was trying not to think too serious about it.
Of course every time I looked at a different apartment the manager would leave so I could walk around and look, and I'd cry.I couldn't help but cry, I was hoping Paul would just call my cell phone and tell me he was being an ass or a fool and say he wanted to have as many babies as possible with me.but naturally he didn't. I just wanted somebody who cares.don't we all?
I figured up until a couple of days ago, I had someone who cared, some times I wish I could take him away from all the craziness of the business, but as well as I know him he'd never stay away too long, it's his life.he puts his body on the line every night, and loves it. I know I got the better part of the deal when I got him.a gift like that, you can't deny.
I said, "No really, what happened to that great guy I married 6 years ago? The one who just meant everything to me.the one who I said screw my father, love is more important.the one who sat by my side every day when I was in chemotherapy just to reassure me everything would be fine, the guy I loved having a son with, the guy I sat with watching how amazing he was to fight back from a career ending injury, just to come back and have the fans scream and cheer his name so loud you couldn't hear yourself breathe for 30 minutes. Because the man I married isn't the one standing in front of me, it's just some monster, who doesn't realize how precious life is, and that when god gives you something, you don't just throw it away like it was nothing."
I moved around a little and continued, "Paul I can't believe you would even think for a minute.no a second, that I would ever have an abortion.my life with you has been wonderful, it's been phenomenal.having Xander when the doctors said, I might not be able to have children because of the Chemo, and now being blessed to get pregnant again, I never imagined it would ever happen a second time.If you think I'm having an abortion, because it just doesn't fit into your life right now, then you are sadly mistaken, and if you can't handle it, that's fine.I will leave, I will move out, we can get divorced if you like.but the word abortion will never be an option in my life.never."
I walked out and left Paul with all his thoughts and my words, and hopefully he'll get his head out of his ass, long enough to realize, the baby is not bad news. I walked into Stephanie's office, by now I had all the tears out and had cleaned up my face.Xander was awake and I said, "Steph, I'm going to go ahead and go back to Greenwich, all this traveling has made me sick.I'm so tired, and I don't feel good. So I'll go ahead and take Xander with me." She said, "You wanna use the company jet?" I said, "No, I have a rental car out back, I'm going to just go ahead and drive the 100 miles. It won't kill me."
Steph looked in my eyes and I said, "What?" She said, "You're lying to me.You're eyes give it away every time.What's really going on?" I said, "Nothing important, Paul and I are just having a small disagreement.but I really am sick.I have the flu bug." Steph said, "No you don't, you're pregnant.aren't you?" I said, "How'd you guess?" She said, "Because you had this same tired ass look on your face when you were pregnant with Xander. Is Paul giving you shit cause of the baby?"
I said, "Stephanie you're my sister, not my therapist, just let things be for a while.I just talked to Paul and it was pretty harsh, I don't know how much of an effect on him it will have, but hopefully something will get through that thick, stubborn head of his." Stephanie said, "You want me to rough him up a bit for you.I could take him.you know I could." We looked at each other and started laughing.and both said, "Yea right." I said, "It was a good effort on your part."
She said, "Really, I thought if I growled a little more, and flexed my muscles.well what muscles I have.would help you make your decision." I said, "Oh yea, to never let you around Paul when either of you are pissed off." Stephanie said, "Hey, Can I help it if I have my fathers temper." I said, "No, but you really did get it honestly from him." We giggled a little and I grabbed Xander and we said our good-byes, and then headed out.
When I got back into town, I went ahead and started looking at apartments, I didn't want to have to bring Xander with me, so my mom took him so I could get things done.I wasn't going to rent an apt, I was only looking in the event that I had too, especially if things just wouldn't work out with Paul. I found a couple of really nice ones that I could fix up and acclimate into mine, but I was trying not to think too serious about it.
Of course every time I looked at a different apartment the manager would leave so I could walk around and look, and I'd cry.I couldn't help but cry, I was hoping Paul would just call my cell phone and tell me he was being an ass or a fool and say he wanted to have as many babies as possible with me.but naturally he didn't. I just wanted somebody who cares.don't we all?
I figured up until a couple of days ago, I had someone who cared, some times I wish I could take him away from all the craziness of the business, but as well as I know him he'd never stay away too long, it's his life.he puts his body on the line every night, and loves it. I know I got the better part of the deal when I got him.a gift like that, you can't deny.