Only Two
By: Neseri
Disclaimer: Rurouni Kenshin is not my own creation, it belongs to Nobuhiro Watsuki. End of story!
I'm scared.
I'm scared but I know that there are two choices and two only. Neither of them allows the luxury of being scared. The gentle part of my soul wishes for a way to not have to kill, but then again I want to follow my heart with what I believe is right.
But if I do that then killing will become a nightly ritual. An act of blood shedding for the betterment of Japan to let the Ishin Shishi gain the upper hand in this vicious civil war.
Today is when I have to forget about being scared, and be ready to kill. Killing your enemy is not glory, because in the end we are all just the same flesh and blood, it is our beliefs that set us apart.
I'm afraid that I'll change when I become an assassin; I've heard stories of crazed men that bathe in blood and lust for the taste upon their lips.
Yet again there are only two choices, kill or be killed, I have to slay the opponent swiftly or die myself. It's so much easier just to pretend that what I'll be killing is not human, that it's something nameless anddoes not have parents, family, or friends. It's easier because then my own feelings will not come into play.
I'm still ready to fight, to give my sword to a worthy cause that will, hopefully, bring about a new era. There's no room to be afraid anymore.
However I know that when I roam the shadows of Kyoto, I'll be afraid for myself and at what I'll have become.
Cold-blooded murderer.
Demon.
Assassin.
A/N: Please review, it'll be greatly appreciated, and thanks for reading!
Farewell for now,
-Neseri