Authors Notes: Okay guys, I didn't post yesterday. I know this is late, but I got kinda freaked out because my friend Sachiko Imed me when I got up and I found out what happened in England, where she lives. I was really scared. Sachiko, this chapter is for you. +hugs+ I hope everyone is alright gurlie.

Disclaimer: I do not own Inu Yasha
Bad Day

Chapter 30: Every heart doesn't know what to say or what to do

Her time was up, and Kagome felt like her tears and sobs would choke her to death. Sesshoumaru hugged her tightly to his body and smiled down at her once.

"You are stronger than you know Kagome. Everything will be fine," He told her. Kagome nodded her head and let him kiss her gently. There was a sense of urgency in the kiss, something she didn't catch.

How was it she had come to love Sesshoumaru? She didn't remember a time when she didn't care about the Sesshoumaru of her time. How gentle he was. What had happened to make him so?

But the time for questions was over. The Sesshoumaru of the past waited for her, and she needed to go to him.

With a final kiss she jumped into the well and let herself feel the magic washing over her.

When she climbed out, she saw Sesshoumaru. He looked haggard and tired, with dark circles beneath his eyes.

"Oh my god, what happened to you?" Kagome asked as she rushed over to him and put her arms around him. She received no answer, and it didn't surprise her. A cloud floated not far off. Understanding dawned on her features. He had used too much energy and it had begun to eat away at his body, draining everything from him.

"Come on, we're going home," She told him sternly as she summoned a cloud of her own so that he would no longer have to fuel his own.

After practically pulling him onto the cloud, she put energy into it and began to direct them home. Then she began thinking.

If she could transfer energy into a cloud, could she transfer some to Sesshoumaru? Would it hurt him? Would it purify him?

Tears fell from her eyes because of the hopeless situation. All she could pray for was a few calm days at his castle where he could rest. Naraku and Kikyo would have to wait. The youkai sleeping in her arms was her sole concern.

A few days later Sesshoumaru awoke with a blinding ache behind his eyes Keeping his lids closed, he tried to will the headache away.

No such luck.

He let himself grow used to the pain and stood, bile rising in his throat. But he kept walking, wondering where Kagome was and berating himself for his foolish actions. He had let himself get too weak, and if Naraku had decided to attack, he wouldn't have been able to survive.

He clothed himself and pulled his hair back into a ponytail. Somehow Kagome had washed it for him. He'd have to thank her later.

He listened as hard as he could and smiled when he heard a gentle singing coming from the garden.

He stepped outside, blinking as the light hit his eyes, increasing the pain that lay just behind them. Enduring, he walked to the gate of his garden and opened it slightly. He saw everyone sitting around Kagome on a blanket. Food was spread around and as the last line of her song floated on the wind, he stepped out and closed the gate behind him.

"Sesshoumaru-sama!" Rin shrieked as she got up and ran towards him. Kagome stood and looked at him as he bent down and picked the young girl up. He kept walking forwards and finally arrived at the group. Odd, his headache was quickly fading.

He gently kissed Kagome and sat down next to her. She offered him a plate of rice balls and he took three, ravenously hungry.

"It's good to see you up and about again my boy. Kagome here was scared half to death when she arrived," Kentetsu said. Sesshoumaru smiled at her gently, and Kagome blushed.

"I am fine now. We will leave in a week to find Naraku and kill him," Sesshoumaru said as he finished off another rice ball.

"Who all is going?" Kentetsu asked.

"I know I am. All of us have a reason to go," Kouga said. Sango and Miroku nodded, but Kagome was looking at Inu Yasha. Would Sesshoumaru allow him to go as well?

"I'm going too," Inu Yasha told them. Kagome felt her heart hurt a little for the hanyou. Did he know how Kikyo had refused to give up the shard? Would he still be friends with everyone after the battle was over?

"I see. Inu Yasha, do not get in my way. Naraku must die," Sesshoumaru answered.

"Then why don't you just put the shards you have into yourself, it'll make you stronger. Or better yet, why don't you let me do it?" Inu Yasha asked in a venomously sweet voice. Kagome had never heard a guy say anything in such a tone, but it sounded evil.

"Inu Yasha, you should know better. You've seen what the shards do to people, how it corrupts them!" Sango said in an angry voice. "Just look what it did to Naraku, and you two aren't so different! You both crave Kikyo," She spat.

"I am nothing like him!"

"Oh really? Inu Yasha, you are both hanyou, and you both crave a woman long dead, that woman led to both you downfall and Naraku's," Sesshoumaru said in a calm, apathetic voice as he sipped some green tea Kagome poured into a glass for him.

"Shut up Sesshoumaru!" Inu Yasha shouted as he began to stand.

"Inu Yasha, first off, sit down. Second, all of us need to stop fighting like this. It's stupid. The battle with Naraku is ahead. We have to stick together instead of bickering like children. Inu Yasha, whatever anger you have towards Sesshoumaru, put it away for now. Bicker all you want after we defeat Naraku. Sesshoumaru, please stop baiting him," Kagome said. Sesshoumaru nodded and Inu Yasha sat down, eyes open wide with shock. Kagome had never said anything in such a deadly calm voice, and certainly not when she had been berating him!

"Do any of you know where to search?" Kentetsu asked in a serious tone.

"To the north. He's up in the mountains, Mount Hakurei to be exact," Kagome whispered. Everyone looked at her, shocked once more.

"How do you know that?" Kouga asked.

"When I killed Karasu, some of his knowledge was imparted to me," She lied. Sesshoumaru smelled the slight tinge of shame on her. Why would she lie about this though? He would find out later how she knew.

"Then in one week we will head there. Kentetsu, at that time, I ask you to take the children with you and go to your home. Take Lyn as well," Sesshoumaru added. Kentetsu nodded in acquiescence.

"We can make major plans later. For now we all need to rest and be with our loved ones," Sango said quietly, her voice laced with a slight tinge of fear.

Kagome nodded, as well as Miroku and Kentetsu, but it seemed as if Kouga, Inu Yasha, and Sesshoumaru had heard nothing.

"Why one week?" Inu Yasha snarled.

"Sit."

And the conversation was over, and a new topic began. Sango spoke about Shippou and Rin's antics as she had been away. Shippou and Rin had run to Sesshoumaru when a storm had hit and awoken the demon. Kagome giggled when she heard about how he had had to console them.

"He'll be a great father someday," Sango said in a sly voice and a suggestive smile.

"Maybe," Kagome said with a blush.

"No maybes to it. He's going to try and kill any children that aren't perfect in his eyes," Inu Yasha muttered.

"Sit," Kagome said in an angry voice. How could Inu Yasha be such a social jackass? Didn't he have an inner monologue, or did he just spit words out before his mind even comprehended the fact he would get sat for saying such things?

"If you ask me, you asked for that Inu Yasha," Kouga said. He had gotten to see more of Sesshoumaru, and when he saw how Kagome had worried herself sick over the youkai, he realized it was love. At least on her part. He would get Sesshoumaru in private one day and threaten his genitalia if he ever hurt the girl though.

"Shut up," Inu Yasha growled as he finally ripped his face from the ground. Sango almost chuckled and Miroku smirked. Kouga smiled openly and Kagome kept her face an apathetic mask.

"I'm going for a bath, want to come Kagome?" Sango asked. "It would do us good to get away from all these males. Maybe they'll fight the frustration out by the time we get back," Sango said with a giggle. Kagome nodded and kissed Sesshoumaru gently, then walked away with her friend.

Kouga made sure she was out of hearing range before he began his lecture.

"Sesshoumaru, I accept she wanted you over me, but I won't stop loving her. If you ever harm a single hair on her head I will make sure you regret it," Kouga told him. Sesshoumaru nodded his acceptance, inwardly raging. How many men loved his Kagome? Would he forever be watching out for youkai, hanyou, and humans alike to challenge him for her?

"So, it seems Sesshoumaru will be alright. So now it's some relaxation time for you. I swear, you were looking so exhausted these past few days I wanted to knock you out so you'd sleep," Sango admitted as they soaked in the baths. Kagome smiled and almost groaned as the hot water did it's magic on her sore muscles.

"I wanted to be awake when he woke up. The only reason I was at the picnic today was because you guys forced me," Kagome accused.

"You weren't eating anything up until today!" Sango returned defensively. "You wouldn't do Sesshoumaru much good if you passed out from exhaustion," Sango told her sternly. Kagome sighed and nodded in agreement. Sango really did only want her to be safe.

"You really love him huh?" Sango asked.

"Yes, I love him more than anything," Kagome replied.

"More than Inu Yasha?"

"Sango, I'm not really sure if I ever loved Inu Yasha, not really anyway. I mean, he was a total beast about Sesshoumaru and I mating. And the things he said. When he said the, they didn't really hurt, you know? If he had thought that way about me and I loved him, wouldn't it hurt more?" Kagome asked her friend. Sango looked shocked.

"Just what did he say about you?" She suddenly demanded. Kagome felt like blushing, forgetting Sango hadn't heard the insults Inu Yasha had tossed at her.

"Just some stupid comments," Kagome said as she popped her neck.

"Like what?" Sango demanded to know. Kagome could already see the hunter seething silently as she waited. There was no getting around it.

"He said I was a slut with no loyalties, that sort of thing. I think he was just shocked that Sesshoumaru and I had mated," Kagome told her friend.

"I think we were all a bit shocked when we heard that scream and knew it was you and him," Sango said with a blush. Kagome blushed as well.

"Yeah well," Kagome stuttered.

"It's okay. Inu Yasha was convinced Sesshoumaru had gotten to me too when I screamed, that is until he found out It was Miroku," Sango giggled. Kagome looked at the blushing girl, shocked.

"Sango, I don't think I've ever seen you like this. I'm glad you're so happy, it makes me even happier," Kagome told her friend. Sango smiled.

"We're so close to defeating Naraku. And Miroku will survive, we all will, I'm sure of it. And after the battle, we'll all have families, right?" Sango asked.

Kagome pondered the thought. She was only sixteen now, and she was stuck between a rock and a hard place. More than anything she wanted to have a family with Sesshoumaru. However, she had to finish school. And how could she tell Sango that after the battle she was leaving?

"I want a family, but not yet. I have to finish school. But Sango, I think it's wonderful you and Miroku will have a family after the battle. And you're right, I'm sure everyone will make it through the battle," Kagome told her friend.

But deep within, she wasn't so sure.

At dinner everyone spoke of light, easy things. Rin and Shippou helped the conversation stay innocent. No one mentioned the word slut once, though Sango did more than her fair share of glaring at the hanyou.

Kagome sat next to Sesshoumaru, as he had directed. Somehow, he seemed warmer towards her, softer. What had changed him so much in the few days she had been gone?

Suddenly someone asked Kaede about her and Kentetsu's relationship. Was it Kouga? Yes.

"Kentetsu and I are…Old friends," Kaede told the wolf youkai. Kouga snorted.

"Kaede, you wound me! Will you not tell them of our wonderfully spectacular relationship that has lasted almost forty years?" Kentetsu said with a dramatic 'woe is me' pose.

"Humph, old man you have lost your mind. We have been friends throughout the years," Kaede said with a bit of a blush.

Kagome wanted to gag. She really didn't want to think Kentetsu was alluding to something other than just friendship.

Dinner went quickly after that. Kouga seemed to regret his question, as shown by his sudden lack of appetite. As everyone said their goodnights, Kagome noticed Sango holding Miroku's hand. Rin and Shippou ran off. Kagome smiled at them knowingly. One day…

Sesshoumaru took her hand and led her to his rooms, no, their rooms, she amended. And indeed, they were now rooms meant for the both of them. A woman's vanity and chest had been put in there. Several bottles of lotions lay on the vanity, and a better mirror lay in there now. The dark swathes of black cloth had been replaced with cream and green swatches that would still block out unwanted sunlight in the early morning.

Suddenly she was turned towards him roughly and he kissed her deeply, with an intensity she had never felt before.

Knowing the cause, feeling the same way he felt, she kissed him back with as much urgency. She was so scared of the future. Scared of hurting him when she left. How could she do it knowing that it would hurt him?

He tore her clothes from her body and his own, then pushed her into the bed.

Their love making wasn't gentle the first time. Instead it had been urgent and needy, trying to fulfill a need, to chase away the shadows of the future. Their release had given them something shared as they held onto one another, clinging and sweaty.

Kagome gasped as she felt him stir within her.

And until dawn he made love to her so tenderly she had wanted to cry for the sheer emotions she felt within her heart for the cold youkai lord that had stolen her heart and given her his in turn.

Authors End Notes: Sorry it took so long. Do you know what would make so so friggin happy? To have 500 reviews by the epilogue. Yes, there will be an epilogue, but no prequel. Soz folks. But yes, Im a greedy wench and i hope I reach my goal of five hundred reviews by the epilogue. +crosses fingers+

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