Revised
My Love For You Is InsatiableIt had been a week; a week of being enclosed in a dark, small, cold space for Pan. The odd guard would pass her cell every half-hour, but then there was only silence. She was the only one down in the dungeon of the palace; the last time it had been full was when the saiyans had been under the rule of Frieza. Since he had been destroyed, the saiyans made treaties instead of killing entire races.
Pan clutched her forehead. On it was a slash that went from the top right hand corner, over her left eyebrow and over her eye to finish at her ear. It had bled for hours after it had been inflicted; all that was left now was a scab. Pan had a black eye too. She was cold and thirsty. They did feed her, but only left her little water. She hugged her knees closer to her. She wished Trunks would just get it over with and kill her, but he was going slowly. He had only come into the cell to beat on her twice, and she took the pain. The slash was the result of her asking him to just kill her quickly. She didn't care anymore.
Bulma had even come and had a go at her. Pan could remember the slap Bulma had given her. It had stung, and after that, she had a series of punches from her.
"Hey," said a voice at the cell door.
Pan looked up to see Bra. Pan turned away before Bra came into the cell, locking the door behind her. Bra crouched down to Pan's level.
"I thought you were my friend, but that was just a façade. I don't know how you could do what you did to my brother, but it was a miracle he came back to life, however that happened. I just wish you stayed in hell. Trunks is in pain, I can see it in his eyes. He loved you but you broke it. He even blames himself for loving you," she said.
Pan looked to Bra, her eyes heavy.
"Just tell him to kill me. I don't want the pain, even though I take it without crying out."
"He won't want that, and you know it. Anyway, you've spoilt my life too. My Mom and Dad have forbidden me to go near Goten anymore because he's part of your family. Although he is pure hearted, I've lost him for good…and I thought he would be the one to be my mate. Oh, and I have a surprise for you too. We told your Grandma and Goten what you did and they want to see you. They're waiting for me to return right now, so…do you want to see them murderer?" asked Bra.
Pan thought for a moment. She wanted to see them, to tell them the truth, but what would they say when they saw her in her state.
"I want to see them," she mumbled.
"Good. Because it will be the last time you do."
Bra left, and then returned with Goten and Chi-Chi. She let them in and told them that they had twenty minutes. Bra left. Chi-Chi walked to Pan and crouched down to her. Pan had her head in her knees.
"Pan," she called.
She looked up and Chi-Chi gasped at the sight of her, "Grandma…"
"It's okay," she said before hugging Pan tightly. She sat down next to her while Goten looked down at her.
"Why did you do it Pan? Or are they lying?" he asked.
"I did do it…I did. But I made a mistake. He…he wasn't the right one!" she replied.
"Pan, you told me that he was the one, and I told you to listen to your heart. So, why didn't you? It would have led you in the right direction," said Chi-Chi.
"What do you mean Mum?" asked Goten.
Pan explained everything. She told Goten the story of what she thought Trunks did, and her plan. She told him how she had fallen in love with him, but ignored it. And then she told them both what she did. How she killed him, how she committed suicide and of what happened in hell. What Sheik did, and the real truth, that Sheik had killed them. Then she told them how her parents and her Grandpa had saved her and what had happened when she had come back to life again. They couldn't believe it, but it was true.
"They…they helped you?" asked Goten.
"Yeah. They said that things would get better, but they haven't at all," she replied.
"Sheik was connected to Trunks so he went to hell. Sheik is now dead, so Trunks is free. If Trunks kills you though, won't he go back to hell?" asked Chi-Chi.
"No," said Goten, "killing someone in a war wouldn't permit you to hell. If someone tried an attempt on your life and you killed him or her in self-defence, then they wouldn't go to hell. Pan killed him because she thought he was the one who had killed our family, but he wasn't, resulting in her going to hell. Trunks is a kind person, he won't go to hell."
"When he kills me, I will go back to hell right?" asked Pan.
Chi-Chi sighed, "Probably…"
"If only Trunks hadn't been frozen and had heard the conversation, then maybe he would have forgiven you," said Goten.
"He wouldn't Uncle. He's alive now and hasn't forgiven me. The only way that this could ever be right again is if I hadn't killed him. I'm doomed, even if I am a Son."
Chi-Chi hugged Pan tightly as tears came out of her eyes, "We'll never forget that you're innocent, never. You'll be in our hearts forever until we die."
Goten hugged her too, "We can't do anything to help you, but remember us, ok?"
"I will remember you both, no matter what. I will survive my afterlife; we'll meet again. I promise we will."
Trunks woke up with a start. He was breathing hard, sweat dripping down his forehead. Pan had been haunting his dreams ever since he had returned from hell. He clutched his head.
Why won't she go out of my head? he asked himself. His heart was aching due to his broken bond. He only wished that the pain would go away, that he would meet the perfect girl to bond too.
But she was perfect…It was night, but she didn't know what time it was. Pan sighed. She couldn't believe that she probably wouldn't even reach her seventeenth birthday. She got up and stretched. Her muscles were aching in pain, but she didn't care. There was only one source of light, a tiny vent shaft that let in the moonlight. The moon was crescent. It wouldn't be full for another seven years. She had never experienced the transformation to Oozaru as the moon cycle took twenty-four years. She had just missed the last one: a year before she was born.
She sat down again. Her childhood dreams were out of the window.
I prepared his death for six years, training and pushing myself…but in the end I was wrong. I was stupid to come up with a plan like that; so many risks! No mate or family when I'm older…no Grandchildren to be proud of…… she thought.
Everything's so blurry,Everyone's so fake
And everybody's empty
Everything's so messed up.
I'm occupied without you:
I cannot live at all,
My whole world's around you
I'll stumble then I'll crawl.
You can be my someone, you can be my scene.
Know that I'll protect you from all of the obscene,
I wonder what you'll do then imagine where you are,
There's oceans in between us, but that's not very far.
She just wanted it to be over: for her to die or for everything to be back to normal.
Can you take it all away?Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face?
Explain again to me.
Can you take it all away?Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face?
Explain again to me.
Even if everything were back to normal, she would live with the guilt for good.
Everyone is changingThere's no one left that's real,
So, make up your own ending:
Let me know just how you feel,
'Cos I am lost without you;
I cannot live at all.
My whole world's around you,
I'll stumble then I'll crawl.
And you can be my someone, you can be my scene.
Know that I will save you from all of the unclean,
I wonder what you'll do then wonder where you are,
There's oceans in between us, but that's not very far.
Pan wanted to hear her Father's voice, to hear him tell her that soon she would be okay, even if it was hell.
Can you take it all away?Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face?
Explain again to me.
Can you take it all away?Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face?
Explain again to me.
She held her heads in her hands, wanting the voices of regret to go.
Nobody told me what you found,Nobody told me what to say,
Everyone showed you where to turn,
Told you when to runaway.
Nobody told me what you found,Nobody told me what to say,
Nobody told you where to hide,
Showed you where to runaway.
But they did. They did tell her the path. She could remember her Grandpa's voice: "You will survive, you will get through it. You have to have faith in what you believe and what is reality from truth. It won't be an ending like before…"
Can you take it all away?Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face?
Explain again to me.
No………………………
Explain again to me…
They did explain it to her, but how what they said happen? Would it come true? Pan could only believe in fate.
Please r and r!
Song used: 'Blurry' by Puddle of Mudd
dragon agility