Enchanted Love
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters in this story, although I can think of a few I would love to own! This is for entertainment purposes only.
Story: It's Hermione's 7th year at Hogwarts, and now that Lord Voldemort has been defeated, she has time to think about her life. She begins a forbidden relationship with Remus Lupin, but soon finds another man enchants her thoughts. Sirius Black isn't dead, and is now teaching.
Chapter 9 - The Heart Won't Lie
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Cause the heart won't lie
Sometimes life gets in the way
But there's one thing that won't change
I know I've tried
The heart won't lie
You can live your alibi
Who can see you're lost inside a foolish disguise
'The Heart Won't Lie' Vince Gill & Reba McEntire
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Sirius woke up the next morning with an awful headache. He groaned as he held his head, the memories of the night before flooding him, and making him quickly feel sick. He ran for his bathroom, barely making it before he began to harshly vomit.
He stood on shaky legs and washed his face off. Sirius studied his reflection in the mirror. Why had he treated Hermione that way? He could see her standing by the lake, shoulders shaking with her sobs. He had pushed her, hurt her. She would never trust him again.
That thought was enough to send Sirius back to his toilet. When he was sure his stomach was empty, he stood again and went back to his sitting room. He would have to tell her what had happened, try to make her understand. He couldn't live with her being mad at him.
What if she didn't understand? Would he be okay if she was gone from his life forever? Sirius felt his throat burning as the tears began to rise inside him. He didn't cry often, but he felt it coming now. He couldn't lose her, he was tired of losing everyone dear to him. He was going to have to tell her the truth about how he felt, and deal with her reaction and Remus when the time came.
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Remus sighed as he let the water beat down on him. Sometimes the shower was the best place to think. He held his hands up to the warm liquid, and let it flow though his fingers.
His mind was racing. Things had happened so fast with Hermione, and now she seemed different. He was afraid he was losing her before he had even had a chance to really have her.
Remus was shocked when he had found out Hermione returned his feelings. That first kiss by the lake had set his blood boiling. She was incredible. She seemed to really like him in return.
But then things were different right away. They had barely begun to see each other when she became so distant. Remus knew that things were going to be weird because they had to keep their relationship a secret, and that it would be dangerous if they got caught.
But she still seemed like something more was wrong. He sighed again as he rinsed the soap out of his hair. He was going to have to spend some time with her and get her to open up to him if this relationship was going to work.
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"Morning." Ginny said, sitting down on the end of Hermione's bed. "Rise and shine." she giggled.
Hermione pulled her pillow over her head. "Go away." she said in a whisper.
"No way." Ginny replied, pulling the pillow away from Hermione. "You are going to get up, you are going to take a shower, you are going to brush your teeth and then you are going to tell me what is going on, and why you cried all night."
Hermione groaned and covered her eyes up with her hand. "I don't want to talk about it. It was nothing." she said.
"Get up. NOW!" Ginny demanded, hands on her hips. "I am not going to listen to your lies anymore. Something is going on, and you are going to spill the beans."
Hermione slowly sat up. She was still wearing the robe Sirius had given her last night. "I will take a shower and brush my teeth, but that is it." she declared. "There is nothing to talk about."
Hermione pushed past Ginny and entered the bathroom, shutting and locking the door behind her. Ginny stared after her friend. Why was she wearing that giant robe? It smelled like a mans robe anyways.
Hermione quickly showered and brushed her teeth. She did feel better after the warm shower. She slipped into jeans and a sweatshirt, the perfect Sunday loungewear. She looked at Sirius' robe one more time, before decided not to put it back on.
After running a brush through her curls, she quietly opened the bathroom door, hoping Ginny would have gone to breakfast by now.
No such luck. The redhead was standing in the middle of the room, staring at Hermione when she opened the door. Hermione groaned. "Don't you eat or anything?" she snapped.
"Don't get nasty with me Hermione. I care about you. I want to help, you need to let me in. Don't tell me things are fine. You don't eat anymore. You stare off into space all the time, you were not yourself in Hogsmeade, and last night you cried for hours."
"I don't know if I want to talk about it Ginny. I just don't know how I feel, so I can't get into it." Hermione said, her shoulders beginning to shake as the tears worked their way out.
"Hermione.." Ginny said gently, walking over to her friend. "Don't cry. I didn't mean to make you cry. I just want to help." Ginny took her friend into her arms and led her to the bed, were they both sat down. Hermione set the robe behind her, wishing the scent would go away, and at the same time loving it.
"Ginny. It's so confusing." Hermione sobbed.
"What is?" Ginny asked.
"I don't know where to start." Hermione said, wiping at a tear.
"Is it Remus?" Ginny prompted.
"No." Hermione answered. "It's Sirius."
"Sirius?" Ginny asked, feeling confused. "Is he giving Remus crap for dating you?"
"No. He knows, but he hasn't said anything to Remus. It's just that…." Hermione broke off.
"You can tell me." Ginny encouraged.
"I think I might love Sirius." Hermione whispered.
"I thought something was up." Ginny said.
Hermione's face fell apart. "See, I shouldn't have told you. ." she sobbed. "How did you know something was up? That is why you called me 'Mione yesterday isn't it?"
Ginny put her arm back around Hermione. "I didn't know much. I just noticed that every time Sirius wasn't paying attention you were staring at him, and I noticed he kept staring at you. He was watching you and Remus through the window at Zonko's. Now, tell me what is going on."
"Things were great with Remus, and then remember when Sirius and I got stuck in that room a couple nights ago?"
Ginny nodded. "Yes, the night that me and Harry began to date."
"Yes, that was the night. Well, before the night was over Sirius tried to kiss me, but Dumbledore opened the door right before he could." Hermione checked Ginny's reaction, but found her friend had nothing but concern in her eyes.
She took a deep breath and continued. "Since then, I have been dreaming about him, and every time I see him I feel different inside. Not the weak-knees different that I felt with Remus, but this feeling deep in my stomach, I can't explain it."
"So what happened to make you cry last night?" Ginny asked.
"I was with Remus Friday night in his room, and he wanted to go further, I wasn't ready. I went in the bedroom with him and everything, and then I couldn't do it, because I closed my eyes and was with Sirius. Remus was understanding. He thought it was because I was nervous." she took another breath.
"Last night I took your advice and went for a walk. Sirius must have saw me, and came out to the lake with his robe, he wrapped it around me to keep me warm, and then he apologized for trying to kiss me. I told him it was okay, I was feeling so confused. He got mad, and yelled at me, telling me I should be mad at him." Hermione began to sob again, fresh tears rolling.
"I asked him why he was mad, and the grabbed me and pulled me against him. I wanted him to kiss me so bad. I didn't care about right or wrong. I didn't care about Remus. I just wanted him to kiss me." she cried. "But instead he yelled again. Calling me Ms. Granger. He told me he didn't need my games. The told me he didn't need me. He pushed me away from him and I fell. I thought he would turn back to me. Apologize to me, at least help me up, but he walked away instead." Hermione cried.
"Oh Hermione." Ginny said, hugging her friend close. "Do you love him?" she asked gently.
"I don't know. I care about Remus so much. I don't know how I feel. I don't know what to do, how to figure things out. I didn't even know I was playing games with Sirius."
"You aren't. It just sounds like he is confused and hurting also, and was blaming you because he was being immature." Ginny explained. "You need to figure out how you feel, and then do something about it."
"But how? I am so confused." Hermione asked.
"The heart won't lie Hermione. You need to figure out what and who your heart wants." Ginny said gently.
Hermione nodded. "Thank you." she said gently.
"That is what we are here for. To help each other though the good and the bad. I'll do what I can for you Hermione." Ginny said. "Now, lets go eat." she pulled her friend up.
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Thank You!
Cookiedoughicecream: Well, I'm glad you used a rubber bat. LOL! I wasn't sure about leaving the last scene in. I didn't want him to come across so mean, but I wanted to push the anger issue. Can you imagine taking Sirius into Zonkos? I wish he hadn't died in the book. JK could have explored all of that. Maybe Sirius could have used his family money to help the Weasley twins with their store. By the way, went back to Dairy Queen. This time I bought Mint Chocolate Chip. I am going to go get so fat this week. Thanks for the review!
Broken Wings: Thank you. I didn't really think about there being a lot of humor in the story, but I guess as I reread it, I can see the humor in it.
Soda Stereo: I hope today wasn't a horrible day. Thank you for the review, and please keep on reading.
VeelaGurl: You say such nice things about my fic, thank you! I try to update every couple of days. I sort of have the story planned out in my head, and I just work on it whenever I sit down at the computer. I basically know how I want it to go, and just work on the 'filling' as I type. Thanks again for beings so sweet!
Stacey: I sent you an email about this chapter, so I hope you got it. Thank you for reviewing, and taking an interest in my story.
Mai Gamit: When I wrote the end, I didn't want Sirius to come across as abusive, but I also didn't want to change it, because I thought the anger element needed to stay. I didn't know what to do!
She even slept in the robe lol! Thanks for the review.