Chapter 5

Almost two hours had passed since the driveway. Marissa had been lying on her bed, just thinking about what had happened, overwhelmed by the many emotions that were running through her. Her mind kept replaying the kiss, over and over. There was suddenly a knock at her bedroom door.
"Who is it?" She asked
"Uh, it's Seth."
"Oh my god." She thought. "I thought he was just going to call me."
She called out "Come in."
As the door opened, she stood to her feet. She could feel her hands shaking.
"Hey" he said.
"Hey, Seth."
"I know you said to call" he started "but I didn't want this conversation to be over the phone. I hope that's ok?"
"Actually, I'm a little uncomfortable." she told him.
"Oh, I can leave if you want?"
"No. Don't leave. It's better that we do this now before Ryan gets home. Get it out of the way."
There was a long silence before either spoke again. The tension in the room was unbearable.
Marissa was the first to speak again.
"Look, Seth, I'm really sorry that I kissed you. It was inappropriate. I mean, I'm dating Ryan and you're in love with Summer, my best friend."
"I'm not in love with her. It's an infatuation I've had since I was ten."
"Seth, you know what I mean."
"Yeah, I do. But what happened, I'm not sorry about. You shouldn't be either."
"Yes we should" she replied "It was a bad thing that we did. It was unbelievable, but wrong, you know that."
Seth leant forward and grabbed her hand.
"Look Marissa. I felt something in that kiss. Something I didn't think would ever happen between us."
"I know. I felt it too." She agreed. "But..."
"I'm not finished." Seth added. "I liked it. And I like you. And Ryan is my best friend and I don't like this because of him but I want something to happen again."
Marissa just stood there, stunned. Her heart was telling her to agree with him but her head was filling with guilt.
"But, Seth. I can't do that to him. He would hate us both."
Seth's hand left Marissa's.
"You're right. You totally right." he said. "I'm sorry that I came here. We should just leave it be. It was a mistake."
Seth turned around and opened the door.
"I'm sorry Seth." Marissa whispered.
As he left he replied "Me too. Bye"
"Bye"
Marissa watched from her window as Seth made his way back to his house. There was a figure already standing on the driveway. It was Ryan.
"Hey Man, how was work?" Seth called out.
The two men hugged.
"So-so. Were you at Marissa's this whole time?" Ryan asked.
"No. I was just giving her a CD I said I'd give her."
Ryan and Seth made their way into the Cohen's house.
Marissa closed her window and slid back on to her bed where she curled up. She was so confused. "What am I going to do?" she sobbed. What was she going to say the next time she saw Ryan. She decided to forget the whole thing; easier said than done.