"A Child's Hope" by Canopus Carina
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Key: "speech" 'thought' /emphasis/ *parceltongue* ~Letter~
Disclaimer: I do not own anything Harry Potter or Severitus Challenge.
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Here is the next chapter since you were so good.
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Chapter Thirteen: Stalling
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Severus shook off the rest of the flashback, he didn't want to remember it anymore... it was too painful. He had taken off running down the street, not caring how many people he pushed out of his way or the angry shouts that came from the people. Why should he care about their happiness when his world was turned upside down... his cousin and wife were having an affair! How could they do that to him?
The Potions Master shook his head, still unsuccessful to get the flashback out of his mind... He had stopped caring, leaving his love for his wife behind him, putting all of his energy for spying on the Dark Lord. He went back to Hogwarts, which had been his second job and completely ruined his room... the eleven months he had spent undercover, not receiving any letter or word from outside life had been destructive... his wife, his love of his life, had betrayed him for his miserable cousin.
When he had agreed to the false marriage between Lily and James, he hadn't thought about what could really have happened between them...
Again he was called in to work on a complex potion, only a month later, for the Dark Lord and again he spent months on end in the Dark Manor, this time till the fateful night of October 31, almost 13 months since he found out his wife's betrayal.
He knew that Lily had tried to explain herself in letters throughout the time after he found out, but he didn't care about it, he ignored them... It's not as if he would be able to read them because he was being watched closely by the Dark Lord's followers.
"Are you going to open it?" the Headmaster asked, motioning toward the trunk.
"Why should I bother?" Was the simple response, "Why should I set myself up again?"
"You know that you are going to have to face the truth," the wise voice of the aged Headmaster penetrated the Potions Master's thoughts again.
They were sitting in Severus' 'living room' down in the dungeons, and decided to start drinking tea to pass the time.
"I don't need to do anything," Severus replied shortly, "I faced the truth back in the beginning of October in 1980. I don't even know why I trusted that git in the first place; we hated each other during our school years."
"I assume you are talking about James. Why did you hate each other so much though? I never did understand it."
Severus was silent for awhile before he stood up and took a picture frame out of one of his drawers and gave it to the older wizard. "That was me and my only cousin, James. My mother and uncle were siblings, that's why we have different last names and why our family ties were distant and heated. My mother and her brother were more opposite than should even be possible... one a Gryffindor, the other Slytherin... The House rivalry was at its peak, separating the two siblings even farther until they moved apart, not able to stand seeing the other any longer. I don't know what started this, but it soon spread to their children. James and I were only children so it was drilled into our minds quicker. He made friends with his other Gryffindors, torturing me every chance they got. James had a crush on Lily, but so did I and I had asked her to go out with me and she accepted... separating us even more."
"But then you turned spy against Voldemort?"
"My parents forced me to join that monster when I was still dating Lily, of course they didn't know who my girlfriend was. Lily knew I was a Death Eater before we got married and helped me work to becoming a spy."
"Which you did... but what happened to cause James and Lily's 'marriage'?"
"The Dark Lord was suspicious of me at that time and had people follow me. If I was caught having a wife that the Dark Lord didn't agree with, which would happen with Lily, would cost me my life, and even hers. Some of the other Slytherins suspected me with Lily so if she 'married' James, no one would suspect anymore. I think it worked, but then the prophecy was found and he was after the Potter boy. At first I thought the boy was mine so I was even more scared that the prophecy would come true. James was my partner, the only reason why I allowed the fake marriage to go through, but he never told me when the baby was born or what it looked like. I learned about the baby when the prophecy was brought out."
"So let me get this straight," Albus said slowly, "your mother and uncle are siblings but hate each other which caused you and James to hate each other, correct?"
A small nod came as the answer.
"When your parents forced you to become a Death Eater, you were already dating Lily Evans? She helped you become a spy. You secretly got married but the Dark Lord suspected you. When I assigned you and James as partners, James and Lily got 'married' to take off the suspicion. Am I right so far?"
Another nod came.
"Okay then, you found out that the baby wasn't yours and as I remember, destroyed your apartment here."
"That's basically it."
Silence again filled the room as the two Professors drank their tea. Although the trunk interested him, he wouldn't admit it to his mentor.
"Well, are you going to open it?" Albus asked again, seeing where Severus was looking, "From what I understand, you still love her but won't let the pain rest. That could end if you face the past and pen the trunk, you wouldn't be so miserable."
"Why should I? It will only be some story to try to get me to forgive her even though she's dead and the truth is right in front of me."
"But don't you think it was odd that she wanted to talk to you about it? She had a reason but you wouldn't listen... you were too blinded and paranoid because of your time at the Dark Manor- and I blame myself- but you have to learn the whole truth... Why would she even let you inside in the first place?"
"Don't blame yourself, Albus, I shouldn't have fallen in love in the first place."
"That my friend, is impossible..."
"Okay, now that is a story I want to know! Albus Dumbledore fell in love?"
"Yes I did..."
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From Canopus: How do you like it so far? My AIM is K091288 and my YIM is c_carina@sbcglobal.net, feel free to IM me (but tell me who you are). If you want me to tell you when a new chapter is up, just tell me in a review.
Next chapter: Severus was suppose to find out in this chapter, but I think I'll make it longer... probably next chapter, but if not definitely the chapter afterwards... anyway, Severus is now stalling his time in finding out the truth of the trunk- wow, that sounded weird 'Truth of the Trunk'- and you now get to learn of Professor Dumbledore and his family.
Question for Chapter Fourteen: Do you think that Remus is going to teach this year? I already have the answer, and I have read many that have him in and out... so what do you think "yes" or "no"?
P.S. Well, it seems as if many people actually read my story but don't review! I got fifteen reviews, so this is my side of the bargain. If I get ten reviews before Saturday, I'll post then. What's probably going to happen, if you are good and give me reviews, I'll post Saturday and Wednesday.
Houses: If you don't know what house you should be in, I found a sorting that actually has questions that matter (unlike harrypotter.com). I have the web address on my bio, it's really good!
Contact: If you want me to send you a notice when I update the story, please put your email address on a review. Anyone who wants to talk, whether it's just a 'hi' or you don't understand something, my AIM is K091288 and YIM is c_carina@sbcglobal.net
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Key: "speech" 'thought' /emphasis/ *parceltongue* ~Letter~
Disclaimer: I do not own anything Harry Potter or Severitus Challenge.
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Here is the next chapter since you were so good.
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Chapter Thirteen: Stalling
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Severus shook off the rest of the flashback, he didn't want to remember it anymore... it was too painful. He had taken off running down the street, not caring how many people he pushed out of his way or the angry shouts that came from the people. Why should he care about their happiness when his world was turned upside down... his cousin and wife were having an affair! How could they do that to him?
The Potions Master shook his head, still unsuccessful to get the flashback out of his mind... He had stopped caring, leaving his love for his wife behind him, putting all of his energy for spying on the Dark Lord. He went back to Hogwarts, which had been his second job and completely ruined his room... the eleven months he had spent undercover, not receiving any letter or word from outside life had been destructive... his wife, his love of his life, had betrayed him for his miserable cousin.
When he had agreed to the false marriage between Lily and James, he hadn't thought about what could really have happened between them...
Again he was called in to work on a complex potion, only a month later, for the Dark Lord and again he spent months on end in the Dark Manor, this time till the fateful night of October 31, almost 13 months since he found out his wife's betrayal.
He knew that Lily had tried to explain herself in letters throughout the time after he found out, but he didn't care about it, he ignored them... It's not as if he would be able to read them because he was being watched closely by the Dark Lord's followers.
"Are you going to open it?" the Headmaster asked, motioning toward the trunk.
"Why should I bother?" Was the simple response, "Why should I set myself up again?"
"You know that you are going to have to face the truth," the wise voice of the aged Headmaster penetrated the Potions Master's thoughts again.
They were sitting in Severus' 'living room' down in the dungeons, and decided to start drinking tea to pass the time.
"I don't need to do anything," Severus replied shortly, "I faced the truth back in the beginning of October in 1980. I don't even know why I trusted that git in the first place; we hated each other during our school years."
"I assume you are talking about James. Why did you hate each other so much though? I never did understand it."
Severus was silent for awhile before he stood up and took a picture frame out of one of his drawers and gave it to the older wizard. "That was me and my only cousin, James. My mother and uncle were siblings, that's why we have different last names and why our family ties were distant and heated. My mother and her brother were more opposite than should even be possible... one a Gryffindor, the other Slytherin... The House rivalry was at its peak, separating the two siblings even farther until they moved apart, not able to stand seeing the other any longer. I don't know what started this, but it soon spread to their children. James and I were only children so it was drilled into our minds quicker. He made friends with his other Gryffindors, torturing me every chance they got. James had a crush on Lily, but so did I and I had asked her to go out with me and she accepted... separating us even more."
"But then you turned spy against Voldemort?"
"My parents forced me to join that monster when I was still dating Lily, of course they didn't know who my girlfriend was. Lily knew I was a Death Eater before we got married and helped me work to becoming a spy."
"Which you did... but what happened to cause James and Lily's 'marriage'?"
"The Dark Lord was suspicious of me at that time and had people follow me. If I was caught having a wife that the Dark Lord didn't agree with, which would happen with Lily, would cost me my life, and even hers. Some of the other Slytherins suspected me with Lily so if she 'married' James, no one would suspect anymore. I think it worked, but then the prophecy was found and he was after the Potter boy. At first I thought the boy was mine so I was even more scared that the prophecy would come true. James was my partner, the only reason why I allowed the fake marriage to go through, but he never told me when the baby was born or what it looked like. I learned about the baby when the prophecy was brought out."
"So let me get this straight," Albus said slowly, "your mother and uncle are siblings but hate each other which caused you and James to hate each other, correct?"
A small nod came as the answer.
"When your parents forced you to become a Death Eater, you were already dating Lily Evans? She helped you become a spy. You secretly got married but the Dark Lord suspected you. When I assigned you and James as partners, James and Lily got 'married' to take off the suspicion. Am I right so far?"
Another nod came.
"Okay then, you found out that the baby wasn't yours and as I remember, destroyed your apartment here."
"That's basically it."
Silence again filled the room as the two Professors drank their tea. Although the trunk interested him, he wouldn't admit it to his mentor.
"Well, are you going to open it?" Albus asked again, seeing where Severus was looking, "From what I understand, you still love her but won't let the pain rest. That could end if you face the past and pen the trunk, you wouldn't be so miserable."
"Why should I? It will only be some story to try to get me to forgive her even though she's dead and the truth is right in front of me."
"But don't you think it was odd that she wanted to talk to you about it? She had a reason but you wouldn't listen... you were too blinded and paranoid because of your time at the Dark Manor- and I blame myself- but you have to learn the whole truth... Why would she even let you inside in the first place?"
"Don't blame yourself, Albus, I shouldn't have fallen in love in the first place."
"That my friend, is impossible..."
"Okay, now that is a story I want to know! Albus Dumbledore fell in love?"
"Yes I did..."
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From Canopus: How do you like it so far? My AIM is K091288 and my YIM is c_carina@sbcglobal.net, feel free to IM me (but tell me who you are). If you want me to tell you when a new chapter is up, just tell me in a review.
Next chapter: Severus was suppose to find out in this chapter, but I think I'll make it longer... probably next chapter, but if not definitely the chapter afterwards... anyway, Severus is now stalling his time in finding out the truth of the trunk- wow, that sounded weird 'Truth of the Trunk'- and you now get to learn of Professor Dumbledore and his family.
Question for Chapter Fourteen: Do you think that Remus is going to teach this year? I already have the answer, and I have read many that have him in and out... so what do you think "yes" or "no"?
P.S. Well, it seems as if many people actually read my story but don't review! I got fifteen reviews, so this is my side of the bargain. If I get ten reviews before Saturday, I'll post then. What's probably going to happen, if you are good and give me reviews, I'll post Saturday and Wednesday.
Houses: If you don't know what house you should be in, I found a sorting that actually has questions that matter (unlike harrypotter.com). I have the web address on my bio, it's really good!
Contact: If you want me to send you a notice when I update the story, please put your email address on a review. Anyone who wants to talk, whether it's just a 'hi' or you don't understand something, my AIM is K091288 and YIM is c_carina@sbcglobal.net