Deadly Decisions
Harry awoke the next morning in great spirits. Sixteen, new home, and a girlfriend; sort of. Life was good.
This was the life he was supposed to have had with Sirius. I miss him. He decided to change into a tank top and cotton shorts and head to the third floor to work out. This is where he found Remus, Tonks, and Kinsley Shacklebolt who was an auror and member of the Order. "Mornin' " he said with a final yawn.
"Wotcher Har! Decide to add to those cute biceps of yours?"
"First of all Nymphadora… Har? Really original there…and Lupin invited me."
"Harry why don't you come over here and I'll show you a few techniques." Kingsley suggested rolling his eyes at Tonks.
Harry found he had a lot to learn. He never knew there was so much to working out. He had a nice time getting to know Kingsley a bit and discovered more about being an auror. When Kingsley offered to help prepare him for his big shining moment with Voldemort, Harry jumped at the chance.
"Really! You would be willing to help me?"
"Yes Harry I would love to help you…it is after all one of the things I swore to do when I joined the Order."
"You did? Why? What has Dumbledore told you?"
Remus suddenly realizing what the conversation was about decided to step in. "Now Harry, stay calm. He only knows that you are powerful and Voldemort's main target. Nothing to get worked up about."
"Is that what you think Lupin? More secrets…WHY THE BLOODY HELL HASN'T SOMEBODY TOLD ME THAT BEFORE? WHAT ELSE DOES DUMBLEDORE'S PRECIOUS TOYS SWEAR BY? I TRUSTED YOU REMUS…"
He was out the door before Remus could catch him. What was he going to do with a hot headed teenager who happened to have the power of grown wizards? Why did he ever think he could be a good guardian? "Harry…HARRY SLOW DOWN!" After running to catch up to him and nearly getting a door slammed in his face he tried again. "Listen to me before you go running off all mad. We made a deal that if you had questions we would talk and I know you want to know about the Order but you have to remember that there is a lot more at stake than just you and how you think things should be. Understand this Harry…I loved your parents as if they were my own family, losing Sirius again was the hardest loss yet for me, he and I agreed you should be allowed in the Order but the Order did not agree and Molly of course was one of the strongest bloody objections. When we were sworn in Harry, we pledged loyalty to everyone in the Order. Harry, I know you have a huge role to play in this war but you have to realize that you are not the only one! We are all putting ourselves and the people we love in danger everyday. Did you even know that Kingsley lost his wife and two sons because of Voldemort? Diggle and Fletcher both lost family members. Amelia Bones lost her sister-in-law; I think you know her niece Susan. The point I am trying to make Harry is you are not the only one who has lost loved ones or sacrificed just about everything. Maybe before you start these little fits of anger you should think about what others have put up to keep you safe and realize they gave you eleven years to be you; with out worries of Voldemort or his flunkies. I'm not saying you had an easy life because you didn't, but think of how much worse it could have been. Next time you want to go off on someone go off on Voldemort or the Dursleys or even me if it makes you feel better. But you better sure as hell not yell at any other Order member in this house unless you have a damn good reason! This might be your house but you accepted me as your guardian and I will not have you disrespect the people that are out there trying to keep your arse safe and sacrificing everything to do it. Are we clear on this Harry? I will not lose you like I lost every other person important to me and this group helps keep you safe. I owe them for that. Both of us have issues with Dumbledore but that has nothing to do with the other members. Now, when you think you can be mature enough to discuss what is going on with you we will but until then you better get changed, we have things to do." With this Remus turned and left Harry alone in his room. He could not remember ever being this angry with someone. He entered his room and slouched against the door. How could he lose control like that? Harry was going to hate him!
Still standing in the center of his room, he was lost at what to think or say. He had never seen Lupin this mad. He had never had anyone speak to him like that, unless you count Snape, his potions professor who hated him. He leaned against the arm of the couch and ran his fingers through his hair. How could he have been so stupid? Why hadn't he thought of all that before. I am a bloody git! I never thought about any of that. SO SELFISH! I CAN NEVER DO ANYTHING RIGHT! They should all hate me. Harry went to Hermione's room. He new it was early but she was the only one that understood.
Knocking on the door while opening it he whispered, "Hermione?" Seeing her asleep made his heart pound. She was breathtaking. All these years and he never paid attention, unless you count fourth year at the ball. He had noticed her then too. She was sleeping on her side with her hands cupped under her face and looked so peaceful. Harry wondered if he would ever find that kind of peace. "Hermione?" he knelt down beside the bed and brushed hair out of her face softly. "Hermione, I really need to talk to you."
"Harry?" she responded but never opened her eyes.
"Yeah, I hate to wake you but I really need to talk."
"What time is it?"
"Early"
"Ok" she stretched and Harry found this very exciting for some reason. She sat up and looked at him noticing for the first time panic written all over him. She knew this look, it was the look he had when he was blaming himself for all of the world's problems. "What is wrong? Has there been an attack? Is everyone ok?"
"Hermione everything is fine. Well you see…" Harry began to tell her everything that happened. He told her the way he yelled at Kingsley after he had been so nice and then the way Remus had yelled at him and everything he thought about after that. "Hermione, how come I never thought about what anyone else has lost? I mean…Neville basically lost both his parents too. Why didn't it occur to me that any of the Order probably lost people too. Am I at that selfish and horrible?"
Hermione pulled him into a hug. "Oh Harry, did you really never think that everyone here had a reason to be? Even Dung lost his cousin to the last war. Everyone here has a reason. I thought you would have gotten to know some of them by now. I can't say that I blame Lupin at all…no offense Harry but it was probably what you needed to hear."
"So you think I am that self-centered?"
"That is NOT what I said and you know it! You came to me Harry, you asked for my help and if you don't want to hear the truth then go find Ron!"
"I'm sorry Hermione…I just…I don't know!"
"Harry, what ever is bothering you…you have to deal with. I can't help you if you won't tell me everything."
"What? I just told you everything that happened."
Giving her know-it-all look, "I can tell when you aren't telling me something. You can tell yourself whatever you want but I can tell there is something you aren't telling me."
"Oh really? How?"
"I just can Harry! You have been my best friend for six years. I just know. But if it helps I will tell you why I think this morning has bothered you so much." She paused, waiting for his reaction. "The reason I think it bothered you was, you are growing up Harry." He rolled his eyes in disbelief. "You are starting to see the world in a new light. One that has bigger problems than…how to get past Filch to the kitchens. See, you are starting to see the whole picture. Not just that you were a target. I know you have to deal with the fame and reporters everyday and that reminds you why you lost your parents; now though, you are seeing how Voldemort affected everyone."
He smiled, "You know you just said his name right?"
"Yes, but it is easier for me; I didn't grow up fearing it. That is just one of the ways he changed people's lives."
"So, are you saying I am just now growing up even though I have faced deadly situations since I was eleven?" he had an amused smile on his face.
"Actually, that is exactly what I am saying! Don't look so hurt, I think you are more hurt that Remus got mad at you."
Letting out a deep breath and shrugging, "I guess; other than my uncle, no one has talked to me that way, but it was different. I can't describe it Hermione, I feel like I let him down."
She beamed as he gave her a confused look, "Congratulations Harry!"
"WHAT?"
She was laughing, she was actually laughing at him. "Oh Harry, don't you see? You just got your first parental lecture! You feel guilty for disappointing him, like most of us do when we disappoint our parents! You see Remus as a parent figure." She hugged him. "I'm so happy for you."
He held her there for awhile. "Well I am not sure why you are so happy but I like the fact you are hugging me."
Giving him a slight punch to his shoulder, "I am happy that you finally found a family Harry."
"Well, what do I do now little-miss-know-it-all?"
"Apologize. Go talk to him, if I am right…Remus is feeling just as confused as you are."
"Thanks. What would I do with out you?" leaning over and kissing her cheek.
"Harry, just want you to know that whenever you are ready to tell me whatever it is I don't know…I am here. But can you do me a favor?" Giving her a questioning look she replied, "Kiss me."
Putting his hand behind her neck he pulled her towards him, kissing her mouth tenderly and slowly. Her lips opening willingly for his tongue to seek entrance. He rubbed his tongue across the roof of her mouth and along her lower teeth. Her tongue fought to seek entrance into his mouth as well. She loved waking up this way. She ran her fingers through his hair and down his back while his hand stayed behind her neck and his other hand made tiny circles in the hollow of her back. She shivered with chills. His throat gave a small moan as he deepened the kiss. Then came a knock on the door. Neither of them really heard it completely caught up in this kiss until Mr. Granger tapped Hermione on the shoulder.
"Hmm,hmm…am I interrupting?" They both turned beat red.
"Mr. Granger, sorry we didn't hear you come in." Harry replied with a shaking voice.
"I can see that Harry, I am just wondering why you are in my daughters bed with her still in her nightgown?"
"Oh! Um… well you see sir…"
"Daddy stop!" Hermione pleaded.
"Can you imagine how this looks Hermione? It looked very inappropriate. I think we need to have a talk…Harry if you will excuse us." Harry left with his face red and his palms sweaty.
He hoped Hermione wasn't in trouble. Not knowing where his feet were taking him he found himself knocking on Remus's door. "Come in" said a grumpy voice. As the door opened he saw a confused looking young boy running his fingers through his already messy hair. "What is wrong? Has there been an attack?"
"No. Well…see…I need your help Lupin, please?"
"You still want to talk to me after…I mean I thought you would be mad at me."
"Thought about what you said, you were right. I have been selfish. I never took the time to get to know any of them, guess I should have. Hermione said…we were talking and…she said that was my first parental lecture." His voice hardly heard as he looked down at the floor. "Is she right? Is that why I feel so guilty? I hate that you are mad at me. You won't stop being my guardian now will you?"
Horrified that Harry thought he would abandon him, "You listen to me Harry," placing his hand on his shoulder and making Harry look up at him. "Never think that. Just because we are upset with one another does not mean that I would leave. Harry, you are one of my best friend's son…you are like my own. I was there when you were born and watched you take your first steps…nothing you could ever do would make me leave. Hermione was right I guess, that means it was my first parental lecture too. Are you mad at me?"
"No, I just felt really bad and…well…I have never had anyone care what I did as long as I was quiet and out of the way."
"Harry, everyone here cares. You just have to let us. You have been on your own for so long, you have to learn to let us be here for you."
"Uh, Remus, there's sort of something I need your help with?" He was looking at his feet again and rubbing his hair like James had always done.
"I will try."
"See, I felt really bad about you getting upset with me, so I went to talk to Hermione. She said I was finally growing up. Is that true?"
"Is seems to be. Does that bother you?"
"No, but then well…I kissed her…"
Laughing Remus asked, "And that is a problem? She is rather pretty Harry, why would that bother you?"
Feeling very embarrassed, "Actually that was the nice part." Hanging his head, "Mr. Granger walked in on us; not to happy."
"Ahh, I see…" sitting down and gesturing for Harry to take a seat. "Has anyone ever talked to you about dating?"
"No."
"Well, get comfortable, it seems to be a good time. Oh boy…" After a couple of hours he left Moony's room more confused. It had been horrible! He now knew more bout girls than he had ever wanted to know. Remus had told him some very useful tips too. Laughing at some of the stories he was told. Sirius…King of Broken Hearts! He laughed to himself; he never imagined his dad and godfather to be so charming. Lupin told him how they could just look at a girl and they would want to go snog with them. Those two had more girlfriends than Peter could count. A haunted look had appeared in his eyes at the memory of Peter, Remus still didn't know how he could have betrayed them all. There was nothing that Remus left out, some of which made Harry want to crawl under the bed with embarrassment. Then he had given him two books to help with anything he might have left out. One was a book on contraceptive charms; the other…made Harry drop the book when he saw some of the pictures. Bloody Hell! The guys in the dorm were going to go nuts when he showed them this. He grinned; Ron will probably turn a few new shades of red! He couldn't help but grin. Turning to another page, did people really do that?
Dr. Granger stepped to the door and called for his wife, "Dear can you come to Hermione's room for a moment?"
Stepping in she asked, "What is going on I thought I heard raised voices?"
"Hermione, tell your mother what just happened."
"Mum, I didn't do anything wrong. Harry needed to talk so he came to me and well…he kissed me before he left. Mum, I really like him. We weren't do anything wrong. Please mum, don't make me stop seeing him."
"Who said anything about you not seeing him?"
"Daddy would if he had his way." shooting her father a meaningful glare. "Mum, stop laughing, I was really embarrassed!"
Pulling her into a hug, "Honey, I am not laughing at you. Your father is just having a hard time accepting that you have a boyfriend."
"Harry is not my boyfriend, he is just…oh mum I am so confused! Besides, it's not like I didn't go out with Viktor in fourth year."
Still laughing, "Honey it is ok to be confused, with Viktor it was easier. You only had one date with him and you have not seen him since. With Harry; it is harder for your father and I. You see him everyday and you are very close. If that was not enough; we are living not just in the same house but his house. That makes our role…more difficult. It is harder to lay down rules for you and Harry without being ungracious to the host. Do you understand?" She turned towards Mr. Granger who was still sulking about his daughter having a boyfriend, "Love, would you excuse us a moment, I think it is time Hermione and I had a…talk." Hesitantly he left. "So, was it a good kiss?" raising her eyebrow at her daughter.
"YES! Mum it was amazing! I just don't know if I should call him my boyfriend though. I mean he's Harry, one of my best friends; but to the magical world he's Harry Potter, the-boy-who-lived. Why would he want me as a girlfriend?"
"Maybe because you don't see him as the famous boy you first wrote home about. Now, there are some things we need to talk about…settle in, we will be here a while."
Hermione sat staring across the room after her mum left feeling so uncomfortable at what all her mum had told her. She also new more about boys now than she ever wanted to know. Her mom first told her the birds and bees and then went on about protection. She had even given her pamphlets. She was so embarrassed! She couldn't believe that girls did some of those things. Some of it just sounded…gross!
Shower and dressed, Harry finally emerged out of his room, still feeling a bit awkward, to run straight into Hermione; who blushed instantly and looked down. Barely audible she said, "Sorry about my dad, I hope you aren't to upset?"
"N-N-No, I'm fine." biting his lower lip. "Did you get in trouble?"
Shaking her head no, "I did get a talk from my mum though. It was humiliating!"
His head shot up, "You did?"
"Do not even ask what it was about Harry Potter!" she replied with her best glare and crossing her arms. He had to smile, she just looked so cute.
"Come here" he said as he pulled her in to a hug resting his chin on the top of her head. When had he gotten so tall? He kissed the top of her head, "Come on let's go see what everyone is doing."
They heard raised voices in the kitchen and people running all about.
"What's happened?"
"There's been an attack on a village near the Burrow. We are sending people to help now."
"I want to go…Hermione said I could do magic if I use someone's wand."
Remus's head shot up from the table, "Harry you are not to leave this house or go any where near Death Eaters and Voldemort." Half the roomed flinched.
"What do you mean I can't go? I have to Lupin and you know it! THIS ONLY ENDS WITH ME!" Everyone stopped and looked at Harry with suspicious looks.
"This is not the time…remember our talk this morning, besides you need to stay with the Grangers. Promise me Harry? We will talk about this later. Now is NOT the time!"
"FINE…but we will talk about this later when everyone else leaves."
"Harry, I am going with them…" he never looked up from the plans in front of him.
"WHAT? Y-y-you can't! What if something happens to you? What if something goes wrong?" he was fighting back a fear that had settled in his stomach, trying to fight off the urge to grab Remus and never let go.
"Excuse us. Harry come with me." After stepping out into the hallway Remus placed a hand on his shoulder giving an encouraging squeeze. "You have to let me go, it's what I do. I promise to come back..."
"You can't promise that Remus!"
"Harry, I need to do this for you and everyone else."
"Then let me come…I am the only one who can end this. Why won't you let me?"
"YOU'RE NOT READY!" pausing to calm down, "You have to much more to learn. Please understand; I need you to do that for me."
"FINE BUT I DON'T LIKE IT AT ALL!" leaning his back against the wall and running his hands thru his hair.
Hours had passed and no one had returned or sent word to them. The Grangers tried to distract both of them from worrying about Ron and the rest of the Weasleys. After awhile Mrs. Granger sat next to her daughter, "Hermione, I think it is time you tell us more about this war." Harry's head shot in Hermione's direction to see fear fill her eyes.
"Really mum, hasn't Professor Dumbledore told you enough?"
"I get the feeling there is a lot more than your father and I have been told" her eyebrow rose as she looked at her daughter intently.
Looking at Harry for reassurance she finally gave in, "OK, I'll tell you everything." Sighing, "This is the longest day ever." She rolled her eyes, took a deep breath and began.
"NEARLY EVERY YEAR WE THOUGHT YOU WERE SAFE AT SCHOOL YOU HAVE NEARLY BEEN KILLED?"
"Not every year dad, second year I was just…stone." Shrugging her shoulders and sinking deeper into the couch. Mrs. Granger sat completely still in shock shaking her head trying to get a handle on all the things she just learned. Hermione was now sitting next to Harry on the floor. He was sitting with his arms wrapped around his legs that were pulled towards his chest, trying hard to disappear for the hundredth time today.
"Mr. Granger, I just want…"
"DO NOT EVEN START HARRY! YOU ARE AS MUCH TO BLAME FOR ALL OF THIS AS SHE IS. DO ARTHUR AND MOLLY KNOW?"
"Daddy stop! You are blowing this all out of proportion and Harry has tried to stop me every time; unfortunately for him I am smarter and he doesn't know enough spells to stop me." She said with a very smug look on her face. "Mr. and Mrs. Weasley both know about all this. I was just trying not to worry you and mum."
Finally, Mrs. Granger found her voice, "Trolls, giant snakes, my daughter was a statue…"
Hermione rolled her eyes. "Daddy, I can handle myself just fine, I am the smartest witch in my class…"
"That is not an acceptable excuse Hermione Jane Granger. You have not been truthful with us and you know it!" he took a few breaths while pacing around the couch. "When we sent you off into a world we knew nothing about, you promised you would always tell us everything, you haven't obviously. Right now it would be very wise if you left us alone for a moment to talk about this. Why don't you and Harry go get something to eat?" Hermione and Harry walked out of the room and headed towards the kitchen.
"Why didn't you tell us your parents never knew?"
"Oh honestly Harry, did you think they would have let me stay after hearing a giant mountain troll tried to kill me in the girl's bathroom on Halloween?" rolling her eyes.
"Well, when you put it that way." He rolled his eyes and smiled. Taking her hand he pulled her to him in a hug. Suddenly he threw Hermione back and grabbed his scar.
"ARGHHHHH!" he was in blackness.
"Well Potter, how lovely you could join us."
"What do you want Tom?"
"Tom is it now. I think I prefer Lord Voldemort thanks. I guess next time I will have to teach you better respect."
"I think next time we meet I may have to kill you."
An evil laughter filled the air, "Aww, how cute. Potter thinks he can kill the most powerful wizard in history." His eyes turned an evil red "Let me show you what I can do…" A bright light filled the air as Harry suddenly figured out where they were. The Burrow. Smoke filled his senses. He heard screams and laughter coming from the hooded figures and a green light in the sky. The Dark Mark. He saw flashes as aurors appeared throwing curses in every direction. Screams and figures running around, then he saw him. Ron was on the ground as aurors tried to extinguish the flames starting to engulf his body. Ron's screams were filling his ears and bringing a feeling of nausea to his stomach. Voldemort was laughing, a shrill evil sound. "TOM! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?"
"AHH…Dumbledore has come to play has he? What does it look like I am doing? I am killing your precious followers. Look around you…"
"Aregentatus chalybs" a purple light shot out from Dumbledore's wand straight at Voldemort.
Harry saw a purple light shoot straight for him and felt Voldemort reflect it. Beams of light began to pass to and from one another. Harry struggled to get out of his mind but Voldemort was keeping a strong hold on him. He wanted Harry to be there. He wanted Harry to see what was happening to the people he cared for. Harry could see the curses, spells, and charms that Dumbledore and Voldemort were throwing unsure of what most of them were. He could still hear Ron screaming and Mrs. Weasley begging him to be alright while trying to deflect curses being thrown at them. The smoke from the house was still filling his nostrils. He felt a burning in his skin…Dumbledore had hit Voldemort with a weak curse but still it gave Harry enough time to escape his mind.
Harry was shaking while Hermione was holding him as still as she could to keep from letting him get injured. "HEEEELLLPPP!" The Grangers plus Professor McGonagall, who had stayed behind to report to other Order members came running. Professor McGonagall dropped to her knee while the Grangers looked on in horror.
"How long as he been this way Miss Granger?"
"I d-d-don't know…about five minutes maybe."
"Go to the fireplace and get Poppy here now! Hurry!"
Hermione grabbed a handful of floo powder and tossed it into the fire, "Madam Pomfrey…Madam Pomfrey!" seeing her approach the fire Hermione continued. "It's Harry, he's having another attack! Please Hurry! Please!" Hermione stepped back to allow her to enter. She took her to Harry immediately.
"Minerva, how long as he been under attack?"
As they continued to try and help Harry, the Grangers pulled Hermione aside. "Hermione, what is happening? Does this happen a lot?"
"NOT NOW, Harry needs me!" She glared at her parents and returned to his side. Taking his hand and soothing his scar which was now glowing a bright purple light. "H-h-harry, please if you can hear me…wake up. Please wake up" She pleaded as tears fell down her face. "Can't we help him?"
"My dear, there is nothing we can do for him until he wakes up. I'm afraid this is one fight he must do alone."
Hermione glared at the nurse wanting her to tell her something else, something that would help. "NO, No it's not…I can help Harry!"
"What are you talking about Miss Granger?"
"The charm Professor Flitwick told me about. The one where I can share my mind and thoughts with Harry's feelings."
"Miss Granger that is out of the question! That is a highly advanced spell and simply too dangerous, besides you would have to be in love with Harry for it to work…"
"I AM…I am in love with Harry." There was no hesitation or doubt in her voice or look. Everyone could see the determination in Hermione. "You can either make sure I get it right or I will do it without you…your choice!" She ran to Harry's room to get his broom, she needed an anchor to Harry, something he loved. She found it in his trunk and ran back down stairs. "Got it" she sat beside him on the floor and took hold of his broom.
"Wait! If you are going to do this and not kill yourself in the process you better let me help." McGonagall said in a stern voice. Under her breath she added, "Albus will have my head for this one." She pointed her wand and made a flicking motion towards Harry "Cupido" a pink light shot to Hermione. "Well, you won't be needing that broom Miss Granger…"
"But it says I have to have something that he loves as anchor! What am I supposed to use, we are running out of time." "Miss Granger I simply meant that all you need to do is take hold of his hand." She replied with a meaningful look towards Hermione. Hermione looked at her with confusion and frustration. "My dear, for the smartest witch of Hogwarts in years you have not realized that you are his anchor? You are the item that is glowing pink. Simply take his hand I will cast the spell." Hermione did as she was told. "ADIUNCTIO ADFECTIO ANIMUS" a swirl of pink and green lights surrounded Hermione and Harry as her thought went into his feelings.
Harry your strong, you can break this. You are powerful and better than Voldemort. You are needed back here. Wake up! Wake up and tell us what is happening. HARRY JAMES POTTER WAKE UP!
Harry sensing the need to wake up fought with everything in him. He was stronger than Voldemort, he needed to let them know so they would be ready for the injured. Have to wake up!
Harry, if you care for me then wake up! I love you…you are my best friend, please wake up. Fight, fight with everything you have. BEAT THAT SON OF A BITCH!
Hermione slammed to the floor as the spell was broken and Harry shot up off the floor clutching his scar. "The B-B-Burrow…fire…massacre…members injured…RON! Ron, he's…he's…"
"Mr. Potter calm down and drink this."
Harry looked in surprise at Madam Pomfrey. "It won't make me sleep will it? I need to tell you."
"No, it will only help with the pain."
Harry saw Hermione on the floor with her mum holding her looking frightened to death. "What happened to Hermione?" he scooted over to her taking her hand. Mrs. Granger gave him a questioning look.
"Simply put Mr. Potter, she saved your bloody arse…again!" Hermione and Harry both whirled around in shock at Professor McGonagall's out of character response. "Can you tell us what you saw Harry?"
As Harry finished telling them what he had seen the fireplace roared and members of the order began stepping out helping the injured Weasley family. Popping sounds filled the house as others apparated in. Madam Pomfrey rushed to Ron, who was the most injured as Mrs. Weasley sobbed over the injuries of her children and the loss of her home. The Grangers tried to get Hermione to go rest in her room but she refused to leave saying that she was needed and that she could help.
"NO MUM…I can do this! It's what I have been doing since I was eleven. Help us or move out of my way!" Hermione's parents looked completely stunned as Hermione pushed past them to get to Ron.
Harry scanned the room searching for signs of Remus, he still hadn't come back. He felt a bad sense of foreboding. Where is he? Please let him be alright. He saw Ginny come thru the fire badly cut and limping. "GINNY! Oh my gosh…"
"I am fine Harry, go check on Ron, please Harry, I'm terrified for him." Harry nodded and went to be with his two best friends, still keeping an eye out for Remus.
Nearly everyone had returned; everyone except Remus and Dumbledore. It had been hours when the fireplace ignited in green flames and Remus fell out carrying an injured Dumbledore. Harry stood still, afraid of what to find. Remus was shouting something. He couldn't hear over the noise and all the confusion.
"HARRY! HARRY WHERE ARE YOU?" someone was holding Remus down and keeping him from moving. "I DON'T NEED TO CALM DOWN DAMN IT! WHERE THE BLOODY HELL IS HARRY!"
Harry heard finally and rushed over to him trying to get thru the crowed surrounding Dumbledore. "REMUS!"
Remus's head shot in his direction and with strength Harry had never seen before threw the three men off of him. He ran to Harry and pulled him in a tight embrace, Harry hugged him back overjoyed that he was safe. "Harry are you alright?" He was looking over Harry for any signs of injury as if Harry had gone to the battle. "What is wrong with your scar? What happened?"
"Voldemort got into my head again…I tired to fight him Remus…I saw…"
"You saw what Harry?" he asked in an urgent voice.
"I saw it all happen. The Burrow…and Ron. I saw."
"Oh Shite! Harry, are you ok?" Your scar is glowing. Purple?" Giving him a worried yet curious look.
"It was Dumbledore's spell…" Remus had run off to Madam Pomfrey and pulled her aside to talk to her. After a few minutes later he returned with the school's nurse.
"Mr. Potter I need you to lie down immediately."
"But…why? I'm fine"
"Now Harry, just do what she tells you, please." He did as she asked.
"What is going on? Why are you so upset Remus? Will someone answer me?"
"Mr. Potter I need you to calm down and be quiet for once." She was waving her wand over him as the wand glowed different colors feeding information to her. "I need you to take this immediately and don't move!"
Harry did as he was told becoming a little panicked.
"Remus, please tell me what is going on?"
Looking at Harry with a very worried, frightened expression, Remus bent down on one knee to be closer to him. "Harry, the spell Dumbledore hit Voldemort with…did you see it?"
"Yes, I was still in his mind."
A fear spread across his face, "That spell…it was a spell of poisoned arrows…that causes the heart to stop. Dumbledore saw a flash of you Harry in Voldemort as the spell hit…you could be affected Harry." Tears were welling up in Remus's eyes. He couldn't lose Harry…none of them could. "Until the antidote can work, I…I…need…for you…to stay calm.
S-So your heart won't fight the potion."
His guardian looked scared to death, "Moony"
"Yeah"
"Thanks for coming back safely." He tried to grin, but he was fighting the lump in his throat. "I was worried." He shut his eyes, tired from all the energy he had exerted earlier.
Waking up and finding himself on the couch with activity all around him, Harry sat up slowly. His heart seemed ok. Hermione ran over to him as soon as she saw him awake. "You're up. Are you alright?"
"Yeah, it is ok that I'm up isn't it?"
"Should be. Let me go ask? Stay there."
As Hermione walked away to find Madam Pomfrey, Hermione's mum and dad sat down on either side of him. "Is she always like this?"
"Hermione? Always!" he beamed proudly. "She tries to do everything all the time. Not much she can't do, well…maybe divination. Wasn't she always like this?"
Mrs.Granger replied in disbelieve, "No, she was normally quiet. A little bossy. This…this is like she can't fail. She seems to know exactly what to do, especially in a crisis."
Smiling, "She's perfect in a crisis, calm and collected, exam time is a bit different, but normally, she is usually taking the lead and making sure nothing goes wrong. If there is something to be fixed, she will do it. That you can count on." He felt so much pride.
"She really knew how to handle you when you were…attacked? Does that happen often?"
"Dr. Granger, you daughter is remarkable. Smart, talented, beautiful, a huge bookworm, and confident. I am starting to wonder what side you see of her, but this is the Hermione we know. She tutors Ron and I, along with anyone else, she's loyal to her friends, and if we get caught in some adventure, as everyone likes to call them, she's braver than most of the adults here. There's nothing that she can't do and she proves that at least five times a day at school. Fortunately, this is one of the few times she has had to handle one of the attacks on me. Usually it happens while I sleep, so Ron is there until help arrives or I wake up. Hermione has never left me though. If it helps, Ron and I have never left her either. In second year, we would sneak in and talk to her at night so she wasn't alone. You should be very proud of her. She's the best." He looked away as if he had said too much.
"Thank you, we never knew that. This is a new side of her…one where we have to realize she may not need us so much. She was amazing, never stopped once in doubt of herself. Was so sure of every decision she made, she was right too. I couldn't be more proud to call her my daughter. Thanks again, for letting us be here and getting to know Hermione in your world. A world she has found her place." Mrs. Granger reached over and hugged him.
Madam Pomfrey came over and did one last check on him to make sure his heart was ok. "Well Mr. Potter, looks fine. Just take it easy and make sure you tell someone if anything seems out of the ordinary."
"Thank you Madam Pomfrey."
Looking touched, "You're quite welcome. I just hope that Dumbledore recovers as well."
"What do you mean? Where is he?"
"He's upstairs. I thought you had heard. The spell was mild but for some reason as he was casting it he tried to pull the spell back. He was too weak to even be there, that drained his magic. He will recover but it will take a long time."
"Thank you for letting me know. Umm…Madam Pomfrey, couldn't Fawkes have healed him?"
"He was too weak to call for him." She turned to leave.
"I can. I can call Fawkes."
She turned quickly around along with a few others that heard what he said, "Mr. Potter this is not a time for foolishness. No one has ever been able to call Fawkes but Dumbledore; it is a bond between a phoenix and his owner."
"But I have before, down in the Chamber in my second year. Dumbledore said it had to do with my loyalty to him." With this statement, the room fell silent all eyes on Harry.
"Are you sure about this Harry?" Walking towards him Hermione said in a soft whisper, "Can you do this with the anger you are feeling?"
"I can do this!" Closing his eyes he remembered everything he had ever felt for his Headmaster. Thoughts of their talks and the silly passwords he would use flooded Harry. He concentrated on his memories in the Chamber. A fire flashed in the air and Fawkes flew over to his shoulder. Gasps could be heard around the room as Harry turned to pet the phoenix. "Hey there, nice flight?" The phoenix sung a few notes that filled the room with hope.
"Guess you better follow me then Mr. Potter" leading him up the stairs out of the parlor.
It was hours before he was finally able to crawl into his bed. Dumbledore was awake but weak. Madam Pomfrey had been able to add some of Fawkes tears to the orange paste on Ron's burns which were healing rapidly.
The trio sat in his room catching up. Ron told everything that had happened in a magnificent manner, of course. "You saw didn't you Harry?"
"Yeah, I saw"
"You know Ron doesn't blame you…do you Ron?" Hermione giving him an or else look.
"Me? Why would I blame you mate? It's not like you were controlling V-V-Voldemort. You have to stop always blaming yourself. Why are you both looking at me like that?" scooting back some.
"RON!" They both grabbed him and pulled him towards the ground forgetting about the burns. "OW OW OW WATCH IT!"
Laughing madly they both stopped. "Do you realize you just said his name?" Harry was in total denial. "I can't believe you said it!"
"Oh Ron, I am so proud of you for overcoming your fears."
Rolling his eyes at her he answered Harry, "Figured anyone whose followers can't even take on six kids must be a bloody git." He gave a smirk even Malfoy would be proud of. Howls of laughter filled the room as the best friends sat and visited.
Mr. and Mrs. Weasley sat in the kitchen with Lupin and Tonks trying to figure out their living situation. "Molly really, there is plenty of rooms here, it wasn't a problem last year. Why would Harry mind? You are like a mother to him?"
Patting his hand, "That is sweet of you Remus but there is more of the Order staying here now."
Tonks threw in her two cents, "Oh really Molls, we are witches! I'm sure that Harry and Hermione would want Ron and Ginny to…"
"You know Tonks," Remus interrupted, "I'm sure that Harry would want them to have their own rooms like he and Hermione have. The third floor would be perfect, three extra rooms there. Don't you think the kids would love the chance to decorate them their own way?" Giving her a meaningful glance.
"Cor, you are right Moony." Getting that with Harry and Hermione developing a new friendship they may not want the others to know. "Why don't we go see?"
"Thank you both for everything." Mr. Weasley said hugging his wife trying to sooth her worries.
"Harry…Harry…come on wake up." Shaking his shoulder lightly, Tonks continued, "Harry, we have to chat." When that didn't work she got another idea. She got up and left the room to go find Moony. The two returned later trying to suppress their laughter.
"BLOODY HELL!" Sounds of uncontrollable laughter filled the room as he shot up, dripping wet! When he saw Tonks holding a pitcher of water and Remus a bucket of ice, he decided to fight back. He grabbed Moony's wand, "Petrificus Totalus."
Their arms and legs slapped to their bodies as they fell backwards with surprised faces. He began to laugh. "Serves you right. Now what should I do to you?" He tapped his chin with his finger pretending to be in deep thought. "Got it!" He left the room with a mischievous smirk.
He returned with Hermione, Ron, and Ginny who began laughing immediately upon entering the room. "Good one Harry, what do you want to do with them?" Ginny asked.
"Moony, I think it is time for you to have a makeover? Girls, you wouldn't happen to have a few make-up charms handy would you?"
"Why yes we do." Hermione said grabbing Remus's wand looking at the fear that spread through Moony's eyes. Thirty minutes later Remus had Barbie blue eye shadow all over his eyelids, pink blush, fake eyelashes, and Kiss Me pink lipstick. His hair was a nice pale blonde shade. The girls stepped back to admire their work. "Excellent if I say so myself."
"Now since Tonks is a metamorphagus and can change her appearance at will…what shall we do?"
Ron answered Ginny with a huge grin, "I know exactly what to do."
Twenty minutes later Moony and Tonks were levitated down to the kitchen. The room looked up in shock and then exploded with howls of laughter as they saw Moony with make-up and Tonks dressed in a polka-dot baggy jumper, pointed hat with a fuzzy orange ball on top, and her face painted white with red circles on her cheeks and a smile painted on the outside of her lips covering most of her face…like a circus clown. Big shoes included! Professor McGonagall and Professor Dumbledore were wiping tears from their eyes as Ron grabbed the wand and said "Finite Incantatum." No one asked any questions once they saw a very wet and cold Harry to know that he had gotten a wake up call like no other and had one uped their prank! The room still howled in laughs as Moony and Tonks looked at each other; beginning to laugh themselves. Remus snatched his wand out of Ron's hands and said one word…RUN!
Running all the way to Harry's room to try and lock the door; they silently agreed to watch each others backs.
Catching their breaths and cleaning all traces of the incident away; Tonks and Moony made their way to Harry's room finding him alone.
Looking up cautiously to speak Harry asked, "So what are today's plans?"
"Thought we would finally get you over to Gringotts to look through your parents vaults and finish up the remaining paperwork. Maybe go shopping, get some lunch, whatever you feel like Harry. Tonks and I just want to make sure you enjoy this summer for a change."
"That's sounds ok, who all is going?"
"Kingsley, Mad-eye, the three of us, Hermione, and if you want The Weasleys except Arthur, he has to head to work. We understand if you just want to be with Hermione though…like a date?" Tonks added giving him a wink.
"Oh…" he didn't know how to answer. What would Hermione prefer? What were they going to do about Ron and Ginny; they hadn't told them that they liked each other.
Seeing him bite his lip Lupin decided to offer some advice. "Have you decided what to tell them about the two of you? We thought you may want to keep your privacy and suggested the Weasleys take the three rooms on the third floor unless you want to share with Ginny and Ron?"
"No, we haven't talked anymore about what to say to them. Ron will be hurt; I don't want to hurt him." He sounded desperate.
"Harry, I think Hermione would want to do it sooner than later. Us females prefer things out in the open, besides, the way you look at each other will give it away sooner than later. Ron will understand if he is a true friend. Ginny seems as if she is over her crush and I think she is dating a guy named Dean so she shouldn't be a problem. But let's take this one step at a time ok? Do you want to share a room with Ron or have somewhere private to be with her?"
"Am I being to selfish if I say I like having a room of my own, I have never had that, well not a room I like anyway. One with out all of Dudley's broken things. It's still new to me. I have the guys at school so it's not like that is my own room. Does that make sense? After all he is my other best friend."
"Ron would probably like to be able to have his own room to decorate the way he wants it. As for you being selfish; do not think that way! You have every right to want some time of your own." Feeling devious Moony added, "Besides he probably would enjoy a room where he wasn't always walking in on the two of you snogging all the time!"
"Shut up Moony! Ok so that settles that question; now, would you like a date with her or time with all your friends?"
"I did ask her to go on one with me but I figured it would have to be back at school."
"Why?"
"I don't know, I usually can't go out anywhere during the summers, not being safe and all." Throwing him self backwards on the bed.
"That is changing right now! If you want to go out with Hermione we can set it up…I would prefer it to be in muggle London though. Do you want it now or maybe later tonight, we could probably help ya'll sneak out from them and everyone else. I am sure the Grangers would help also."
Turning suddenly, "You would do that? You would actually help us do that?"
"Yes, we understand being young once to you know."
"What do you mean remember…I am still young you old werewolf!" punching his leg playfully.
Studying them for a moment, "Are you sure the two of you don't need a date?" They sat instantly still and looked in horror at him. "Did I say something wrong?"
"N-N-No, why do you think that?"
"Because of the faces you both have."
"So, about you and Hermione," Tonks said quickly changing the subject, "Is she your girlfriend?"
"Ugh! This is so hard. I have no idea."
Giggling she added, "Why is it hard? If you like each other, shouldn't you be together?"
"See, that is just it. We like each other, a lot but does that make you …you know…a couple or do I actually have to ask her? I need help. I have no idea what I am doing. Last year when I went out with Cho Chang, the Ravenclaw seeker, it was so confusing and I was always so nervous and she was horrible to be around because she was crying all the time. This whole dating thing is just weird!" Both of them trying to control their giggling looked at him with such puppy dog faces. "WHAT?"
"Wasn't she Cedric's girlfriend? Pretty and smart if I remember correctly from class…hey hold on there stud…wasn't she older?" Turning red Harry nodded yes. "Good one, Prongs would be so proud of his little boy." Remus pretended to wipes tears from his eyes as Tonks gave him a shove off the bed.
"Don't mind him love…he will grow up one day. Listen to me. If you like her and she likes you then ask her if that is what she wants. Problem solved, but my bet is on you having a girlfriend in the next hour!" She winked. "So go talk to her about all this and then tell us when you are ready to go and who all is going. That way we can arrange things. You can also let us know then about a real date and what you want to do."
"Want to tell me what you do on a good date?"
Remus had a twinkle in his eye, "Ahhh…" he sighed remembering something "page 22!" Harry almost fell of the bed laughing as Tonks looked at them as if they had three heads. When he could breathe again; he asked if they could help him find Hermione. As they left the room, he smiled at their conversation, "So Moony, going tell me what page 22 is…"
As he finished tying his trainers Hermione stuck her head in, "Hey there, I just saw Tonks and Moony on the stairs and they said you wanted to talk to me."
He dragged his fingers through his hair and tried to wipe the sweat from his palms on his jeans. "You want to sit with me?" he patted the spot on the bed next to him. "Ok…I need to finish that talk we were having. The one about how we felt. I…I like you a lot and I know we said we would go out but the way I feel when I look at you…is something I want all the time. I don't know…how you feel but I know one date is not enough for me." Bloody hell, this is hard. "Mi, I know you have always been there for me, more than anyone, but now…I know that it meant more to me than I thought. You know how when you wonder about your future and who it will be with or if there will be anyone? Looking into your eyes, those beautiful cinnamon eyes…" He moved the hair out of her face and put it behind her ear taking her hand. "I know, in my heart, I could never be with anyone but you. Lupin told me that the best love is your best friend for life. That's what I think this is…"
Hermione's eyes sparkled, "Harry, are you trying to say you love me?"
Choosing his words carefully, "Maybe…I'm not really sure what it feels like. For now I would just be really grateful if you would be willing to find out by being my girlfriend." She threw her arms around him kissing him soundly. Stopping to take a breath, "Mi, it would help calm my nerves if you would answer." softly laughing.
"Yes Harry! I would love it more than anything. As long as we agree to go slow, this isn't something I can learn in a book and…I'm…scared. But in a good way." She added quickly. "My mum told me the same thing about being best friends." She looked down biting her lip again. "But she also told me it won't work if we aren't honest." She looked up at him trying not to see his eyes. "You have to tell me whatever it is you aren't Harry. Being my best friend, I can wait 'til you are ready but to be your girlfriend…I don't want secrets, especially not from the start. Can you do that for me?"
Harry took a deep breath dredging once again his fingers through his hair. Turning, emerald green eyes met cinnamon ones and his defenses broke. "My destiny…it could cause you pain. Maybe even more danger…if that's possible." He stated trying to lighten the mood. What he was going to tell her might change everything.
Locking into her eyes gathering his strength he began. "The prophecy in the Ministry of Magic last year, I know it. I know what it says. Only the record of it was broke. Dumbledore was the one who heard it all those years ago when he was interviewing Professor Trelawney for her position at Hogwarts. Hermione…if I tell you this, this is no longer an adventure…if Voldemort found out; it could be your life. You may change your mind about saying yes too. Being with me could cause you more pain than you may want, more worry than you need. Having whatever is left of our childhood innocence disappear forever, facing reality instantly. Are you sure about this? It is ok if you don't want it, hell I wish I didn't know it." He decided to be patient, to give her time, to…
"Tell me! Tell me whatever it is Harry. If I haven't stopped being your friend by now, nothing will. What we know, what we have seen and done…made me grow up a long time ago. Something brought us together on that train six years ago, you gave me purpose. Between you and Ron…my life would not matter, you two make it matter. You give me purpose Harry in everything you do and say. I want to help. I think I knew a long time ago what your destiny was…I thought I might be a part of it, if only to be your friend." taking deep breath "You have to kill him don't you? You have to be the one to kill Voldemort."
Harry stared into her eyes with his mouth hanging open. His ears could not have heard her say it. How? How did she always know? Nodding his head yes, she continued, "Tell me the prophecy." With a great sigh he told her.
"The one with the power to vanquish the Dark Lord approaches…Born to those who have thrice defied him, born as the seventh month dies…and the Dark Lord will mark him as his equal, but he will have power that the Dark Lord knows not…and either must die at the hand of the other for neither can live while the other survives…The one with the power to vanquish the Dark Lord will be born as the seventh month dies…"
Hands cupped on her face brushing tears away with his thumbs, they sat silently. She never took her eyes off his, he didn't either. Her worst fears had been confirmed. She sighed quietly closing her eyes trying to make the tears and pain go away. Whispering like there was no air for him to breathe in, "Hermione, I can't take it back. With everything in my soul I wish I could! You can stop this now. Change your mind; find true love and a future. Be happy. I wish I…could promise you what you want to hear, but I can't! No guarantees, no answers. I just know it is my destiny. Do me a favor though…do what is best for you. No thinking of what I need or want, just what is right for you."
Opening her eyes as tears stained her face, "You are. You are the best choice for me. I knew Harry; I prayed every night I was wrong. But I knew. This can't change anything because I knew and I still stood beside you all those times, helped you even. You confirmed it the other day in the kitchen, during the attack…I just didn't think hearing it could make it more real, but it did somehow. There's no hope now for me to be wrong. The order may not let me in, that is fine. I chose to pledge myself to you and defeating him in our first year, in that room with the potions. You have never let me down Harry and I won't let you down now. I can handle what is thrown at me…as long as you promise me to stop fooling around with Ron and learn everything you can to beat him. You have to beat him but I can help. So can everyone who you will let help. So you are the one that needs to make a decision. What is it going to be?"
Amazed by her strength and courage he thought hard about his choice. "If you are there…I can. Making the people I care about safe is the most important thing to me." He hugged her tightly. "Since we have that bit out of the way" she nudged his shoulder with hers "do you want to go with everyone to Diagon Alley or just a few of us?"
Catching his meaning, "Oh, I guess it doesn't matter to me. If we go, Ginny and Ron may wonder if something is wrong or feel left out. But if we all go, then it looks like we are in for another chat today, which seems to be happening a lot this week."
"We could always go with everyone and then sneak out for a date later." He felt warm feeling a little nervous. "Tonks and Remus thought of that idea. Said they would help us and your parents probably would too."
"Perfect! Now the only question is…are you taking me today as your best friend or your girlfriend?" she said giving him a smirk and raised eyebrow.
"I know what I want. Only thing is…can you handle all this? We would have to tell everyone here first, but..." nervous about sounding conceited but knowing the press "there will probably be lots of people. You know what may happen don't you, Mi?"
Rolling her eyes and remembering her fourth year, "Reporters…somebody will tell them and it will be across front pages all over the world. Maybe Tonks or my mum will know what to do."
"I guess this means I get to show the world my girlfriend. We need to find the Weasleys."
"Let's tell them with everyone else here Harry, maybe that way it will keep them from being…well emotional over it. Plus, we'll have help."
"As long as you don't mind us telling our parents first, by themselves."
"Harry! Did you just hear yourself? You called Remus your parent!" she was beaming with joy for him. He smiled proudly back giving her a kiss on the cheek. Excitedly she pulled him up and towards the door, "Come on."
The Grangers and Hermione sat patiently in their room as he went to get Remus. Finding him in the kitchen having breakfast with everyone else he whispered in his ears. "I need to talk to you. Meet me in Dr. and Mrs. Granger's room. Tonks can come if she wants." He left to go back up.
"We're here. What is this all about?" Moony said as he entered the room followed by Tonks. Seeing Hermione give Tonks a questioning look he added, "Harry told me to bring her."
Hermione smiled at Harry as she turned to face her parents. "We just wanted our parents" giving Moony a wink "to be the first to know. Harry and I are…ummm."
Harry cut in, "boyfriend and girlfriend, officially. We just wanted you all to be ok with it before we told everyone else."
"That's fantastic dear." Mrs. Granger said as she pulled her daughter into a hug.
Dr. Granger stood up to shake his hand, "Thank you Harry for thinking of all of us first. Just take care of my little girl. Understand that we will all have to set some rules down but I think it won't be too hard. How about you Remus?"
Tonks and Remus were grinning mischievously. "Oh I think we can work it out. I do have one concern though."
Hermione looked nearly frantic with worry, "Hermione I am happy for you but I think we need to discuss something that you and Harry may not have thought of. Your parents may have some concern too." Sitting down to explain to the Grangers, "Harry is famous in our world, this maybe all over the papers. How do you feel about Hermione being exposed that way?"
"Actually Remus, Harry and I did discuss this. Mum and dad do you remember when we told you about our fourth year and all those articles were written about Harry and the Tri-wizard tournament? One of them implied that I was trying to date both Viktor and Harry with a few tacky insults about me just wanting to be famous. I know what I am getting into. People can be mean, I was sent howlers and one even made me breakout in blisters! Please trust me. We decided not to keep this secret, no one else our age would and we just want to be us, honestly. If it doesn't happen now it would at school. We were just hoping that one of you may have a solution on how to deal with it. I really don't want to be attacked by some fan of his today." She rolled her eyes, voice dripping with sarcasm and pretended to swoon. Harry shot her a warning look but then playfully made a grab at her.
"Why you little…"
"Watch it Harry, father standing in the room." Dr. Granger said playfully. Small chuckles could be heard as they sat down to find a solution.