Author's Note: Hey guys! I greatly appologize for the delay in writing. I am current on vacation in the middle of the countryside. Not a person around for miles... This sucks. Basically I have four options. I can sleep, read, write, or swim. Since I have a bad sunburn from wearing my bikini in the river yesterday, I'd decided to write. Yay? Happy reading.

After my father left, I completely zoned out. I've been doing that a lot lately. I hate that about pregnancy. I'm such a damned space cadet.

I jumped into the shower when I had returned from fairy land. I noticed that the hair on my legs resembled the hair on my head; dark and really long. Using my father's shaver, I began to shave my legs. Okay fine, one leg. God! Details, details. I stopped when I got halfway up my calf. I don't care. Take it to France and go 'au natural'.

The day was cold, so I pulled on Goku's old football jersey and warm PJ pants, It began to rain at about noon (when I also decided to turn on the TV). I flipped through channel after channel. Soap opera, kiddy show, soap opera...do they EVER put decent programming on during the day! I lay down and put my head on a pillow. I was feeling groggy.

Nearly giving up, I reached something moderatly interesting. Mid-day news. It works for me. Dow is up 11, Nasdaq is down 3, all that shit. After running the ticker, the news anchor came back on. The headline read 'Life Lost In Teenage Drama'.

"Yesterday night a body was found in the home of a downstate teenage boy, Goku Son. He was found with a gun inches from his hand and a fatal gunshot wound to his head. Police suspect he had been dead for close to an hour when they arrived on the scene. A concerned neighbor called the authorities when szhe heard a gun shot around midnight. The young man left a note to his girlfriend explaining how it wasn't worth it anymore. The young man was two weeks short of his 18th birthday."

It took a while to set in, but when it did, I screamed. Tears streamed down my cheeks and I sat up on the couch. The TV wasn't playing the news, it was playing a soap opera. A dream...it was all a terrible dream. I sighed to myself in relief.

I glanced at my watch. It was 1:30-ish. I got up and went to find something to eat in the kitchen. I fixed myself a bowl of Ramen noodles and kept thinking about that dream. How real it seemed. I hated myself. I couldn't believe that it was something I could have caused. If only I could help it.

There was. I got up from the table, leaving my Ramen untouched. I went to the living room and looked at all my things laying on the floor. I picked them all up and placed them in my suitcase. I stood my suitcase up, grabbed my coat and slipped on some shoes. I could stay. Just as I was about to leave, I couldn't just be gone when he came back without explaination. What would he say when he saw that I just left?

A note. Simple! I'll leave him a note. It's a bit less than telling him in person, but this way, I'd be killing two birds with one stone. I took out a wedding invitation I had as a bookmark and began to write on the back.

Daddy-

I can't explain how sorry I am that I left without saying goodbye. I'm sure you'll understand if you think about it. Wouldn't you have done the same for Mom?

Consider this to be an invite. I'm sorry I didn't mail it. I know you enjoy getting fun stuff in the mail about as much as I do.

I love you.

Chi-Chi

I read it over and over again, making sure I tried to used the words I wanted to use. It was acceptable. I put my key in the dish where my Dad keeps him keys. I got my bags, went into the hallway and shut the door.

I hailed a taxi and got to the bus staion. The next bus for home was heading out at 5 pm which was only about and hour and a half away. I told her that was fine. She issued the ticket and I decided to go next door to get some Burger King to tide me over until I got home.

Getting on the bus was a strange feeling. I was so excited to get back, but at the same time, I completely dreaded it. I knew Goku and I had some major problems we had to deal with when I got back. The doubt faded away quickly though. I was sure that we would make it through anything. Especially after this. Living without him was now impossible for me.

I reached into the side pocket of my carry-on and pulled out a black velvet box. Inside was the ring that Goku gave me for my birthday. I took it out and put it on my left ring finger again.

The bus was an awful 6 hours, arriving at 11 at night. I got off the bus and noticed how starved I was. I didn't care of course. All I wanted was to be home with the man I loved.

By the time I had taken another taxi and arrived at Goku's, it was 11:45. The house was dark and Mom's car wasn't in the driveway. I unlocked the door with my key and quietly slipped inside with my bags. I crept up the stairs and down the hall. Slowly I opened Goku's bedroom door.

His room was a mess as usual. A bag of spilt chips were scattered across the floor, his uniform for work was thrown across a chair, clothes all over the floor, and surprisingly enough, his old trombone was out of it's case and in a corner. I looked up to his bed and saw him lying down, in his boxers, and completely asleep.

Half tip-toeing and half trying not to kill myself while walking over all his shit, I went to his bedside. I put my hand on the side of his face and kissed his forhead softly. His eyes slowly opened and he jumped when he saw me leaning over him like that.

"Chi-Chi!" He breathed. He grabbed me and pulled me close. "You fucking scared me half to death."

"I'm so sorry Goku!" I sobbed.

"Don't worry. I was only a little surprised..."

"No! That I left you! I can't believe myself!"

He ran his hand through my hair and I sobbed uncontrolably. "You know, I had a dream about you . You had killed yourself because I didn't go after you. I was so upset I had to come home early from work today."

That's when I knew I wanted to be with him for the rest f my life.

Author's End Note: I realize this passage isn't exactly my longest chapter. Hehe it's a mediocre 3 pages, but I have the next chapter ¾ written and will have it up in only a few days. I had a lot of time in the country-side!

Happy 2005, though it's been a month. I hope it's been good so far! 160 reviews! Thanks sooo very much! I can't wait to reach 200!