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Author's Note: Next chapter, ….GRR I have no idea what I'm gonna do, I had an idea but I kinda lost it…oops and so yea… but I'll try to remember and that's gonna be the next and maybe the end of this one…BUT!...okay here we go…

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Lost

(Bradin's P.O.V)

As I ran out of the hospital room, I didn't look back but I did see that there were small tears burning in Isabel's eyes. I hated this, being lost, confused, and left alone to suffer by myself. I grabbed a surfboard and went to the water but as soon as I came close, the waves crashed against the shore hitting my feet, I froze. The accident, how she saved me, and what had happened all flashed in front of my eyes, I dropped my board at the water's edge and ran back to the house.

They have already probably figured it out, what had happened, why I wasn't in the hospital anymore and why I couldn't go back. I felt a light touch on my shoulders and quickly turned around, my eyes locking with Isabel's. I noticed her eyes were swollen, she had been crying and I know that it was my fault. Standing up, I took her hands into mine, leaned her head against my chest and hugged her.

"I never got to say thank you, so thank you Izzy, thanks for saving my life" she looked up at me and wrapped her arms around my neck. "Bradin, you mean so much to me, if anything happened to you, I wouldn't be able to live with myself, so why aren't you surfing, I'd figured you would have gone down to the water" I shook my head and suddenly feeling dizzy, lowered myself onto the couch.

"I can't surf anymore…I can't Isabel, the accident, everything…it all…I can't forget it….Iz…" I knew I was speaking in fractions but she understood every word. "Bradin, when I saw you out there, on the water, you were…amazing, a farm boy from Kansas has made water his home, you belong out there and you can't let an accident ruin it for you, nothing is going to happen, I'm standing right beside you, calm down Bray, we'll take a break but you have to get back out there because Bray, without it, you're just not you" I smiled.

She put her arms around me, probably noticing I was shaking the entire time. "How come you know so much about where I belong" I questioned looking at her. "Because…Bray I will tell you, just not now…we all keep secrets, but some people's secrets are a LOT bigger and more extreme then other's, I'm one of those Bray, I know I look like a surfer girl from Cali, but it's not me…" her head lowered. I didn't believe what I was hearing.

Isabel looked like she was pulled right out of a surfing movie. She had the moves, the looks, the sun bleached hair, the figure, everything of a surfer and here she was telling me it wasn't her. I waited this long to know so I will wait longer. "I waited, but for you to tell me, I can wait forever" she looked up, smiled and kissed me quickly, pulled away and laid her head on my shoulder, and like that we fell asleep on the couch, side by side.

I heard loud banging and had figured everyone came home. Quickly opening my eyes I saw Ava standing above us, pulling the covers up to Isabel's chin then she noticed I was awake. "Aw, you didn't have to get up, you both look so cute" I smiled and moved Iz from her position in my lap to the same position on a pillow.

"Hey, we going to go surf, some wild waves out there man" I was about to nod, but then the accident, all over again, spun in my head. "I…I can't sorry Jay" he noticed me go white, so I grabbed a bottle of Gatorade and ran out of the room down to the beach.

I sat beside the water, it washed over my knees and with every hit I was more afraid. I don't know what, what had happened that was so bad that I needed to hide forever, but I was scared, I didn't want to be, and I had this huge feeling this was the end of my surfing career.

It had been a little while, no one had come looking for me and I was glad, needed to be alone for a while. Laying my head back into the sand, I could see the sun, penetrating my eye lids and still causing me to squint to be able to still keep my eyes closed.

Still laying backwards I felt a shadow come over me, someone was standing above me. I opened my eyes and saw Isabel's face. "Hey" I smiled "Hey" just a simple word, but it felt so good, just talking to her always made me feel good.

"Still not surfing huh, come on…" she pulled me up by my hands and pulled me into the water. I stood on the edge, burying my feet into the ground, not moving. "No, Iz, please" I pleaded but she didn't answer my pleas, just kept pulling. I wasn't able to hold on anymore and finally stumbled into the water. I jumped out, almost shaking and ran back to the shore. Isabel came and put her arms around me. "Bradin, I'm sorry, but you need to relax, I can't have my little surfer boy be afraid of water"

I loved the way she said "surfer boy" too bad I wasn't that anymore. I was staring at her, and I noticed she was staring back. Slowly and softly, her lips covered mine, a sweet kiss. She quickly pulled away and was about to wipe her mouth when I stopped her. "Don't do this to me" I kissed her again, and she didn't pull away this time. Her tongue roamed my mouth, exploring every single corner. She moaned, letting my hands roam her body. I ran my fingers down her sides and my legs were getting weaker. I knew this was wrong, but everything about it felt right.

Soon I had stopped thinking and was totally engulfed by the reality of wanting to be with Isabel and how amazing she was. No matter if it was wrong or not, I was totally lost to Iz, and her kiss.