Fury
Winter, 15th year of the Meiji Era
By Meii-chan
Fear
Pain
Death
This is what I embody.
Is that why everyone hates me?
Because I am something so dangerous?
Because I might hurt you?
But what about the time they jeered and threatened?
What about the time they came with sticks and stones?
What about the time they came with sharpened swords?
That was when I was like everyone else.
Was I so different,
Even back then?
Even when I couldn't help it?
Will I be hunted down no matter who I meet or where I go?
In the end, is Shishio-san right?
Maybe there are people who live to be hated,
To be murderous wolves,
To be like me.
I cannot stray,
This is the only path:
The one hewn by frozen wakizashi,
Carpeted by free flowing blood...
I've tried virtue,
Why do you claim it is not enough?
Can starved wolves show restraint?
If only to save myself,
Desperate agony turns to desperate fury…
I'll take up fear, pain, and death once more,
I don't care what will happen tomorrow!
To be continued…
Author's notes: Hmm…I don't like this poem very much. I'll probably change it later when I come up with a better poem (and why does poetry format kill my spacings so that everything is one stanza?). And yeah, I can't write poetry about anger because I'm usually not angry; that, and the fact that I can't really understand Soujiro's emotions at this point in time. It's somewhat irrational and impulsive…Let's just say that Soujiro has just reverted to Tenken and gone on a killing spree, not thinking about the consequences…Oh dear…
On another note…yeah, I didn't update for two weeks…sorry! I went to church retreat and didn't have access to the Internet for the entire Memorial Day weekend. (But actually, if you know how rarely I update, my other fics, this is actually fast for me!)
Thank you, reviewers! (And please review this chapter; I want to know your opinions on this poem, since I myself hate it so much!)
"Oro" 0bject: Yeah, it's such a pity I had to do that, even in a poem…In prose he can at least express himself. But I guess the vagueness makes it less melodramatic, or not?
Babygirl: Sometimes I don't even understand what I write. It's like ETS picking something totally random and making you write an essay on it.
Charming Woman: Thanks!
: Thank you!
Genki Ninjagirl: Thanks! Uh…forgive you for what?
Rose Mary: Yeah, it probably would be better, but then I would end up updating 20 times as slow. And that would be a bad thing.