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Ok so here is the next chapter of DAYDREAMS.. hope you enjoy it.
- Part 6 -
Previously on DAYDREAMS
Lorelai took a deep breath
"And I'd love you to ... just be here ... to stay here … to come here after you closed the diner, to sleep here, to wake up here, going to work and come back … to my place … everyday."
"Lorelai…" He looked at her confused "Do you want me to…move in?"
She nodded, glancing down at her shoes nervously waiting for his reaction.
Lorelai's words were echoing in his ears. Was he really ready to move in with her? It only had been a few months, since they got back together.
As he closed his eyes it took him only a few seconds to make a decision. After all he loved her, cared for her and wanted nothing more than to be with her, every single day, every single hour and every single minute.
Luke opened his eyes and smiled, lifted her chin up to again meet his eyes.
"I'd love to," he said in his husky voice, his eyes sparkling down at her.
He saw tears in her eyes, one of them making its way down her cheek.
"Shhhh, don't cry."
He hugged her.
"You really want to?"
She sniffled almost inaudible trying to blink away the happy tears.
"More than anything else," he breathed against her hair.
She pulled away, looking up at him. His eyes were filled with love, pure love. Again she wanted to say that she loved him but she just couldn't get the words out.
"I…. I'm so happy about that," she told him sincerely and hugged him again.
He wanted to say it, say that he loved her, that she was the love of his life, the one.
"I… I… me too." he replied cursing himself for not saying those three words.
What was wrong with him? He really loved her, he felt it in his heart, she was the one he wanted to be with. He loved her more than his own life. So why couldn't he get the words out?
Again he pulled away from her, pacing through the kitchen.
Lorelai watched him. She couldn't believe that she simple couldn't say "I love you" to a person. This time she really felt it. With Max, Jason or even Christopher she never really felt this way, but with Luke it was totally different.
"Hey, what's wrong?" she called after Luke
"Nothing ... just..."
He still paced through the kitchen making his way almost to the front of the kitchen then turned around and came back.
He stood in front of her now.
"Lorelai, I. . . . ."
She looked up at him, playing with her fingers.
"Yes?"
He took her hand and led her to the table.
"Could you … please sit down for a sec?"
"Uhm, sure"
She sat down and looked at him.
He turned off the stove to keep the food from burning, took a seat and entwined fingers with her.
"Listen . . ."
Luke took a deep breath, his hands began to shake
"Oh Luke, if you don't want to move in with me, it's fine … really. You don't need to, I don't want to force you into something you don't want." Lorelai said sadly.
"No… that's not it, please hear me out Lorelai"
She nodded
"First of all, You know I'm not very good with words, but I'll try."
He looked straight at her.
"Lorelai … you … you are perfect, beautiful, gorgeous. You ... you make me smile, make me laugh. Whenever I'm around you, I feel good, I feel complete. You make me happy, Lorelai. You make me want to sing and hum all day long, Not that I'm doing it now, but you know ... I could if I wanted to."
She smiled.
"Since I've been with you, I am a better person. Everyone in town has told me that I've changed, that you changed me. Not in a bad way I might add. You amaze me everyday, Lorelai, YOU made me a better person."
"Luke.…"
"I'm not finished yet."
Lorelai shut up and watched him as he continued.
"It has always been you. I was just too stubborn to admit it. When I saw you for the first time, I was mesmerized by your beauty. But, you began to speak..."
They both laughed.
"But I never had any doubts that we would end up together, even after your almost marriage with Max. Or, well, that thing with Nicole, which by the way, was probably the most stupid idea I've ever had."
He shook his head and closed his eyes.
"I'm lost without you. When we broke up, I was ... well, let's just say in a total bad mood. I was throwing around things, screaming at customers, burning the food. I was just miserable. I don't want that to happen … ever again. I need you, Lorelai."
Lorelai's eyes got teary. She know exactly what he meant. When they broke up, she was miserable -- feeling like the world had ended.
Lorelai's Bedroom a few months ago
Rory entered the bedroom to find her mother in bed, crying.
"Mom? What happened"? Rory asked worried while sitting down on the bed.
"Luke." Lorelai whispered almost inaudible.
" What Luke?" Rory looked at her confused.
"He's gone! He hates me. I blew it. I blew everything." She sniffled.
"I don't understand. What happened?"
"I should have told him about Christopher."
Rory shook her head.
"That was innocent."
"But I should have told him. I hid it. I shouldn't have hid it." She cried louder now.
"Try to sit up."
Rory touched her shoulder trying to comfort her.
"She got to him." Lorelai said through her tears.
"To Dad? Who did?" Rory asked curiously.
"Mom. She pushed him and it ruined everything. And now they're putting up ribbons".
"Ribbons? Who?"
"Taylor, the town. They hate me. They all hate me. I wrecked everything." She cried harder, unable to stop
"Mom. This isn't good. Come on. Try to sit up." Rory was really worried now.
But Lorelai didn't move.
"He said he needed time to think, but I pushed him." She was still lying in her bed, her head resting on the pillow.
"He'll come around". She softly patted Lorelai's head.
Seeing her mother like that was almost unbearable for Rory.
" I pushed him, and now he's gone."
Lorelai couldn't believe that Luke was gone, that he was no longer her boyfriend. Her heart was broken. She couldn't breathe, she couldn't eat. It was too much for her to bear. She needed Luke in her life. Her life was worth nothing without Luke in it. She closed her eyes, trying to stop the tears, but she failed.
Another rush of tears streamed down her face. Her eyes were red and swollen but she didn't care. Everything she wanted, everything she waited for … for eight long years, everything she needed was gone.
"He waited forever for you. He's not just going to walk away."
"It's over," she mumbled.
"Mom, this isn't you. Lying in bed like this. You should be up."
"You should go to school. Go back to school." She turned around to look at her worried, caring daughter.
"I'm here. I'm staying." Rory answered seriously.
"God, I really screwed up this time". And with this sentence a fresh rush of tears run down her cheeks.
" Shh." She caressed her shoulder.
"He could have been the one." Lorelai stated, looking down at her hands.
"He'll come around. Shh. Try to sleep." Rory tightened the covers and lay down beside her mother.
"Lorelai? You still with me?" he asked when he caught her starring down at the table.
"What? Yes. I'm still here."
She cleared her throat, shaking her head to get rid of those thoughts.
"I just thought about something. I'm sorry."
Lorelai gave him a light squeeze, encouraging him to continue.
Luke took a deep breath, watching their entwined fingers. He felt Lorelai's thumb tracing small circles over the back of his hand. She looked him directly in the eyes. He smiled. The sparkle in her eyes went right to his heart, making it melt.
"You're the one, Lorelai." He declared.
He ran his free hand through his hair, starting to get really nervous. It felt weird talking about his feelings because he never showed them -- to anyone. But at the same moment, it felt right. More than right.
Again he looked up at her, tears forming in his eyes
"I love you," he whispered finally, and a tear slid down his cheek
Lorelai's eyes widened and she began to smile. Her eyes moistened and she felt her whole body shiver. She knew he loved her, but to really hear it was totally different. The butterflies in her stomach now worked overtime.
Again she squeezed his hand and reached up to softly caress his face whipping the tears away.
"I love you, too," she said, her voice shaking with emotions.
Slowly she stood up and made her way to Luke, her hand never leaving his. She sat down on his lap, looking him in the eyes. Again she caressed his face and lifted his chin up.
"I love you more than anything else in my life," she confessed, bending down to meet his lips in a soft and gentle kiss.
She now also felt tears sliding down her cheeks. She couldn't control her emotions any longer, and she didn't want to.
He kissed her back, feeling her cheeks getting wet as his own tears began to increase.
TBCWhat do you think about this chapter? Was it good.. bad? (and I promise the next chapter will be H.O.T.) .. ha ha but only if you review ;) I'm mean, I know :D