I Can't

"I knew it, I had a hunch about them doing this," Robin exclaimed.

"I did not. We are here and our food is ready to be served. I guess we just stay here and eat." Starfire said, trying to brighten up the mood, "And talk."

"I guess," Robin said.

"Robin, I am sorry for what I have done to you,"

"It was actually my fault," Robin told her.

"So then you like me?" Starfire said sounding happy.

"I didn't really mean that," Robin told her, trying not to hurt her feelings. Matter of fact, he did mean it that way.

Starfire lowered her eyes and looked at the stars. You could barely see some, because of the city lights. Then she looked at Robin who was looking at her. Embarrassed, she quickly looked at her hands that were locked together. The pizza came and they took two pieces each and ate.

After they had eaten, they left the pizza place and walked down to the park. Starfire thought the night was still young. They started to talk about different things on their way to the park. Starfire sat on a swing, pushing herself back and forth. Robin was behind her pushing her.

"So Robin, how did you like the pizza?" Starfire asked looking over her shoulder to see Robin at the corner of her eye.

"It was okay." Robin answered.

Starfire got off and walked under a tree; Robin followed and sat next to her. They looked at each other for a while, their eyes locked on each other. For about a minute, without knowing, they were kissing. Robin's kisses on her lips were so exotic, so passionate, so caring, so soft and gentle, and Starfire loved them more than Speedy's. Robin broke the kiss by moving slowly away from her. Starfire gave a worried look.

"I can't, Starfire. There are too many things that are on my mind that I can't do with you."

"Robin," Starfire started.

"No, Starfire, I can't."

Starfire knew that he was obsessed with Slade, but she didn't know what else that was on Robin's mind. All he had to say was that he loved her, but he just couldn't do that.

"Robin, why can't you just say you love me?" Starfire's eyes began to water.

"I can't Starfire," Robin put his hand to her cheek. He knew that if he did say that he adored her deeply that it wouldn't be the same. If any villain were to know of his love for her, they'd take her and threaten him.

Starfire kind of knew that he did love her, but she wanted to hear the words come out of his lips. She wanted to hear those exact words from him. It made her feel a little better that she knew he loved her, but it just wasn't the same.

They got up and started to walk to the Tower, they didn't talk on the way. Starfire cried a silent cry. Tear drops kept coming and falling leaving dew drops on the concrete. Her face was like a water fall. Robin could feel her emotion throughout his body and he could feel her cries than hear. Then he stopped and she stopped. He gave her a hug and kissed her on her head. Then they walked home. Starfire was happy that he was trying to comfort her, but it still kept her low. She kept putting negative thoughts in her head.

As they entered the living room, Starfire walked straight to her room. She wanted to fly, but all those negative thoughts rushed in before her positives. She loved Robin's kisses more than anything in the world. Speedy's kisses were so demanding and rough when Robin's were so gentle and sweet. She got out her pen and diary and started to write about that night. She fell asleep writing.

The next morning she got up, under her lay her diary and pen from the night before. May be it was a bad idea picking Speedy over Robin, but Robin wouldn't have told her, so there wasn't really a choice. She knew that she had to get Robin to love her, instead of being so bottled up. She just wanted to take that bottle and open it so his love emotion would be free. Little by little it was coming out, but very slowly.

She walked out of the room, fixing her hair. She headed for the living room and sat down. Robin and Raven were already there, watching television and reading. She saw Robin smile at her and she smiled gleefully back at him. She said good morning to both of them and they both replied back.

Her stomach began to growl and she became a little embarrassed. She walked to the kitchen and mad her self the usually, waffles. Beast boy came in and looked at Starfire and Robin with a sheepish grin, "Um, you're not mad at us, right?"

"Nah, it was actually one of the best dinners I've ever had," Robin told Beast boy but was looking at Starfire.

Starfire looked at him and smiled while still eating her waffles.