Author's Note: This story is coming very closely to an end, as I've mentioned, Syaoran has a week left before going back to Hong Kong, so you calculate the maximum number of Chapters I can type for 7 days. Whoops, one's already gone, so 6 days. Do the math.
)Greenleaf Blossom( - Eh, it's ok… KSS's back again! The whole time she was only just working on a new layout! This one looks a lot cleaner. :)
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And a BIG THANKS for EVERYONE else who reviewed:)
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Chapter Thirteen
Alexia at Her Worst
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To everyone's surprise, as they arrived at work on Tuesday, they realized that Monday wasn't their only achievement day of the week, but Tuesday, was actually even better!
"Everyone, to the meeting room." Syaoran's voice boomed through the speaker.
Designer, models, researchers, modifiers, just about everyone came, and like yesterday, Syaoran sat in the very front center of the long, grand table with the marketing research lady behind him once again, holding her stack of charts and income progression of the company.
"There are quite a few things to announce actually. First of all, not many of you may know this, but today is, the 4th anniversary of this company!"
Clapping was heard all about, people talking amongst themselves, surprised at this fact.
When it quieted down, the lady stood up as Syaoran sat down. "Second, according to this graph, our income has increased by 60 since last year, and it's been growing steadily. If you take closer looks at many photos in shops and on commercialized pictures, at the corner in tiny lettering has the copyright of our company name, and lately, a few magazines are even complimenting us. After the award-winning pictures from yesterday, we had made it to the newspaper, as the "small, unknown company finally showing true talents", and with the most grand award ever won and informed today, we're very close to the headline. After all, it is very unlikely for a small corporation such as this to be so successful. In fact soon we may even soon be able to expand it somewhat—"
"Thank you." Syaoran smiled, cutting her off.
She took the hint and sat down, while Syaoran rose.
"What Kaylee has said was quite true, perhaps a tiny bit exaggerated, and I am quite proud of our establishments. However, the last part, about expanding our company, I do have one very bad news to inform all of you. As a threat from my mother, I am to return to my birthplace, Hong Kong by the latest at the end of this week."
Gasps rang throughout the room.
"Please, quiet, and let me finish. I have so far not decided what I shall do. I may still hire someone to help me manage it while I am a country away, or I may sell it. But I should let you know, if I do keep the company, I promise you nothing will change besides the missing of my presence, and if I do decided to sell the company and the new boss is terribly rude, or simply shut it down, you will all be paid for 6 months of your normal full wage, without having to come to come to work.
There were unsured opinions scattered around the room. Most people were still horrified by this announcement, but a fraction of people thought it weren't bad getting paid for 6 months of earnings without landing a finger onto work.
"Please everybody, do not panic, everything will work out for the best." Syaoran sighed then put on the happiest smile he could. "Enough with the bad news, let's get on with the good news now. This is just about the greatest thing that's ever happened to this corporation and I am very proud to be the boss and have all of your as my employees. Everyone worked hard to achieve this award, and I congratulate all of you!"
A round of applause came, as people murmured to each other, wondering what this could be.
"But most of all, the deepest congratulate, and most appraised thanks shall go to—"
RING! RING!
"Oh no!" Alexia gasped taking out her cell phone. "Sorry." She apologized sheepishly to Syaoran. "Forgot." She was about to turn it off when she saw the number flashing on her display screen. She turned pale from shock at the same time slightly purple from excitement. "I'll, um… be right back…"
Alexia scurried out of the room and shut the door. Quickly she answered the call before the caller hangs up. "Hi!" She cried, unable to hide her excitement.
But the sound on the other side was only cold.
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After balancing everything over, Lynnet made up her mind. Alexia was familiar and she had good proves, however there are more important things on her mind right now and this lady may just be a typical gold-digging liar, which is unacceptable in Lynnet's book.
Besides. There are more important matters. Her friend's wedding is coming up in 3 weeks, and still, she did not have a gown to go there with. The designer Daidouji has been purposely avoiding her ever since she called her up during her vacation.
With some research, Lynnet found out that Tomoyo, though making quite a nice living, shares a house with someone called Kinomoto Sakura, and that person, coincidentally works at this Alexia's company.
Perhaps she could be somewhat useful…
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"Alexia."
"Yes, yes! You remember don't you? You remember!"
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As Lynnet made the call to Alexia right the next day, already, the feeling of Alexia being her daughter has half faded away. She could hardly remember Alexia, yet again. The only reason she did was when she thought about that Designer.
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"I am here, calling you, wasting my time, to inform you with that fact that I shall call my security guards on you and sue you for stalking me if you do not stop leaving foolish messages and get out of my life."
Alexia paled, and for a moment there, she could not find her voice. "What…"
"You heard me, and I'm sure your hearing is perfect. I have no idea where you've gotten those pictures from, and frankly, my life has been too busy for me to acquire memory from it. And with today's technology, especially with your job as a photo meddler, it's highly possible you were somehow able to modify a picture to look convincing, send it to me, and expect me to actually believe that trash, and perhaps trick me into sending you money over weekly. I do not care about the money, but honestly, I hate greedy liars."
Alexia's heart pounded as tears welled up in her eyes. "No…" She whispered weakly. "No… I'm not someone like that! NO! LISTEN TO ME! MOM, LISTEN TO ME! I AM YOUR DAUGHTER! I LOVE YOU! MOM—"
Lynnet didn't give her a chance to finish. With her tone as even and cold and emotionless as before, she continued. "Although, if you do want the money, I can give you a fortune if you do something for me. You see, I need you to speak to Kinomoto Sakura, and ask her about—"
Alexia didn't hear the rest. The voice was drowned out by her own inner devil.
Sakura.
It's ALWAYS her.
Always been, and always will.
It was her, who made you call your mother.
It was her, who was happy, always her!
And now, even your own mother, asks about her!
No… leave me alone…
Why? Don't you hate her? If it weren't for her, you wouldn't be hurting right now!
LEAVE ME ALONE!
WHY? TELL ME, WHY?
Stay, don't come out… stay hidden, where you belong!
Don't you want some chaos? Don't you want her to know what you feel?
I'm afraid of you… Do not, do anything… leave me, alone…
No. I have a will of my own too. And you know you can't control me.
Please I'm begging you… you'll make me dangerous, and that's the last thing I need!
Dangerous. Danger. That sounds like fun.
I AM SANE!
No you're not… not with me within you.
The phone dropped to the ground, breaking, cutting off Lynnet's voice.
Alexia was too shaken to notice that, to notice she has just hung up on the most important person in her life. She took each step carefully, her eyes wide with fear, keeping that thing within herself as long as possible, carefully controlling it with her last might, not letting it to come out. She knew if she did, she'd lose it, and she wouldn't know what she'd do. It's dangerous. It happened once and she's not letting it happen again.
Stay… She pleaded.
Let me out…
No…
Yes…
You must stay…
I will come out…
Alexia moved slowly with caution, she made her way back to the meeting room, trying to look as relaxed as she could, even if there was cold sweat trickling down her back and her eyes were diluted.
Little by little, step-by-step, she walked on.
Someone ran past her and almost knocked her to the ground.
"Ah!" She cried out in surprise, but the man caught her.
"Hey Alexia, sorry about that." It was Takashi. "Man, you've just missed the best thing!"
"Best thing?"
"Yes, I can't believe you missed it for a stupid phone call! Guess what? Today, we're getting the rest of the day off, a lunch at a even better restaurant than yesterday, plus half work day tomorrow!"
"Why?"
"Man, you've gotta say thanks to Sakura. It's all her!"
It's all her… always her!
Stop… leave me!
"Remember how you won so many awards plus a commercial purpose for the company with your last picture?"
"Yeah…"
"I tell ya, that girl Sakura's on fire! She won twice the number of awards you did, and instead of only one company asking for her photo, we had 4 major companies, and 7 smaller ones! Syaoran looks like he's high or something, it's amazing! I gotta tell you that picture was one of the best I've ever seen!"
Look at her! She's taking over your spotlight! And look, your plan of getting Syaoran is ruined by her too!
I don't want Syaoran… I only want Lynnet to remember me! God, I'm losing it!
You want Syaoran to get Lynnet to notice you…
Yes, and that's my fault…
No it's not. You have every right to do that! But no, that Sakura girl has to ruin it!
She… ruined it…
YES, SHE RUINED IT! It's all her fault!
"Which picture was it?" Alexia asked more calmly, and coldly.
"Remember the first day she came? And then after you took the picture Syaoran decided to try her out for the spotlight? The one 'before the rising'? That one. It was magical, most fabulous! The devilish glow, her innocent expression, an angel trapped within a guilty world of darkness, confused, unsure where to go…" Takashi sighed with a huge smile. "I'm not very good at describing things, but when you see that picture, and all these words you never thought you knew comes flying in! She deserved everything she's got! Syaoran said he's giving her a special raise plus a huge bonus. I tell you this pictures works better than drugs on boss!"
She took everything that you deserve.
She took everything that I deserve…
That picture, that bonus, that adoration from Syaoran, it was all suppose to go to you…
But she took it away from me…
Yes, she did… Sakura, her…
The girl who told me to call up Lynnet.
Which only led you to misery.
The girl who took all the credit I deserve…
Yes… Takashi is suppose to be complimenting you right now… the company should be going wild for you… not her…
Not her…
She gets everything, but still more…
Everything… she gets everything…
And you're left with nothing.
I'm left with nothing.
Alexia blew it then. The most dangerous side of her was let lose, and the real her was lost in oblivion, no longer have any control over her body. "Where is Sakura?" She asked harshly.
"Oh, she's still inside the meeting room, the rest of us left already but she's still there to collect our marketing report and all—"
But she was gone.
Like a whirlwind, a soulless moving corpse, Alexia shot past him and walked on boldly, feelinglessly towards the meeting room. Revenge.
Sakura…
She still couldn't believe that it turned out so well. Guess all those practices Tomoyo made her do when she was little really did pay off. She giggled and sorted through the data file. The main reason she asked permission to collect these things was to have a thorough look through them. She wasn't sure if Syaoran did this as a joke or something. But turns out it was not, and boy was she proud of herself. "Mmm… Tomoyo is going to be so happy when she hears this. After all, it was her who always thought I had the potential to go far in this career…" Sakura grabbed all the pieces of paper and got ready to head out.
Suddenly, the door opened.
"Oh, hi!"
Alexia walked in, her face expressionless.
"Hey Alexia! You missed it! Great news! We get the rest of the day off, plus a lunch—"
"I know." She replied coldly.
"Oh, that's awesome, man I couldn't believe that it was actually me—"
"Yes, you."
Sakura stopped. "Alexia?"
Alexia took a step forward, and something in her eyes told Sakura there was something wrong with her. "It's always about you isn't it… ALWAYS ABOUT YOU!" She shoved Sakura harshly backwards.
"Ah!" She let out a small cry as everything falls out of her arms. "Alexia! What's wrong with you?"
Alexia kicked the door shut. "It's was always you. You took everything away from me!" Slowly, step-by-step, she advanced on Sakura, as Sakura, step by step, backed up closer, and closer to the windows against the walls.
"You told me to call Lynnet, you said I would find happiness, and THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS! MY OWN MOTHER CALLED ME BACK TO TALK ABOUT YOU! SHE TOLD ME I WAS A GOLD DIGGER AND WOULD PAY ME IF ONLY I WOULD TALK TO YOU! IS THIS WHAT YOU WANT, HUH? MY OWN GODDAMN MOTHER EVEN CARES ABOUT YOU! SYAORAN CARES ABOUT YOU, THIS COMPANY DEPENDS ON YOU, MY OWN MOTHER CARES FOR YOU MORE THAN ME! WHY IS IT ALWAYS YOU?"
"Alexia… I don't know what you're talking about… Oh my God, what's wrong with you?"
"What's wrong with me? WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME? EVERYTHING'S WRONG WITH ME, THAT'S WHAT! YOU'LL NEVER UNDERSTAND BECAUSE YOU HAVEN'T EVER FELT THIS TYPE OF PAIN! TO BE HATED AND NEGLECTED AND HAVE EVERYTHING TAKEN AWAY REPEATEDLY BY THE SAME BITCH!"
Sakura shivered feeling the cold glass of the window on her back. There was nowhere else to run. Now what? What's going to happen to her? And what's wrong with Alexia? "Please understand…" Sakura pleaded. "If I have hurt you, it's not intended, I have not known—"
Alexia shot her hand forward, and for a brief, terrifying moment, she thought Alexia was going to beat her to death.
But she didn't. Alexia had something way more sickening planned.
She shoved open the glass windows and took another step forward. "Not purposely, huh. Who was the one who advised me to call Lynnet? Who was the one, that made me gather up my last guts left to make such a huge sacrifice? Who was the one that made me vulnerable? IT WAS YOU!" Alexia shouted, leaning upon Sakura.
Sakura felt her hair being blown in the wind, her back arched over the edge of the window. She peeked down and shivered. Three stories high up. She might survive, but most likely crippled for life, if not worse. "Please don't do anything to me… Please don't kill me…" She felt tears running down her face. What was wrong with her? Why is she like this all of a sudden? Had I really been that horrible? Sakura asked herself.
Alexia leaned down even more, and the pain of bending her backbone so much was hurting so horriblly that Sakura had almost considered jumping—at least during that brief moment when she's in the air, there will be no pain…
"I won't kill you…" She replied with malice. "No… then I'll be sent to jail, with a record… my life, IS RUINED ENOUGH BY YOU ALREADY! IF I GET A PERMANENT RECORD FOR KILLING YOU, IT'LL BE ANOTHER DISASTER ADDED ONTO MY SHOULDERS BECAUSE OFYOU!" She chuckled, though it was only a sound. The gesture didn't make it to her face, nor to her eyes. "No, I won't kill you… but that doesn't mean I don't wish for you to die."
Sakura felt the bottom of the window jabbing into her waist, and it hurts like hell. "I'm sorry… I apologize for everything… Just… leave me… please… You're really hurting me…"
"I'm hurting you, am I?" She taunted. "Good, good… do you know what I feel now? Just imagine, all that pain, except all deep inside you where no one recognizes, where no one sees therefore no one bothers to comfort you… I WISH YOU WOULD BURN IN HELL!"
The last words hit Sakura like a huge slap across the face. Burn in hell? She wishes me to burn in hell? Suddenly she knew what Alexia has been going through. The pain in her back didn't seem so much as the guilt in her heart felt. More tears came out of her eyes and for the first time, Sakura wondered why she was alive and who sent her.
"Think about it you bitch, you selfish, selfish bitch. Why are you in this world? What have you to contribute but pain to an already overwhelmed person, a lonely soul already broken… must you smash it even more? Think about, if you were gone, would anyone miss you? I doubt it. Would it even make a difference? No one would be sad, nothing would change… Syaoran's life will go on, your best friend's life will go on. She'll grow old with her loving husband, and when she's white she'll completely forget you… you'll be like a breeze… a soft, current… you'll last at the moment, but as soon as you're gone, no one will grieve… because once you're gone, everyone can breathe a little easier…"
Sakura wept silently. Finally, at last, Alexia won… she won in the end. Her words were beginning to sink in and it filled Sakura with empty dread. It was dreadful, at the same empty, because she wasn't sure if it matter, just as she said… nothing mattered… human race has been going on for billions of years and thousands of billions of peoples died… what different will she make? She's no Saint, she's not too special, there's nothing, special about her…
Everyone will breathe a little easier…
Am I really that horrible? Oh, yes… I am… I'm so horrible aren't I… and the whole time… I thought I was quite a nice girl… oh how wrong I was!
"Everyone can breathe a little easier…" Alexia repeated. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath, as if to prove her fact. "First you snatched Syaoran, my token to victory to get the love of Lynnet, to be recognized… then you took my spot… I was the top before… and now you came, they're all wooing over you… then you made me call Lynnet… someone whom I have not contacted for years, somehow as if you had dark magic, you pushed me to do so… leaving me like this… oh, if only you'd die… I would have Syaoran, in result of being recognized by Lynnet… and I wouldn't be calling her, and have her calling back only to let me know she wanted you… instead, she'd be crawling on her knees to me, begging me to still admit her as my mother…" Alexia finally took a step back and stood straight. "Go to hell… and let me breathe a little easier…"
Alexia left, but Sakura stay leaning halfway outside the window, exposed to air and gravity. Tears continue to fall, and she couldn't remember the last time she felt this wretched.
I hurt Alexia so much… I hurt Syaoran when I lied to him about having a boyfriend just to avoid him… God knows what Tomoyo really feel about me… whether or not she's really okay—as she pretends to be—about me insulting her boyfriend…
It was all harmless joke to Tomoyo… she had really tried to help Alexia… and she really didn't meant to lie to Syaoran… it was all the spur of the moment… but do they all feel that way?
"Let everyone breathe a little easier…"
Sakura somehow managed to pull herself up, as she swayed like a rag doll from side to side, making her way to the door. "Let everyone breathe a little easier…"
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"Where's Sakura? It's almost lunch… she'd better be here soon, after all, this party is for her!" Syaoran complained tapping his foot impatiently.
Toria checked her watch. "That girl. So irresponsible. If she doesn't come soon, I swear, I'm leaving her behind."
"Go ahead, but you don't have reservations, so you can leave anytime you want to." Nakuru winked at her as Toria grumbled.
"Boss! Boss!" Someone ran towards Syaoran at ultra speed and almost crashed into him.
"Whoa! What's going on here? I never knew you were this excited about lunch!" He joked.
But the man's face was very serious, and even a bit panicky. "This is bad, serious, no room for jokes! Really!"
"What's wrong?" Nakuru asked.
"Some girl, some person, they're up there, they're up at the very top of the roof of the building!"
Syaoran raised his eyebrow. "How'd they get there?"
"That's not the point! I think she's about to commit suicide!"
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Alexia settled in a dark tiny office and held her head. She could not remember a single detail that's happened. One minute she was miserable… she remember the call exchanged between her and Lynnet… then Sakura was there… Sakura was crying… and she found herself here.
Alexia groaned into her hands. The other has finally taken over her again… for the second time in her life… as hard as she tried to resist it was no use… she was in too much of a vulnerable situation…
"Oh, what did I do?" She hated this feeling—always. To know she did something and will be blamed when she really had no control over her body during that time. "What happened?"
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"WHAT?" Syaoran cried. "WHO THE HELL IS IT?"
"I don't know! Some girl!"
"Let's go!"
Syaoran rushed up the stairs with Toria and Nakuru trailing behind. A crowd of people stood at the bottom of the building; looking up, ready to catch her if necessary. However Syaoran ran straight to the door that led to the rooftop, and shoved the door open.
"Sakura…" He muttered disbelief. "WHAT ARE YOU DOING? IF YOU THINK THIS IS FUNNY—"
Sakura turned around and her face was almost gray, and her legs were dangling in air. She held up her hand. "Don't come any closer to me."
Syaoran froze in his tracks and took a step back, even.
"What is the meaning of this, Sakura?" Toria demanded.
"ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND GIRL? YOU'RE THE PERSON I'D LEAST EXPECT TO BE THINKING ABOUT SOMETHING LIKE THIS!" Nakuru cried.
Sakura only closed her eyes. "To breathe a little easier… wouldn't you want to breathe a little easier, all of you?"
"Hell yeah! But dying isn't the way to breathe, dying is the way to—"
Sakura shook her head gently. "I'm not talking about me… I can breathe just fine… because the whole time I'd been so blind… I'm here, for the rest of you to breathe easier… you all deserve freedom… It is I, taking this away from you…"
"Ok, who the hell told you trash like this? Because I know no way in hell this just came to you out of nowhere. Tell me dammit, who the hell fed you all that B.S. crap?"
"No names will be mentioned. She was right… I finally admit… I bow at her feet and admit her words… she's right… I cause too much pain… you'll all finally let out the breath you've been holding after I am gone… I am not scared… really… she convinced me… I am of no importance to the world."
"So it's a she, huh." Syaoran bit out icily. "I'm going to find out and give her a hell of a time if it's the last thing I do…"
"No, don't go… at least let me see you one last time…" Sakura moved closer to the edge. "The breeze today is oh-so-warm… it'll feel so good flying through it… even if it's only for a moment… it'll be a memory to treasure… I will be free… all my guilt will fly away…"
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"SOMEONE'S COMMITTING SUICIDE! EVERYBODY HELP! SOMEONE'S COMMITTING SUICIDE!"
Alexia stared in curiosity at the voice. Who's committing suicide?
She stood up from the chair and walked out the room. Looking up from the window to the rooftop, she could see a girl with brown hair sitting on the edge. Then suddenly, a jolt of pain went through her head….
There was Sakura, leaning like death against the window of the meeting room… then her… she said something…
Let me breathe a little easier…
"Oh no…" Alexia cried with wide eyes as she rushed up the stairs.
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"DAMMIT STOP TALKING LIKE THIS! THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG WITH YOU TODAY! LISTEN TO ME! JUST COME DOWN RIGHT NOW, AND THINK IT OVER FOR JUST A DAY… I PROMISE, TOMORROW, YOU'LL BE FINE, AND REALIZE WHAT A STUPID THING YOU'RE DOING RIGHT NOW! UNDERSTAND, SAKURA, PEOPLE TEND TO GET OVER EMOTIONAL WHEN THEY'VE JUST EXPERIENCED SOMETHING! ALL YOU NEED IS TIME!"
"Time, to fly…" Sakura muttered with her eyes still closed.
"OOOO… I'M GOING TO GET THAT PERSON! GODDAMMIT WHO DID THIS TO YOU?"
"I told you already, I will not sa—"
"I did!" A bold, feminine voice declared.
Syaoran spun around. "ALEXIA!"
"YOU!" Toria accused.
"I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'D STOOP SO LOW!" Nakuru screamed.
"Yes, it was me."
Syaoran had the strongest urge to slap her across the face. But instead, he calmed himself by putting his hands heavily on her lean shoulders. "WHY? WHY DID YOU PUT HER IN THIS STATE?"
Alexia didn't say anything. She simply removed Syaoran's hands from her shoulder and walked forward. Things are always easier when you have full control of your body and are aware of your surrounding.
"Alexia, don't come any closer to me…" Sakura warned.
But Alexia didn't listen, she continued on.
"WHAT ARE YOU CRAZY?" Toria shouted. "IF SHE JUMPS RIGHT NOW I'M SHOVING YOU RIGHT OFF THE ROOF DIRECTLY AFTER HER!"
Alexia continued to walk, until she was within arm length with Sakura.
However she didn't touch Sakura or anything, she began to speak, calmly now. "Listen to me, Sakura. I know this is my fault, although I'm not really sure why…"
"No, it's not your fault, you were right… you just helped me realize the ugly truth… which is might as well… I'm sick of living in a lie…"
"No, Sakura, listen to me. I would explain this to you if I could, but it's more complicated than you can imagine and even I barely get it… what I did to you today, it wasn't me… I was possessed… I don't know how else to put this, but there's another being inside, a true Devil, something let loose when I'm most vulnerable… The me you see right now, the weak me, that's the real me… the bitchy me, the cocky no-shamed me you met before… that was the form that had kept me alive all this time, that had kept the Devil away from me… because the bitchy me is sort of like a disguise. When I am that way, I have half control over my body, which isn't good, but at least I'm not vulnerable, not giving the Devil a chance to escape… But I'm not sure what happened. After that shocking declaration from Lynnet—I'm not sure how much I told you about her—"
"She's your mom."
"Oh." Alexia blinked. "Yes, yes, she is… after her calling to tell me she does not believe anything I've said, somehow I just lost it… already a voice was working inside of me, telling me if you hadn't told me to call Lynnet I wouldn't be in that situation… I tried to resist it as much as possible… but then Takashi comes along and tells me you've just broken my record and took all my fame… somehow I lost it then…
"What happened after that I do not remember. However I do wish that you would forgive me because whatever I've done was not in my will. Please don't do anything rash."
Sakura looked down at the far away concrete ground, then at the clouds, and the invisible heaven that's beyond. "You just told me… if I hadn't told you to make that call you wouldn't be so heartrending… it was my fault after all… you just told me… Let me breathe a little easier…" she said, quoting Alexia.
Alexia nodded. "That's one part I do remember." She took a step forward, as if she was realizing something. "I do remember saying that to you… I'm not sure what was to follow, but this is what I have to tell you now. Your presence enables us to breathe a little easier… It is that simple." She took another step forward.
"Do you mean it?"
"Yes, Sakura… I have no idea what I've said to you but I'm terribly sorry…" Another step.
"I do not completely understand you, but I know you certainly are a very persistent person, no matter which personality you're in…" Sakura smiled a tiny bit.
But Alexia looked distracted. "People only commit suicide when they're sad, right? When they feel there is nothing to live for… when they feel that they're shattering other's people's life with their presence…"
"Yes…"
"And that's not you…" Alexia bent her knees and sat down beside Sakura on the edge of the roof. "People care for you, you do not make other people's life depressing…" A single tear came down her face.
"Alexia?"
"No… people like you shouldn't die, people like you don't commit suicide… you're too good to the world to lose…"
"Th-thank you…"
"But do you know what kind of people should commit suicide?"
"You've explained… but I can't think of an example right now…"
"People, like, me."
Suddenly Sakura felt Alexia's hand yanking her backwards so that she fell sprawling across the safe center of the solid rooftop. She spun around in shock at Alexia only to see the girl spinning around and falling down the roof in a graceful backwards arch.
"ALEXIA!"
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Author's Note: I'm not really sure whether I should make her live or not… seriously… 'cause either way the ending's gonna be the same… well, the basic idea will be the same… I'll see… if you have a certain want, tell it to me, and I'll consider 'cause neither way matters to me.
Sorry for the late update, wasn't too inspired lately and plus I have 3 stories to juggle now instead of two.
I'll try to be faster for the next update…
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