"I'm fine..." Monica tried to hop to her room "Why the hell is it so damn hard to get to my room!" Monica yelled. She tried to hop a couple more times and put her foot down. She stepped on her foot and screamed. "OW!."
"Here sweetie I'll help you." Rachel said walking towards Monica.
"No! No... I .. I don't need your help. I got it." Monica hopped a little and decided it would be faster to take bigger hops. She took a big hop and fell to the ground.
Chandler saw Monica fall and ran over to her. "Oh my god honey are you ok?" He stroked her back.
Rachel watched Monica and Chandler and decided to leave them alone, so she turned around and walked down the stairs to leave the two alone. "Hey isn't someone supposed to be up here helping Monica so she doesn't fall!"
"Yea.." She whispered. He could see the tears rapidly falling down her cheeks even though her hair was covering her face.
"Honey I'm so sorry." He lightly kissed her cheek. "I know that you wanted me there.. I know you wanted me to pick you up I just... I lost track of time. I'm sorry sweetie."
She wrapped her arms around him and cried into his shirt. "You promised.."
"I know. I'm so sorry." He kissed the top of her head.
"What were you doing?"
"I was making a nursery... it was supposed to be a surprise so you know that I really do want a family. I'm ready." He felt Monica shaking in his arms even more. She was silently crying into his shirt. He felt the tears against his chest and stroked her hair. "Hey what's wrong..." He didn't get an answer. "Mon..."
"I don't want a family." She mumbled quietly.
"What was that sweetie?"
"I don't want a family." She mumbled a little louder.
"What?" Chandler said a little shocked at what he was hearing. "Since when?"
Monica slowly got up and wiped her tears. "You were right... we're not ready.. I mean we don't need kids.. we have each other.."
"Since when don't you want kids?"
Monica shrugged.
"Honey you love kids."
"We're too busy.."
"Mon..." He looked into her eyes and knew she was going to burst into tears any second. "You wanna go lay down?"
She slightly nodded.
He helped her up, knowing that she wouldn't want to be carried to her room, and helped her hop to the room. "I'm so sorry I wasn't there."
"It's ok." Monica said as she got into bed.
"I love you."
Monica smiled. "I love you."
He kissed the top of her head. "I'm gonna be downstairs. If you need me just scream my name."
"Ok." She nodded.
He smiled at her and kissed her head one more time and left the room.
Monica watched Chandler leave and turned over. It felt so good to lay in her own bed again. She sighed and closed her eyes.
Monica opened her eyes and looked around her. Everything was dark. She turned over and found Chandler peacefully sleeping beside her. She looked over at the clock and read the bright red numbers, 1:46. Monica wondered if she had slept all day. She looked back at Chandler. She quietly and gently pulled the comforter off and hopped onto the cool wood floor. She stood on one foot and hopped to the end of the bed. She gently put her other foot down hoping it wouldn't really hurt, but it did hurt. Maybe not as bad as earlier but it hurt. She could probably walk on it for a while. She decided to walk to the door so she wouldn't make noise and wake Chandler up. She was going to hop the rest of her way to the office. Monica began hobbling over to the door making a face. She finally reached the door and quietly opened it. Once she closed the door she looked at how far away the office was. "Aw man!" She said quietly to herself. She put her hand on the wall for support as she hopped over to the office. She stopped when she reached the first doorway and rested. She had to hop past 3 other doors and across the hall to get to her office. Monica sighed and hopped to the other side of the doorway and peaked into the room. It was the nursery that Chandler was building. She turned around and hopped inside. She looked around for the light switch and flipped the lights on. She squinted. It was really bright. The walls were a sky blue and there was furniture inside. Everything looked great. The only thing that seemed undone was the crib. Monica hopped over to a white chair and sat down. There was a light brown teddy bear sitting on the ottoman. She picked it up and hugged it. It was incredibly soft. She sat back and put her legs up on the ottoman and looked around. Chandler had spent a lot of time and effort on the room. She felt bad. She did want a family but she was scared. She sighed closed her eyes and hugged the bear even tighter.
"You know this room is supposed to be for babies to sleep in..."
Monica immediately opened her eyes and saw Chandler standing in the doorway. "What are you doing up?"
"Bout to ask the same question."
"I couldn't sleep.. I mean I slept all day."
Chandler walked over to Monica and sat on the ottoman. "I heard the door close and I followed you and saw you came in here."
"This room is amazing.."
Chandler smiled. "Thank you. So does change your mind about family?"
Monica shrugged. "I don't know."
"Sweetie.. I know you want a family... I know you want kids. You're meant to have kids."
"How do you know?"
"Because I do. Sweetie I'm sorry for what I said before about family. I really do want one. I want kids I want to be a father. I love you and I can't wait to see a little mixture of me and you. I know that your upset about the miscar..." His eyes widened when he realized what he was about to say. "going.." He said hoping he saved himself. He didn't want to mention anything about the miscarriage because he didn't know how to handle it. He was sad but it was probably killing Monica inside.
"You were going to say miscarriage."
"No.. no.. No. Miscargoing... you know when cars go the wrong way.. which you know the car behind you did.. go the wrong ..."
"You were going to say miscarriage. How did you know?"
"The doctor told me."
Tears swelled up in Monica's eyes but she quickly blinked them away. "When did he tell you?"
"He told me the night I got to the hospital."
"So you've known about this the whole time..."
"Yea.."
"You didn't say anything?" Monica's voice began to slowly fade away.
"I didn't know if I should. But sweetie that shouldn't stop us from having kids."
"What if we had a baby? And I was driving around with our baby in the car and that happened? Huh? How would you feel Chandler? We shouldn't have kids."
"Monica it will never happen again."
"You don't know that!"
"Yes I do. I do know that." Chandler took Monica's hands and kissed them both. "It will never happen again. I promise you that. You can't let this stand in the way of having a family.. something you've always wanted. "
Monica smiled. "You really want one don't you?"
"Yea.. I do." He smiled back.
"Not because of the miscarriage?"
"At first it was kind of about that. And as I sat there watching your beautiful face day after day wondering when you were going to wake up.. I thought about us having a family and how perfect it would be. It's scary.. but sounds so incredible."
Monica smiled. "I'd lean over right about now and kiss you but.. I can't really lean."
Chandler smiled, stood up and pecked her lips. "So.. you change your mind about the family thing?"
Monica nodded. "But not yet.. I want us to fix our marriage first... become.. husband and wife again... "
"Our marriage is fixed.."
"I want to wait a while.."
"Ok." He smiled.
"Why don't you go back to bed and help me over to the office so I can see what work I've missed these past couple of days."
"No you're not going to work. I'll go back to bed if you do."
"I'm not tired." She laughed.
"Neither am I." He smiled and kissed her head. "So did you file any charges for the miscarriage?"
Monica shrugged. "I don't know.. The doctor talked to the officer but I started to cry when he brought it up so he said that he would call about another meeting with him.
"I'm sorry you had to go through this."
"Me too..."
"You know I wasn't there at the hospital because I was here.. right?"
"Yea."
"Last night a guy I hired was helping me paint and umm.. well he was holding the tray and I was sitting on the floor painting the bottom because he was painting the ceiling and he spilt paint all over me. That's why I changed and had so much cologne on. I smelt like paint."
1 year later...
"This year has been a rough year for you." Diane Sawyer said looking at Chandler.
Chandler smiled and shook his head. "Yea.. yea it has been."
"You and your wife were separated for a while."
"Yea."
"While you were separated she was in that very famous car accident with the paparazzi."
Chandler nodded.
"What was your first thought when you heard about it?"
"Well first of all.. nobody called me. I had to find out from a friend. At first I thought it was a joke. I thought I was on Punk'd. I thought it was a sick joke. Because I had spoken to Monica a couple hours before and she was fine."
"Were you guys together when that happened?"
"No. We got back together after. I was so worried about her. I couldn't leave her side. I love her. I love Monica more then anything. She's... everything to me. It was definitely the toughest thing I've ever had to go through."
"One story said that you realized that you loved her after the accident."
"False. No.. No. I'm not going to give reasons to our split. But I knew I loved her. I knew I loved her. I know I love her. "
"How is she doing?"
Chandler smiled. "She's fantastic."
"Family." Diane smiled.
Chandler laughed.
"Everyone wants to know when that's gonna happen."
"Not for a while." Chandler smiled as he sipped his class of water.
"You want a family?"
"Of course. That's on the must do list...But it's not gonna happen right now."
"This movie Think Before you Speak... is there a message behind it?"
"Think about the title.. it's kind of all there. You don't want to say something stupid that you'll regret. "
"Have you ever said anything that you've regret?"
"Many."
"So you don't think before you speak?"
"Not usually.. But I mean.. I should." He laughed.
Chandler threw his keys on the table as he followed Monica into the kitchen. "They kept asking when we were gonna start a family."
"They always ask that question. Chandler by now you should be used to it."
"I know. Why did you have to leave me alone with the reporters?" He said as he walked over to Monica to hug her.
"It was your premiere honey." She smiled and kissed his cheek. "So what did you say to them?"
"I told them not yet." He said placing a hand on her stomach. "It's true... they don't really need to know for another 7 months. I mean we're not gonna have the baby tonight so we can't say we're starting a family tonight."
Monica smiled.
"You look beautiful tonight." Chandler smiled and kissed her.
"That's the millionth time you've told me that."
"I know but I want you to know that.. you look amazing."
Monica was wearing a pair of jeans, a low cut navy empire waste top and a blazer. "I look like this everyday."
"Well you look beautiful everyday."
"Well not for long. I'll be fat before you know it." She smiled and pulled out carton of ice cream out of the fridge.
Chandler took out 2 spoons and took Monica's hand leading her into the living room.
Monica sat down and took a spoon from Chandler.
"Uh.. you're welcome."
"Thank you." Monica smiled.
Chandler lay down and looked at Monica's stomach. "You're mommy is mean." He said kissing her stomach.
Monica slapped Chandler's head.
"Hey!" He said looking at her face.
"Don't tell our baby I'm mean." Monica smiled. "Sweetie you're daddy is crazy."
"Your mommy doesn't say her please and thank you's! "
Monica put a spoonful of ice cream into her mouth.
"Mon.." Chandler said putting his head on her lap.
"Hmm.."
"Mon."
"What?"
"See your mommy talks with her mouthful too.. not good." He whispered to Monica's stomach with a smile.
Monica giggled and scooped some ice cream onto the spoon and held it over Chandler's head.
"Now if mommy put that ice cream on my head she will be bad.. bad bad mommy!"
"Stop talking to my baby Bing."
"Make me." He smiled.
Monica slightly tilted the spoon.
"You're going to make a mess."
Monica tilted her spoon even more.
"I think I brought home the wrong mommy." He whispered before sitting up and putting his mouth over the spoon ."That's really good." He smiled and kissed her getting chocolate on her nose. "Now your mom has chocolate on her nose."
Monica laughed and put ice cream on Chandler's cheek. "Now your daddy has some on his cheek."
Chandler laughed and kissed her.
Thanks for the reviews! This should've been up Monday or Wednesday but everytime I wrote it my AOL would act stupid and it would all go away. heh. I wanted to get it up before I left for the weekend. But anyway I hope you liked this chapter. And I hope you liked this story. This was an incredibly long chapter but I didn't really want to seperate it and put it into 2 chapters. Please review this! Thank you so much for reading!