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Regret

Chapter 2 – Its Cal.

As Jordan arrived at the scene she met Seely. "Oh great its you."

"Good to see you again too Dr. Cavanaugh."

"What do you have for me?"

"Caucasian male, washed up on shore, no ID and several gunshot wounds. He was found by someone walking along the shore."

As Seely lifted the sheet, Jordan suddenly felt faint. She gasped as she stared down into the face of Cal. "Is everything okay Dr. Cavanaugh?"

"It's Cal."

"Who?"

"Woody's brother Cal."

"Woody as in Detective Hoyt, Woody?

"Yes," Jordan practically whimpered.

"Okay, well you shouldn't be doing this autopsy. Why don't you pass it off to one of your colleagues? Oh and Dr. Cavanaugh, maybe you should be the one to tell Detective Hoyt."

Jordan's head whipped around quickly. "Why me?"

"Because you 2 are close and it would be best hearing it from you then from someone at the precinct or the morgue."

Jordan knew Woody didn't want to see her but she also knew Seely was probably right. She sat in her office trying not to cry when Lily knocked on the door.

"Hey Jordan, Matt just told me what happened. Do you want to talk about it?"

Jordan shook her head. Talking about it was the last thing she wanted. She knew she couldn't let her guard down. She knew she couldn't be vulnerable. It hurt too much. She stared at her desk and then Lily reached out and touched her hand. "Jordan it might hurt a little less if you talk to someone. I know you are going through a lot right now, but Matt is right, Woody should hear this from you."

Jordan then looked up. Lily's face was soft and inviting. Jordan desperately wanted to talk to Lily and tell her everything but she knew she couldn't. Why burden Lily with her problems. "I don't think I am the best candidate."

"Are you kidding. You are probably the only person he could bear to hear this from."

"No trust me Lily I'm not."

"Nigel told me you didn't go see Woody again last night."

Jordan felt red, from anger, rush to her face. Dammit Nigel, I tell you one thing and you go running with your gossip to Lily. Jordan thought as she chose the right words to say.

"Lily it's complicated. Let's just say Woody is over me."

"I'm sure he's not over you. Maybe he's mad now but he is going through a lot. Jordan I saw him with you everyday. I think the man is in love with you."

Jordan couldn't hold it in any longer. "If he's in love with me, why would he throw me out of his hospital room and tell me to get out of his life? I shouldn't be the one bearing news that his baby brother just died."

"Oh Jordan, I'm so sorry. I had no idea."

"Don't worry about it."

"I know he hurt you but he still needs to hear this from someone close to him and no matter what he says you're the closest thing he has right now."

"Fine I'll go." Jordan felt a wave of emotion hit. She looked down at her file and Lily knew she was being dismissed.