How does it feel to suffer? How does it feel to be betrayed? How does it feel to wish you were dead so it could all be over? How does it feel to be the only person capable of saving the world? How does it feel to lose everything you love? How does it feel to hate someone? I don't mean like the way you hate your teacher when she fails you, or how you hate that kid who called you a freak in first grade. I mean to hate them with every fiber of your being. To be willing to risk everything just to cause them pain. I know that kind of hate. It's the kind of hate I feel for Voldemort, yeah I said his name, or the hate I feel for Snape. I know also what it feels like to love, the way I love my friends, Ron, Hermione, Luna and Neville, they will never let me go through this alone. Or the love I feel for Ginny, or at least I thought I felt. After Dumbledore died I honestly don't know how I feel about her. With all that's happened I know I can't love her, well not like that at least, if I love her she'll die. I worry for my friends all the time, for I know they'll probably die. I can see Ron, Hermione, Luna, Neville, and Ginny, yes Ginny, all laying facedown, and dead. We all live, we all die, that's what I tell myself every night so I can sleep with all the grief and pain I've been feeling. But we don't all die when we're only kids, and we don't all have to watch our friends and family die with us, and to suffer. We don't all have to live with the guilt, that if we had done something different they'd still be here. But I do!