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Regret

Chapter 8 – It's not your fault

As Seely walked out of the room, Jordan noticed Woody was crying. She leaned down close to him and wiped the tears away with her thumb. "It's all my fault Jordan, it's all my fault."

"Woody it's not your fault."

"Yes it is, I just told him to get out of here and out of my life. I should have had him escorted to the airport or taken care of him. I knew the mob was dangerous and I just threw him out. I killed my baby brother."

"You aren't responsible for his mistakes. You were taking care of him for too long. No one knew he was going to be killed by the mob. You thought you were doing the right thing. This isn't your fault Woody. It's not your fault."

Jordan's eyes were brimming with tears. She loved Woody so much and it hurt her in every way to watch him be so hurt. She held his hand tightly and let him cry.

Woody suddenly felt so alone. He loved Jordan too, but he couldn't let her care for him. It wasn't fair to her. She deserved a man who could be everything and protect her. He knew now he could never be that man. He felt so weak and felt there was nothing left for him too live for.

"Jordan, I need some time alone. Do you mind?"

"No Woody take whatever time you need. All you need to do is call and I'll be here for you. I love you Woody I really do."

Those words hit him so hard. He loved her so much and it hurt to hear those words because he knew he couldn't have her. He watched her leave and then just lay in his bed. He never felt more alone and scared. He didn't feel like continuing to live. He felt there was nothing to live for.

Jordan left the room. She felt like she had finally connected with him. However, now she was mad. As she walked out to the parking lot, she saw Seely. She hated him, she walked towards him and with her most menacing voice, spoke to him. "You are the most insensitive jerk I have ever met. Why don't you just accuse him of murdering his brother, hmm? What, you don't think he has enough on his plate?"

"I was just doing my job Jordan."

"No, Seely doing your job would be finding out who killed Cal and then arresting them, not harassing his grieving brother."

"Jordan I am not one of your little friends that just does whatever you want. You aren't a cop and if I find out Woody hid the evidence of his brothers phone call, he's going to have a lot more on his plate."

"He is in the hospital, what is wrong with you?"

"I'm a cop Jordan, I'm not paid to care, I am paid to find the truth."

With that he got in his car and slammed the door. Jordan had to hold everything back not to hit him. She could feel hot tears of anger trying to escape from her eyes. She walked to her car and sped out of the parking lot. She had to do some damage control.

When she arrived at the morgue she went in through the back where they usually bring in the bodies and ran towards her office. "Nigel, can I see you for a minute?"

Nigel and Jordan went into Jordan's office.

"What is it luv? If Seely or Slokum find out we're socializing it could have large repercussions."

"I need to know everything from the autopsy."

"Jordan, I can't give you that information because they think you are holding back information."

"Nigel, I just want to know what you found."

"Jordan, what really happened here?"

"Nigel, I don't have time to discuss this, please I am begging you to tell me everything you know."

"Jordan, I… I… just can't, not with Slokum."

"Thanks anyway Nige, I have somewhere to be."

"Jordan, if you need to tell me something, then tell me. You can trust me."

"Trust Nigel, like when I trusted you earlier and you tricked me into coming to the morgue so you could try to force information about Cal out of me. Nigel, I think the trust I had for you has dissipated at the moment."

"Jordan…"

Jordan ran out of the room. She knew she had to find Sydney.

"Sydney, I need to speak with you. It is very important."

"Alright Jordan."

They made sure they were alone.

"I need a favour."

"Oh god, nothing ever starts with I need a favour. Haven't you almost gotten people fired because you needed a favour?"

"I know that you know, Woody saw the phone numbers. All I need you to say is I saw the phone numbers and I am the one that discovered Cal was speaking with Albie."

"Jordan, do you know what kind of trouble you could be in."

"Woody, has been in a lot of trouble for me. I think it is the least I could do to pay him back."

"Jordan, I don't know if I can lie like this. This is very serious, its like hiding evidence. I could get in trouble for this."

"From who, you, me and Woody are the only ones that know it was Woody and not me who saw the phone records. Please just tell people I was the one who saw the records, saw Cal's number and let Cal go free. I want them to think Woody had nothing to do with it. He's going through to much right now, and I owe this too him."

"Alright fine, I'll do it."

Jordan walked out of the room smiling between the new forming tears. She then wandered out to her car to go to the precinct. She was ready to tell Seely her idea of the truth.