Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter, if I did I wouldn't be writing fanfiction (but I can always dream can't I?)

Oh my God I read the Half-Blood Prince yesterday. I can't believe what happened.

Yes I know lots of people will be doing this but this is my take.

Loss

I have felt loss once more,

A jagged knife tearing into my already fragile heart

I almost wish I couldn't feel,

I want to be numb.

Why did you do it?

In that split second you froze me,

You condemned yourself to death.

You were important, you could have survived,

Yet you sacrificed yourself for me,

Like so many others have done before.

You protected me since before I can remember,

Watched me from afar

And guided me through life

You were more than just a mere mentor and a friend,

You were like a grandfather to me.

Would you want me to push people away?

Like I have done with Ginny?

Nobody else should get hurt,

I know that you wouldn't want me to,

And if I stop loving then Tom has already won.

But I am not willing to take that chance with those that I love.

All I ever wanted was a normal life

And I know that you tried to give me it,

And for that I thank you.

But I have never had that life I crave.

I have been both ridiculed

And praised in the wizarding world

And abused in the muggle world.

I pray that it's over soon,

And I intend to end it.

But I don't know how long my love,

And my sanity can hold out.

You taught me all you knew about the enemy,

How he grew up and why he became what he is today.

It is a weapon that you have given me,

And I will not rest until Tom is dead,

And I avenge your murder.

It's my responsibility, I am the chosen one

The prophesised one

But you were the beacon of hope,

Leader of the light.

I will never be you,

I don't want to replace you,

No, that would be an insult to your memory.

But I know that people will want me to take your place,

Walk in your shoes,

But I will never live up to their expectations.

Did you know what would happen that night?

That you would not survive?

And did you know that your trusted spy was a traitor

Or did you order him to do anything in his power

To maintain his position.

Did you trust too much?

Was that your greatest weakness?

Or did you know exactly what you were doing?

Farewell Albus Dumbledore

You will be missed always,

And there is no Hogwarts without you.