Hey there! My name is Aoi and this is my first SK fic! You can also consider this as my 1st fic!
Before you start, the song "Find the Way" from Gundam Seed will be used here, so if you can, please try to search and download it. If you already have the song or you know its tune, then good for you! I tried to upload it so it'll be easier for you guys to find it, but the yahoo briefcase won't let me! Dang it! I'm sooo sorry!
Disclaimer: oh yeah! I don't own the SK characters.
A favor, please try to feel what Horo feels. Off you go readin, then!
Chapter 1... Devastation
The day was about to end as dusk slowly drained out the sparkles of daylight in the streets. The luminescence was replaced by the sudden soft glow of the street lamps.
The night was slowly bringing happiness into the lit up streets. All seemed just fine and nice. People were happily strolling down the sidewalk, and vehicles are still bustling through the road. The nighttime's pleasures never seem to fail in reaching each person's hearts, until one boy slowly walked through the groups of people.
Gazes from everywhere looked his way, as he stood out. One small aspect was his outfit. He was wearing a black headband, with distinct blue patterns which supported his hair. His hairstyle was spiked in numerous places, having an ice-blue color and a little bit of black hair below his headgear. When the night's radiance touches his locks, it seems as if they were fragile ice, stirring with the soft puffs of the breeze. His clothes had a symmetrical layout on it, which gives a clue to his origin, the North.
The greater aspect is that the tears from his face never cease from coming. No, it couldn't be called as crying, because it should've shown either anger or pain. His eyes are concave. Those 2 blue orbs were staring into oblivion, emptiness. His lips are slightly open, still not recovering from the aftershock, the memories that was just from earlier that day. Those memories brought and still are bringing torment to his soul.
His feet appear to have a mind of their own, taking him through a usual route.
After a few minutes, he arrived at 'his' destination, his home.
The house is a modest one, having two floors and a fair space. Silence greeted him as he entered the front lawn through the gate, with the cold wind blowing across the grass, then to his numb face. Soft luminosity is being emitted from the house, accompanied by sudden voices from time to time.
The Ainu suddenly stopped in the middle of the concrete that led to the door. He was having a hard time in finding the energy within himself to proceed.
A few minutes passed by, and he finally advanced, each step an agonizing one.
His devastated heart proved to be of no help, as it was the source of all his misery at this time. The tears have stopped now, but it doesn't mean that the memories ended in haunting him. He turned the knob and pushed the door open, and was welcomed by a half-annoyed and half-relieved Pirika.
"Onii-san! Ittai doko wa ikimashita desu ka? Mou…Tonikaku, okari nasai!(1)" She ended it with a warm smile.
"Ta..tada..tadaima(2)", Horo's usually energetic voice came out as an extremely hoarse one. He progressed upstairs, to his room. The boy didn't even notice that dinner, one of his favorite times of the day, was waiting for him inside the dining room. He didn't even notice Pirika.
The small hallway of the 2nd floor created soft sounds as Horo passed through them. He came to a stop, halting in front of his bedroom door. Different shades of blue and dimness greeted him as he opened it. His boom box, his P.C., the furniture, the floor carpet, the window curtains, practically everything was from a dark blue - ice blue - sky blue color. Only moonlight that seeped through the window lit the room. His feet are moving by themselves again, taking him to the dark blue bed.
He slowly lay down on top of it on his stomach, head facing to his side, his soft, pale skin making contact with the smooth bed sheets. His cerulean eyes were still barely blinking, and didn't leave the empty space in the air that he was staring at for some time now.
He shifted his position so that he was facing the ceiling. Once more, tears start to dominate his eyes and cheeks unconsciously. The painful images of what had happened flashed by in his mind.
As his mind slowly relived the experience, his breathing increased in speed at the same pace. Each breath he draws is like that of a scythe's slash to his already tattered heart.
A few seconds later he was hyperventilating. His mind is still numb, and isn't realizing that the agony in his chest is rapidly increasing. The bed sheets are now wrinkled all over from his thrashing, his debate whether to choose life or death.
Inhaling, exhaling. When will these signs of life stop? Sweat starts to drip from his forehead, and trails down to his neck. Tossing, turning. No particular position could ease his ordeal. His eyes and silent screams aren't enough for his past to be told. His body arches up, accompanied by a long gasp.
He is at the brink of his sanity. He could feel death's embrace approaching his crumbled form. The trauma he had suffered is taking the best of him. One of his hands clutched his heaving torso tightly, while the other pounded the side of his bed, accidentally hitting the remote control of his stereo.
Music came out from the radio, caressing his ears.
(3)Doshite kimi wa, chiisa na te de, kizu wo seoou to suru no darou?
Dareka no tame dake janai, miushinawanaide
Doushite boku wa, mayoinagara, nigedasu koto dekinai no darou?
Nozomu no wa, hikari sasu hi wo hi wo
His breathing is steadily slowing down as the gentle melody continued.
Find the way kagayaku sora ni te wa todokanakutemo
Hibiku, ai dake tayori ni
Susunda michi no saki, hikari ga mitsukaru kara
You'll find the way…
Horo finally gained his minimal salvation as he drifted into an uneasy slumber.
I hope this counts as a cliffie!
Before I forget, the 1st 2 chapters are in the present time, and the 3rd chapter 'till I don't know, will be describing what had happened to him. After that, it will go back to the present time again and head towards from where he left off. Heheh. Here are the translations by the way.
1. "Where the heck/Where in the world did you go/have you been? Mou…(Mou is an expression of annoyance) Anyway, welcome back!"
2. "I…I…I'm home/back."
3. Why do you, with your small hands,
try to carry all these wounds on your back?
It isn't for any one person's sake, please don't lose sight of that
Why am I, while hesitating,
unable to escape?
What I hope for is the sun, the sun to light the way
Find the way
Though in the glowing heavens our hands can't quite reach
We depend on only our resounding love
Because at the end of the path we've traveled we'll find the light
You'll find the way…
The translation, I got from anime lyrics.The lyrics? I listened to the song multiple times until I fully understood the 1st part until the chorus so I could claim the Japanese lyrics above as my own. Please be kind enough to review! Reviews are the only things that will fuel my inspiration at the moment. This is the 1st story I've posted on ff . net. I hope everyone will be nice!