"Well it's a lonely road that you have chosen
Morning comes
And you don't want to know me anymore
And it's a long time since your heart's been frozen
Morning comes
And you don't want to know me anymore
For a moment your eyes open and you know
All the things I ever wanted you to know
I don't know you and I don't want to
Till the moment your eyes open and you know
That's it's a lonely place that you have run to
Morning comes
And you don't want to know me anymore
And it's a lonely place that you will come to
Morning comes
And you don't want to know me anymore
For a moment your eyes open and you know
All the things I ever wanted you to know
I don't know you and I don't want to
Till the moment your eyes open and you know
For a moment your eyes open and you know
All the things I ever wanted you to know
I don't know you and I don't want to
Till the moment your eyes open and you know"
-Keane, "Your Eyes Open"
From the album "Hopes and Fears"
Author's note: It helps if you listen to this song as you read! ();
Sometimes I don't feel like we should stay together. I don't feel like I know him anymore. Ever since that day I found him digging in the garage. Ever since that day that Tohma was arrested. Nothing's been the same. I honestly wonder what Tohma is doing right now, rotting in prison, possibly going mad. My God, it's raining again. Maybe it never stopped raining since this morning. I don't know. I wouldn't know. I don't know everything else, why not this?
TICKTOCK. The second hand killed Yuki every time it moved. It told him how far he is from his old, sane self. And now it told him how far he was from Shuichi, how long it's been since he walked out of the door. Yuki didn't want to listen to Shuichi. Yuki was too stubborn. But that was his mindset before. It was past midnight. Yuki was too tired to do anything right now. His hardened eyes started tearing as he looked at the clock. He knew that if he smashed the clock, Shuichi would be angry, so he took it down and shoved it in a drawer. He tried to wipe the tears from his eyes, but it wouldn't stop. He gave up and ran to his room and cried himself to sleep.
His dreams were nightmares. But they had nothing to do with the murder of Yuki. Dreams of Shuichi, how beautiful it was in Disneyland, how great it was to be with him. Nightmares about what would happen if Shuichi left him. Great ravens coming across the planes, an angry face, foreboding graves. And then a loud alarm that marked Shuichi's leaving. RINGRINGRING!
Six O' clock. Yuki wondered why the hell he had set the alarm clock. In his sleepy daze, he had no idea how to turn it off, so he ripped it out of the socket and chucked it out the open window, letting it smash on the concrete driveway. In his sleepy head, the alarm clock was fine, because it could fly, just like a raven. Of course, the second he had went back to bed, he realized that this was reality, and he had just chucked his alarm clock out a second story window.
Much profuse swearing ensued, and thus Eiri Yuki was finally up.
Shuichi had stayed at Hiro's house for the night. Hiro couldn't turn down a teary face that cried "breakup." A storytelling happened, a cup of tea, and then Shuichi slept on the couch. And in the morning came hell.
"When you, when you forget your name
When old faces all look the same
Meet me in the morning when you wake up
Meet me in the morning then you'll wake up
I only I don't bend and break
I'll meet you on the other side
I'll meet you in the light
If only I don't suffocate
I'll meet you in the morning when you wake
Lovesick, bitter and hardened heart
Aching, waiting for life to start
Meet me in the morning when you wake up
Meet me in the morning then you'll wake up
If only I don't bend and break
I'll meet you on the other side
I'll meet you in the light
If only I don't suffocate
I'll meet you in the morning when you wake"
-Once again, Keane, who seem to symbolize this entire story. . .();
"Bend and Break," from their fabulous album, "Hopes and Fears."
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Yuki looked out the window, hoping to God that he'd see Shuichi. Eventually, he gave up; Shuichi wasn't much of a "go to" guy. Yuki smiled, said "crap," and put on his coat. Chances were that Shuichi was at Hiro's house. The plan was to go there and do whatever he could to get the best thing that Yuki ever had back.
That is, if nothing stopped him on his way.