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WARNING: It is (shuojo-ai) story. If you still want to read, I'll appreciate more.
Thanks for the reviewers.
A.N: AArrgghh! It's been too long for an update, it's because the gap from my exams, and after those series of exams I kinda forget the storyline, well even now I still forget what the original plot at the first time though. So, I'll just make up, any suggestion will be appreciated. Thank you.
WRITTEN: May 3rd 2005 (5 months after the last update... what the...)
LOG 4
"Huff... hufff..."
I keep running and running... people around me just kept looking at me just like I'm somewhat a robber of something.
But I won't care... I keep running... but why...
At last, I stop running, leaning to the wall in front of me still panting in a real exhaustion. I recall myself with what's happening...
"It's... Subaru..." Without my concerning, I let the words loose from me.
Yeah... I know for sure that it was her... Subaru within the Real World...
Still in my confusion, I sit leaning to the wall behind me, closing my eyes deeply.
Why.
why I'm running?
It really... doesn't make sense at all... After all of these happening, I finally met her again... Subaru... I stroke my palm to the ground floor, still confuse with my move... my own move.
Am I... really love her?
Is that... even possible?
I open my eyes, seeing the ceiling above me. The birds flying freely.
"Why can't I be like them?" I recall myself.
I want to be free... Yes, free from my own world I run to THE WORLD.
However, in searching for it... I'm trapped inside THE WORLD.
Now, after all of these finished... am I really be freed from those kinds?
Free like those birds, use my wings diving the vast sky.
Why I cannot be like them?
Why I always be bound in my problems?
Why I even want to give myself to those problems?
...No answer.
No one could answer that... I know it.
It's just me... I'm the one who's wrong.
I'm the one who drag me into these whole problem.
It was me... who entrapped myself to THE WORLD.
It was me... who starts the whole problems within THE WORLD.
And now... it also me... who loves... her... as a girl.
"Why?" I shouted to the vast sky.
Why... must I love a girl.
If I'm a real Tsukasa... a real boy... I can understand.
but why... why must I be a girl...
I weep my eyes from the tears... foolish me.
I stare the people walk through the road in front of me.
Those people... those happy souls.
Am I really cannot become one of them?
I stare at them... those people who flourish with happiness...
"Tsukasa?" a voice calling me.
A girl is there, in front of me.
"Are you really Tsukasa?" she ask me.
"..." I could barely talk... I just don't feel wanna.
"Hmm, you really the same as the first time we met," she said again.
"Mimiru..." the word loose from my tongue...
A.N: Well in the last update I said these are just like me myself... I'm a boy, but I like a girl which I really cannot reach. Maybe Ann's feeling is just like me. Really, how can I reach for her when the gap is so vast and has many obstacles... I really want to be strong, maybe just like Ann that I'll write soon... but who knows... can I really be as strong as her?
Ah, sorry about my babbling, thanks you in advance for reviewing after my long absence.