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A.N: I suppose this will be a really long update after all, well I really want to, seems sometimes I kinda tired to do it. And I hope the next installment won't be longer than 2 weeks...
WRITTEN: July 15th 2005
LOG 6
Tsukasa/Ann's Point of View:
"Mimiru..." somehow I speaks.
"Yes, what?" she asks me again.
"Why are you always kind to me?" I asks her.
"I mean it,... so many times you've been very kind to me.
Even you weren't mad at me when our first meeting I dumped you."
For a while Mimiru caught to her thought.
Strange... even I don't know why I asks her that.
Is it just I really want to know?
Or that I've longed those affections that I can't get from my family?
"Let's see..." she finally talks.
With that, she moves her gaze to me, smiling while her finger points at me.
"Somehow, I feel my brother in you..." she tells me with her smile.
"I mean, from the first time I see you as a boy-who-close-his-heart, I can sense the loneliness of your heart,
the sadness which drawn from your deep eyes... Yes, I truly thought that was my first impression of you."
Somehow the scene faded again to me... the day we firstly met each other...
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That time I just got up from my sleep which like forever. I got up in a sort of room... well it is the deepest part of a dungeon, I thought...
Along with me was my staff, lying nearby me. I got up with such a confusion, no answer can ever replenish my own unknowing...
And... at that time, we met...
"Oh, someone got here before me..." a voice from behind me, then I looked back.
"Nice to meet you. I'm Mimiru," she told me her screenname.
I was too shocked to reply... was it? I don't know, I just... don't want to reply back myself.
Somehow I just looked at her without saying a single thing.
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"What is it? Are you allright?" the question from Mimiru caught me back to the real world.
I got free from my own daydreaming about that day, gasping slowly as I look back at her.
Strangely... that was the same question she asked back then...
"What's gotten into you anyway?" she continues to ask me.
"... Nothing... just reminds me of our first meeting back then," I say.
"About that time? Oh well, it's such a memory, isn't it... Yes, my very first impression for you, someone that's so... lonely," she tells me.
Lonely... is that word describes me most? .
I don't know, maybe it is, maybe it isn't... I don't know.
Yet I don't wanna know anyway.
"It is really you isn't it?" she surprises me.
"What do you mean?"
"You always caught on your mind, thinking and always thinking... Well, I suggest you to be more open, will ya?"
... Open? Can I?
"CAN I?" I somehow stands, putting my hands to the table hard.
What do I do? What have I done? I just can't barely understand myself.
"I'm sorry... Does it startle you?" she asks me with guilty in her voice.
I stare at my hands as I lift them... What... What's gotten into me.
Is it just anger? Do I have reason to be angry... No... I don't have.
So then... what is it? Why must I burst into anger like this.
I... I...
"I... I..." I put my hands to hide my face... I think my tear has been swelling.
Somehow it resembles to my... my past which I want to bury... my past which I want to run away...
"Don't worry... You may drop your tears if you want..." Mimiru comforts me.
"Come now... unleash all your sadness... it's so hard... very hard if you always keep it yourself"
Mimiru keep me by my shoulder, then I cannot keep myself anymore.
I let out my cry... let loose my tears, I just want to let out all my pain...
The pain which I always keep it myself... keep within me.
"If you can't become my brother... you are still my little sister for me..." Mimiru says.
Mimiru hugs me tightly, as a sister cries on her older sister I am.
I want to let out my pain... I'm far too tired for that, too tired for my pain just within me alone...
A moment later, I feel so much lighter. Although not every my pains disperse, but I can say my burdens got lighter... Somehow I'm forgetting all my problems...
That until I see her...
"Subaru!" I let loose from Mimiru, shouting my best when I see her gasping, even it's so far I can see her tears on her face.
With that, she flees, using her walking chair she goes away from me...
"I... I... no don't go... SUBARU!"
end for HACK/PASSION, continued to HACK/AFFECTION.
A.N: Hmm... seems I'm getting off track for my title (Passion) huh? I'll return as soon as possible with the continuation in the name of HACK/AFFECTION. This time, I'll make it to finish... and hope I won't make a long absence again.
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