Chapter 5

Are you like me?

"Are you like me..are you ugly..We are dead, we are alone."

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Gaara slipped inside the large wooden doors and cautiously glanced around, emerald eyes finally locking on the back of a large black chair.

"Father."

"Gaara.."The chair swiveled to face him and Gaara was greeted with the stern face of his father."Im assuming you know why I asked you to come to my office."His eyes narrowed.

Gaara's face remained expressionless and he nodded once, eyes never straying from his father's face.

"So, where is he?"

"I was distracted, I had to return."Gaara replied.

Frowning, his father stared at him then his lips slowly curved into a predatory grin,"you were being lazy.You disobeyed me, Gaara.You'll recieve your punishment, then continue your mission."

"Father..Orochimaru.."

"SHUTUP!"He roared, standing and digging his fingers into the desk in front of him,"I said NOT TO RETURN UNTIL YOU HAD CAPTURED THAT SNAKE!"

Eyeing him calmly, Gaara replied,"As I said father, more important business needed tending to."

"My son,"The man ground out,"Have I ever asked for you to use your own judgement?No, I have not.Your mission ALWAYS comes first.I hope you took care of this 'important business' because your leaving now.But first, on your knees."

"No."Gaara hissed."And if you come near me, dear father, I will not hesitate to slit your throat."

"Ah, you forget that I have your goard."

His son laughed, then smirked, revealing his fangs,"I don't need that stupid goard to kill you.Besides, my sand still obeys me whether I have the goard or not."Sand swirled around his outstretched fingertips and stretched in a bladelike shape towards his father."I will bring you Orochimaru, but on my own time.Don't ever threaghten me again.I have a reason now to cease this stupid 'agreement.'No more rape, no more abuse, and you can keep the fucking goard..If you need me, I'll be in my room."Gaara growled, sand slowly slinking back to him to wrap in a rope-like form around his arm as he walked from the room, father staring at his back with hate in his eyes.

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Gaara took a deep breath and shut the door behind him, leaning heavily back against it and digging his palms into his eyes.

He jumped when a voice called him back from his memories."Naruto?"His red head jerked up to stare at the other shinobi.

"What's wrong Gaara?"Lilith demanded in a commanding voice, hand on her small hips as she stared up at him.

Naruto stood a little ways behind him, looking at him with wide pleading eyes before he returned to staring at the ground.

-What's wrong with Naruto?..-"What are you doing here Lilith?"He put a tanned hand in his sisters short red hair.

"I found mom wandering in the halls and he was looking for you.So we waited for you."She eyed him carefully for injury, then glanced over her shoulder at the uncomfortable blonde before stepping aside so Gaara could take him in.

"Mom?"

His little sister giggled, eyes sparkling,"Naruto said he would be my mommy now.So does that mean Gaara is my new daddy?"She asked innocently, though her eyes were filled with mischief.

Gaara eyed her, eye twitching,"Lilith, you-"

"Gaara.."Naruto murmured.

Sighing, Gaara relaxed and slipped a hand into his pocket, staring at the downturned blonde head."Yes?"

Wincing at Gaara's emotionless tone, sky blue eyes rose to stare into emerald green,"I didn't mean it to sound that way.."When Gaara still didn't respond, Naruto bit his lip,"I would like to be with you forever..but you have a life here.Missions outside of Sand.I don't know if I can follow you..or vice versa."

"Where are you going?"Gaara questioned, narrowing his eyes.

"Gaara."The blonde twitched in agitation,"I'm not planning on going anywhere right now.If you want me to leave..I will.."Naruto clenched his fists and met his lover's slightly angry look squarely.

Shakaku's holder was the first to break eye contact, craning his neck slightly to look at the door behind them.He strode past Naruto,"let's take this somewhere else."

Lilith looked between them with wide eyes, then sniffed, looking at the ground,"love never does last, does it?.."She quickly raised her head, hoping for Naruto to deny it.

The blonde silently tilted his head to stare down at her, a solemn expression gracing his face before he slowly closed his eyes, turning to follow Gaara.

Lilith clasped her trembling hands in front of herself and allowed her unruly hair to slip over her face, ignoring the sun that was shining in her eyes from the open window."If love doesn't last, then is that why mommy died? I wonder if daddy stopped loving her..before she died..and..Gaara won't love me anymore..if love doesn't last..and neither will Naru."The small redhead blinked rapidly, trying to stop the prickling sensation in the corners of her eyes."Lilith isn't a monster..she is my friend..and Lilith loves me..so..it must last..Everything will be alright.."Lilith wrapped pale arms around herself and smiled, green eyes momentarily flashing orange."Naruto and Gaara with be alright."
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Naruto shut the door behind himself and crossed his arms over his chest, leaning back against it and staring at Gaara's back."This is pathetic."

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"If you don't want me here, I'll leave."Naruto's eyes hardened(He is just like Sasuke, they can't forgive or forget, its just going to keep happening over and over again)."In fact, why don't I let myself out?Kyubi can find another mate just as soon as Shakaku.I don't need to listen to everything the demon inside me says, neither do you.Let's just pretend none of this ever happened."

"You are..truly ignorant..Naruto."Gaara whispered.

The blonde's shoulders tensed,"Don't call me ignorant."His eyes flashed red and he growled,"You!Do you know why I left Konoha??There's someone I love that I left behind!This same thing happened, we just don't get along.You're as cold and emotionless as that Sasuke bastard!"

Gaara turned, eyes wide.There was stunned silence between them for a few moments.

"Sasuke, eh?I was wondering why his scent was all over you."Gaara spat, eyeing him."You plan to crawl back to him don't you?Just forget me.."Gaara clenched his teeth, teeth now grown into fangs.

"Gaara..you don't understand.There were too many things that led up to me leaving Konoha to be explained right now.But you can be sure..Im not going back to Konoha..ever.Im not 'just going to forget about you.'Idiot.We've been together, what, a day?This is ridiculous!We sound like a fucking married couple!Which technically..we're susposed to be mates..but..Im starting to doubt that.There are others in surrounding villages who are demon holders.If you can claim you love me so quickly, and not mean it, maybe you should go and try to seduce one of them."Naruto glared.

Gaara fought to control the trembling and emotions,"just leave.Leave me."

The blonde opened his mouth, then made a dismissive sound before yanking open the door, stalking out and letting the aftermath of his surge of chakra shut the door.

His lover sank to his knees, staring down at his hands where the bloody bruises from his nails began to well and flow down his fingers to pool on the floor."Naru...to.."A tan hand covered the aching chest where his heart jumped and beat too quickly.A tear mixed with the blood on the floor, followed by another."I wanted you to love me..why can't..anyone love me.."Heart-wrenching sobs echoed through the room where a broken being shed his tears, no one to comfort him.

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-That was beyond stupid.-Kyubi hissed.

'You...don't interfere.I've had it with you, everything you tell me...you just keep on making it worse and worse.You're part of the problem.Just..go away..'Naruto quickly built wall upon wall in his mind to block out the Kyubi.He strode through the village, attracting many curious stares, and hostile glares.A few sand nins stopped in the street and gripped their leg pouches, ready to draw their kunai.

Naruto turned to them with black dilated pupils swimming in red, causing them to think twice.

'I don't need anyone.Never again.'

Soon he was walking across the dunes, using his chakra to partly dim the suns intense light and heat.Naruto didn't think about where he was going, because he no longer had anywhere to go.No destination, no purpose, no friends, no lovers..nothing and no one.

He remember what Haku said that one day on the bridge,'No..I had to believe it..its the hardest thing..to know you're not needed.'

"But I'm not as weak as you..Haku.I'm not going to let this break me.I'll keep clinging to life, even if its through bitterness and fear."Naruto smirked.

He had become all the people he had rejected.The old Sasuke and the old Gaara, combined to form a powerful being of hate and bloodlust.

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And I don't remember the song title or the lyrics I quoted above..it just popped into my head..and this chapter moved way too fast, Im sorry.Like I said, more angst.I got pissed at myself though..Gaara/naruto is my favourite pairing..and I just broke them up..dont worry..something will happen..