Chapter 6

"Lily, Lils get up?" A hand shook me roughly out of my sleep.

"Wha-what?"

"It's me Caitlyn. Get up its twelve."

"Why are you getting me up at midnight?"

"No silly. It's noon."

"Noon? Why didn't you tell me?" I was up out of bed like a shot, just to come crashing down as all the blood rushed to my head. The sun blinded me and I lay in the bed looking up to the ceiling as all the events of last night came rushing back. I closed my eyes and smiled. Then I slowly sat up to find Caitlyn looking curiously at me from the foot of the bed.

"What happened last night? You got back too late and I was already asleep. Did you come back at all? Or did you sneaks in when I was sleep early in the morning?"

"Caitlyn!" I said exasperatedly. "What are implying?"

"Well you have to think logically." AHG! Caitlyn and her logic.

"Nothing happened. I kissed him, he kissed back."

"Well that is something. So what did you talk about?"

"You know we didn't really talk at all."

"What do you mean?"

"Well for all the logic do you think you can get an idea?"

"God, Lils just tell me."

"Okay, okay, Caitlyn relax, I'll tell you." You know what I said about Caitlyn always being calm, cool and collected? Yeah well right know I am really not sure that that is true. The roles have seemed to switch. I never knew that she was so interested in my personal life. And maybe before I would be more comfortable telling her but there was just something about James that just made me want to keep him secret. But Caitlyn was my best friend and if I couldn't trust her well then I couldn't trust anybody.

"Sorry, continue."

"Well the whole time before the kiss I could tell that he was nervous as to what I was going to say. And I of course never knowing what to say just added his panic." I saw Caitlyn nodding after about every word. "Well then I realized I couldn't let him go through that because of me so I just kind of kissed him. Then I told him that I loved him and he said he loved me too and I said I know."

"Lils, what happened to all the things you were going to say, and do you think that it was smart to say I know because I kind of shows that you are a bit overconfident?" There was Caitlyn always going by the book. She needs to realize that all the answers aren't in books.

"Those words didn't seem like they mattered anymore. I just let my heart speak through me. I guess. And when I said I know I meant that he didn't need to tell me I could just tell. You can see love if you look hard enough." I couldn't believe I was saying something like that. The roles really seemed to have changed, but hopefully not forever. I couldn't think of spending my whole life acting like Caitlyn. I guess that she felt the same way because she quickly gained a thoughtful look which was her trademark.

"So you are saying that love should be strong enough that you can just feel or see it radiating off someone?"

"Yeah." I said slowly I have never taught anyone much less Caitlyn anything at all. She normally had all the answers but I guess that she was factually and opinionly intelligent. She still had a lot to learn about emotions. And I guess I was going to help her learn.

"So are you saying that maybe instead of going by the book maybe you should let your heart do the talking?"

"Yes exactly what I was thinking." Caitlyn had this way to know what others were thinking with out having them say it aloud. She brightened up so quickly that I seriously thought I saw a light bulb go on in her head. In about a second after I answered I found myself tackled in a huge hug my face buried in her hair.

"Uh Cait," I managed to choke out. "I can't breath.'

Surprisingly she managed to hear me and she apologized profusely as she got off me and pulled me up to a sitting position. I seriously thought that all the bones in my body were broken. But when I saw how practically giddy she was I found it was all worth it.

"Uh Cait what was that for?"

She looked at me a blush rising in her face. "Well Remus and I have been dating for a while and I guess well I have always told Remus that I love him and he would always look at me hard as if he was trying to find something. Then he would tell me that he loved me too but he never seemed to really mean it. I was losing hope thinking that he might not really love me. Maybe he didn't really believe me. I mean I love you isn't really a phrase to waste. So maybe I need to show it to him, prove it you know. Maybe it would help."

"Cait, why didn't you tell me?"

"Well I-uh-I didn't really want to believe it. But maybe your advice will help. I can show him that I really love him and I'll look and try to see if he really does love me."

"Well I think that Christmas gift proved everything that needed to be proved."

"Yeah oh my god did you see that? It's so beautiful! I could barely control my tears."

"I know I could tell."

"And how about that bracelet? And the poem? And the rose?" We laughed so hard tears of mirth started falling from our eyes. Then we started talking about all the gifts, and about how Caitlyn thought that Sirius liked me. When she brought that up I just stared at her unbelieving, then we both cracked up. These were the best times, when we just laughed and had fun. I always hated the serious conversations and I liked that we ended up veering the subject from my evening with James.