A/N: I feel like I'm on a roll! I wanna write write write! Three updates in three days! I feel good (even if the chapters were really short). This one will be longer.

Inuyasha is a merciless assassin who can never satisfy his lust for blood. His life is full of lies, cheating, drugs, sex, and killing. And then he is hired to kill a girl who is different from all the others, and his bitterness is put to the test. Can she change him from the monster he is?

Chapter 9

"KILL HER! I'm watching you." The cold, angry voice was ringing in Inuyasha's ears, haunting him. Each time he heard the words "KILL HER," he felt as if someone were stabbing him repeatedly in the gut.

His eyes wandered over to Kagome, feeling her eyes on his. Both her large, brown eyes and his golden-brown ones were wide with shock, fright, and confusion. Yet there was something else in Kagome's. Hurt? Betrayal?

Inuyasha shook his head in horror and disbelief. He pressed two fingers on either hand on his temples and tried to take deep, calming breaths, attempting to calm himself enough to figure out what to tell Kagome. There was no doubt that she had heard those horrible words. "KILL HER!" The person on the other line had screamed them so loud, popping Inuyasha's eardrums and sending him rolling into a state of dizzy shock. Perhaps the speaker had intended for Kagome to hear. 'Yes,' Inuyasha thought. 'He wanted her to hear…'

He turned away from Kagome, avoiding her questioning gaze, and hurled into the water. He watched, sickened, as the contents of his stomach floated away with the rippling water of the brook. Then, Kagome was by his side, rubbing his hunched back as he continued to get sick two more times. She leaned down next to him, murmuring in his ear, kissing his neck, and holding his long silver hair back until he stood up again, splashed the cool water on his face, and wiped his mouth with the back of his hand.

"Kagome…" he whispered, softly, the love in his voice wrapping around her and pulling her close to him. She pressed her body against his, lightly, her hands on his chest as she looked up into his eyes. She was searching, Inuyasha could tell. Searching for answers, for any sign that Inuyasha was hiding something from her. He shielded his emotions without even trying, after years of doing so. She turned away from him and looked down.

"Sit down, Kagome," Inuyasha ordered softly. He took her arms gently and brought her down to the mossy ground beside him. "I want to tell you… everything."

She looked up at him jerkily, her eyes suddenly hard, realizing that he was keeping something from her. But at the side of his sad expression, her gaze became understanding and she brought a hand up to brush a long, silver strand of hair out of his eyes. As she was doing so, he gripped her hand lightly in his and kissed it gently.

"My father was a horrible man, Kag. He did things to me and my mother that a lot of people could never imagine. He ran drug deals, assassinations, thefts, and other illegal participation. He owned more guns than I could keep track of, and had an almost sickly obsession with swords, blades, and other sharp objects of violence. He abused my mother and I. More so my mother. When I saw the bruises on your lovely body… I thought of the bruises that were painted all over my mother's body by my father's hand. He was a bit of a mobster, I guess. Him and his cronies would come home, drunk, from strip joints or a "job" of some sort, and they would all beat my mother. Sometimes I would cower in a corner, covering my eyes but peeking out between my fingers with a sick curiosity. Other times I tried to stop them, begged, and my father hated that. He was always telling my mother and I that we were weak. He made strength sound like you had to be a murderer or a mobster, and then you would be strong. My mother always said that my father was strong in a lot of ways, especially his pride, but that she thought I was even stronger for standing up to him to protect her. My father called that weakness. Other times when my father and his group were hurting my mother, my father would grab me out of the shadows and throw me down on the floor next to her while they hurt us both. Other times, he made me watch while they raped her. Kagome gasped horribly at this and her hand flew to her mouth. Inuyasha continued. "Other times, they forced me to hit her, too. I never did, but they would grab my arm and force me to hit her, their strength dragging my arm down onto her soft, bruised flesh, then back up, and then down again." Inuyasha paused for a breath and a pathetic sob escaped his lips, but then he continued. "The night I met you, my father and his friends went all the way. I watched them drag her from the house, kicked her, punching her, whipping her while she kicked and struggled against them. I chased them in vain while they dragged her to my father's black limo and threw her inside. Her blood left a dark red trail to the car door, then drenched the leather interior, and I remember getting sick all over the place while I tried to stop them, but then the took of in the car. I ran. I ran as fast as a toddler could with that much adrenaline in his body as a need to save his mother. Somehow I found them, standing over her blood-drenched body at the pier. And I went crazy. I screamed and fought and tried so hard to save her, but she was already dead when I found them. And then I killed my father."

'And you will die alone. Say hello to hell for me.' Inuyasha's own childish voice came floating back to him, trickling all over his body like the cold water of the brook, yet less refreshing.

"I remember I said 'Say hello to hell for me.'" Inuyasha laughed heartlessly, a sad, hollow laugh of pain. "I killed him and I killed all of his friends who had helped murder my mother. And then I cried and cried by her side, over her dead body until you came."

"I remember…" Kagome said softly, looking down. She leaned her head on Inuyasha's lap, took his had and kissed it twice, holding in to her soft lips in comfort.

"But what you wouldn't know is that despite the fact that I had murdered them in my mother's defense… when I look down at my hands, the hands that murder then all… I want to die. I want to kill myself. And then… for some reason I always used to see your face. I used to stay around, just so that maybe I could see you again, the only person who can ever understand me… because you were there. There for me. I drew a picture of you once… I think about four years ago. I drew a picture of what I thought you would look like then, older and more mature… not cute anymore, like a little child. Beautiful… like you are now." Kagome smiled gently. A happy smile, yet sad at the same time.

"I stayed with this kind old woman for a while… but I ran away before even a month had passed with her. I was changed now. A child can't go back to playing with little cars and crayons when he saw his mother die and killed four men."

He looked at Kagome's face now. Now was the moment that he had to say the most horrible thing he could say out loud. The one thing he never had said out loud. She looked curious and sad, but not angry with him. Not hateful. She looked loving.

"I was filled with an uncontrollable anger… a need for revenge at the world. Revenge at anyone who was happy, could lead a happy life. People who worried about things like the stock market. I wanted them all to die. I wanted to kill them. I…"

Kagome kissed his hand again in encouragement.

"I became an assassin."

The gentle look in her eyes vanished. Now it was replaced with fear. She shot out of his lap and stood up, backing away from him, shaking her head in horror and disbelief. She stumbled and fell backwards, then crawled away, her arms fumbling to carry her away from him, but he gripped her ankle. She screamed out, a yip-like, horrified shriek.

"I've killed more than just those four men, Kagome. I kill for money. To live. To release my anger. I've never loved. Never let myself. And then I was hired to kill… you…" She screamed, a bloodcurdling, horrified, deathly scream that made Inuyasha's blood run cold. He reached for her other ankle as she kicked and struggled to try to get away. "Listen Kagome! Listen! Listen to me! I can't do it! That's what I was talking about! I can't kill you… I…" his voice faded away as he saw that her fear was not diminishing. He let go of her ankles with a sob. And then the tears were flowing, harder than they ever had in his life. His shoulders were heaving as he gasped for breath. He didn't know how long it was that he sobbed, but he could feel Kagome's eyes, five feet away, burning into him. Then he viciously wiped his eyes and turned to look at her.

"I never planned on it… never thought It could happen. But you're different. I can't do it because… I fell in love with you. Maybe I have been in love with you since so many years ago at the docks. I think… maybe… maybe I have. I can't kill you… won't kill you… because I love you."

Her voice was softer, now. He could hear the love, still there. He took a deep, much needed breath. Her voice was softer when she spoke.

"How do I know you don't say this to everyone. How can I tell it's true? How can I tell you aren't lying, faking, acting… conning?" She asked, still scared but softening.

Inuyasha spoke, for the second time since he had told he loved her, directly from his heart, and from no where else. He mind couldn't even process what he was saying… his mouth was just speaking.

"Because I've never told anyone else that I loved them. Because I've never felt so real in my life. I've never kissed anyone like I just kissed you. And no one as ever made my stomach feel like God is pulling my skin tight. And because I've never looked into their eyes the way I look into yours and feel like I'm melting… melting… And because I love you… I just… love… you."

Kagome was silent, but her eyes never left Inuyasha's. Her eyes never looked away from his through his whole speech. Neither she nor he blinked once. And then she crawled over to him, slowly, taking his hands and placing them on her breasts as she leaned down and kissed him. The kiss started slowly, their mouths working at each others, and then Inuyasha's entire passion was unleashed. His hands were all over her, hers all over him, and his hands were running through her hair, and he was moaning into the kiss, and she was gasping, and the universe was exploding into a million tiny shards and fragments and then it was over. Suddenly. But they pulled away slowly and they were smiling and tears were streaming down Kagome's face and Inuyasha's face.

"You're telling me the truth…" Kagome said, all anger, fear, horror, disbelief, hatred gone. And everything was back in her eyes, in her voice, in her heart. She loved him. She believed him.

"I've never said one lie to you. Never. I love you. Hmmm." His voice was groggy, drunken sounding as his placed his hands on her lower back and pressed her body to his, both of them moaning softly. Inuyasha was sitting, Kagome kneeling, and she looked down at his, his chin resting gently on her breasts.

"I love you too." Kagome said, smiling the brightest smile she had ever in his presence. It was over. His past was erased, just like that. It didn't matter. He was changed. He was suddenly real again. Human. "This is real," she said.

"This is how it's supposed to feel…" Inuyasha replied, kissing her breasts lightly, though the bra still covered most of them. She sighed and pressed his head closer. And then the were falling, Kagome on top of Inuyasha, each of them smothering the other with kisses until the sun crawled down, down, down.

A/N: Silly lovers… it's not that easy… oh bad things are coming… heh heh heh… REVIEW AND YOU'LL FIND OUT JUST WHAT COMES NEXT! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!