"My Heart Will Go On"

Disclaimer:

Since I didn't seem to make it clear enough last time...I do not own "Untitled" or "My Heart Will Go On" (the song that is). "Untitled" belongs to Simple Plan and "My Heart Will Go On" (the song) belongs to Celine Dion.

The Service

Later that week, Kira, Krista, Trent, Ethan, and Hayley had all gathered at the church for Conner's funeral. Towards the end of the service, Kira took the microphone towards the front of the chapel as her black floor length halter top dress shone dully in the bright flourescent lights of the chapel. Stepping up to the mic, Kira cleared her throat as she addressed the congregation before her. "Hello. Um, for those who may or may not know me, my name's Kira Ford. Conner was one of my best friends. So is his girlfriend, Krista." Wiping a tear from her eye and sniffling slightly, Kira continued. "Just the other day, Krista informed me of Conner's favorite song and asked me if I'd perform it for you all here today. Of course, being the friend that I like to think I am...naturally I agreed. So, um, here it is. 'Untitled' by Simple Plan." As the organ behind her began to play, Kira prepared to sing.

"I open my eyes

I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light

I can't remember how

I can't remember why

I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain

And I can't make it go away

No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes

I've got no where to run

The night goes on

As I'm fading away

I'm sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming

I try to make a sound but no one hears me

I'm slipping off the edge

I'm hanging by a thread

I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered

And I can't explain what happened

And I can't erase the things that I've done

No I can't

How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes

I've got no where to run

The night goes on

As I'm fading away

I'm sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes

I've got no where to run

The night goes on

As I'm fading away

I'm sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me"

As Kira progressed through the song, the level of emotion in her voice rose with almost every lyric. Once she finished, she returned to her seat between Trent and Ethan as the pastor dismissed everyone for the burial. As they all climbed into Kira's yellow 2005 Mitsubishi Galant and Kira drove them down to the cemetary, the ride was completely silent. After the service, Hayley, Trent, Krista, and Ethan went home while Kira went back to the hospital to visit Tommy. Taking his once strong hand in hers, she no longer even tried to fight back the tears stinging her eyes. Staring down at his new marred state, Kira thought to herself Dr. Oliver has to make it! We need him! I need him! It was then that Kira came to an important discovery. What she felt for Tommy was more than friendship...she loved him. Finally unable to take the pain of seeing Tommy in this condition any longer, Kira decided to go home. That night, Kira found herself crying herself to sleep. More so now that she'd realized her true feelings for Tommy. Tonight she found herself wanting nothing more than to feel the security of Tommy's strong arms wrapped around her, holding her and never letting her go.

The next morning, Kira awoke early. After a quick shower and breakfast, she went back to the hospital to see Tommy-a habit she would find herself developing over the next several weeks. Arriving at Tommy's bedside, Kira wiped away several silent tears as she said "God, Dr. Oliver, if only you were here with us! We really need you! I need you!" Once again Kira took his hand in her own trembling hand. Watching as he seemed to be resting peacefully, she reached her hand out and gently stroked a strand of hair off his face and gently caressed his cold, pale cheek. Silently, Kira thought to herself Please...just let him be okay. Turning to leave, she stopped to look back one last time and then left.

On her way home, Kira stopped at the park. Grabbing her guitar and a yellow backpack out of the back of her car, she sought shelter from the sun's hot rays under a large oak tree. Taking a seat on the cool grass at the base of the trunk, she grabbed her guitar and retrieved a notebook and a pencil from her backpack. After tuning her guitar, Kira just let her emotions flow like an ever moving river.

"Every night in my dreams

I see you I feel you

That is how I know you go on

Far across the distance

And spaces between us

You have come to show you go on

Near, far, wherever you are

I believe that the heart does go on

Once more you open the door

And you're here in my heart

And my heart will go on and on

Love can touch us one time

And last for a lifetime

And never go till we're one

Love was when I loved you

One true time I hold to

In my life we'll always go on

Near, far, wherever you are

I believe that the heart does go on

Once more you open the door

And you're here in my heart

And my heart will go on and on

There is some love that will not

Go away

You're here, there's nothing I fear

And I know that my heart will go on

We'll stay forever this way

You are safe in my heart

And my heart will go on and on"

Just a few mere minutes later, Kira found she had successfully put all of her emotions down on paper. Enjoying the serenity the scenery around her surrounded her with, she decided to stick around a while longer. A few hours later, Kira noticed the sun going down in the distance as the air around her began to get gradually cooler. Seeing that is was getting late, she got back into her car and headed for home. Once home, she noticed that her parents weren't home-which was just fine with her as she'd wanted to be alone anyway. After a warm shower, she got ready for bed and after lying awake for about half an hour, Kira ended up thinking of Tommy and crying herself to sleep yet again.