A/N: Well let's see. I'm a little pissed off. One of my reviewers kinda made me mad. And maybe this person didn't mean to make me mad, but they did. So if you usually read my author notes, here is another one. And this one will be long. So sit back and enjoy the fucking ride.
First order of business: this reviewer said that I have a lot of grammatical errors in my chapters…
-Yeah this is something I know. I go back and I do reread my stories after I type them. Sometimes I get distracted and I skip over a word. Or maybe my mind was elsewhere and yeah I'm going to have grammatical errors. I'm sorry if people make mistakes. But lay off. I can take constructive criticism, but I think this person took it too far. -.- Every single story I read on here, always has a word misspelled or a few grammatical errors. It's common, okay?
Second order of business: some people say that a sentence in my chapter may not make a lot of sense…
-Okay so I'm going to only say this. When I say something or type something in my chapters, you can only take it the way you want to take it. So when I say something, it makes sense in the way I'm saying it, because well I wrote it, but it may not to you. And yeah I know that sometimes I make a mistake, but most of the time, it's just the way I say it. You may take it however you want to or whatever way you may think it sounds right, but we are completely different people and we think along different wavelengths. So that explains that.
Third order of business: another reviewer made a comment about the whole putting a different name instead of Kagome…
-Where the fuck do you come off saying I'm making a desperate attempt to throw myself in the story? Yeah I know that I made the mistake of putting Becky instead of Kagome but really. Yeah I know that I need to pay attention to that, so that I don't do it again, but really I have other things going on besides just writing this story. My parents are telling me to do this and that, I have a little sister (named Becky) always bugging/talking to me when I'm doing something (it could be anything), I'm sending messages through AIM and MSN online with my friends, and I could even be writing for another story at the same time. Forgive me for my mistakes. I will watch out for that and try and make sure that I don't do that again. I'm sorry for the inconvenience and confusion this may have caused, but I'm pretty sure you could figure out that Kagome was Becky…I mean really. There were like only two people in the scene…who else could it have been? -.- So I'm sorry if I don't focus 100 on the chapter I may be writing and that sometimes I skip over a word or sentence when I am rereading it, but I'm pretty sure you guys can handle one or two misspelled words. It ain't gonna kill ya. That I assure you…
Now…I think we can get on to the story. If anyone would like to be my editor or something please contact me. I'd appreciate it. And…thank you to all my reviewers. It means a lot.
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha.
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The A-List
Chapter Ten
Troubled Emotions
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Kagome sat in a chair at the dining room table, still clad in her pajamas, her feet tucked under her. She was eating half a grapefruit with a spoon and reading her newest copy of AP magazine. Sango was seated next to her, eating a bowl of Lucky Charms, while reading some book she picked up at the bookstore a week ago.
"Hey, Sango. There's going to be a Senses Fail concert in a couple of months. We should so go." Sango nodded absently, engrossed in her book and in her own world.
"Morning ladies." Miroku slid into the kitchen on the marble kitchen heated floor in his socks, over to the cupboards. Inuyasha rolled his eyes.
"Show off." He said gruffly as he took the box of Lucky Charms away from Sango and poured himself a bowl.
"Someone is not a morning person." Kagome said in a singsong voice, without looking up from her magazine.
"Shut up, and no one will get hurt." He muttered, spooning cereal into his mouth. Miroku snickered.
"Cardboard box must have been uncomfortable. Or were the newspapers not fluffed up to King Inu's liking?" Sango joined in. Inuyasha didn't say anything, just stopped eating his cereal so fast and solemnly pushed it around with his spoon. Kagome looked up when he didn't even say his trademark 'keh' and saw that obviously, something was bothering him. Sango and Miroku kept cracking jokes, until Kagome decided to step in.
"Okay, you two. Stop clowning around. What do we want to do today?" Inuyasha gave Kagome a thankful glance, not saying anything, and went back to eating his cereal. Usually he would stick up for himself, so something major had to be up with him.
"I say we just lay low for today. I'm tired of going out. And, we also have all the things we need to have a good day, right here in Kagome's humble abode." Miroku pointed out.
"Okay. Sounds good to me. I want to finish my books." Sango said absently
"Sango? Are you okay? You want to…read?" Miroku asked, as if it was something impossible.
"Shut up pervert." Sango said getting up from the table. She was about to take her bowl, but Kagome stopped her.
"No need. The maids will take care of it." Sango shrugged and picked up her book and walked out of the dining room. They all still weren't used to not doing things for themselves.
"Sango! Wait!" Miroku called out after her. Five seconds later, Kagome heard the infamous 'slap and pervert' and shook her head, after cringing. She turned towards Inuyasha and her smile turned gentle.
"What's up with the grouchy façade this fine morning?" she asked, setting her spoon down on her plate. She looked down at her arms, which were bare due to the fact that she was in a black tank top and black and gray flannel pajama bottoms.
"Wench."
"Cock face."
"Bitch."
"Fuckhead."
"Okay, stop." Kagome smiled pleasantly in her companion's direction.
"Going to talk to me now?" she asked. Inuyasha smirked.
"No, I just wanted to stop your annoying voice." Kagome scowled.
"Hater."
"I'm not a hater. I just love pissing you off." They sat in silence for a moment.
"So…what's actually wrong?"
"None of your business." He said getting up from the table. Kagome frowned and followed after him, magazine in hand.
"Look Inuyasha. You can talk to me." he didn't respond, just kept walking, because he was caught in his own thoughts. Kagome growled. Then she rolled up her magazine and hit him on the head.
"Ow, what the hell was that for?" Inuyasha growled back in the same manner and glared at her.
"For not talking to me. What is wrong with you?" she grabbed his arm and whipped him around to face her.
"Feh." He looked down and avoided her gaze, and she sighed heavily, giving up.
"Fine. Whatever. Talk to you later." She let go of him and walked down the hall to the elevator to go up to her room. Inuyasha sighed and looked after Kagome.
"Sorry." He murmured. And like a sad puppy he lowered his ears and headed up to his room.
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Kagome went to her room, but stopped by Inuyasha's. She stood outside the door and pressed her ear against the door to see if she could hear anything. He'd been in there all day, and she was a little worried. He hadn't talked much at breakfast, and when he came down around lunchtime to grab a sandwich, he didn't say anything to her.
As she listened, she realized that he was listening to his music, songs from The Blood Brothers (i effing love them!!!) blasting through his speaker system and vibrating every wall within a few feet. She idly wondered how he could withstand such great heights of music if his ears were that sensitive.
She ignored her last thought, shrugging it off as earplugs and shook her head, heading down the hall to one of the living rooms in the house. She was about to walk in when she heard two people talking, a young man and the other belonging to a young woman.
"I can't believe this is happening." Said the young man, obviously in distress.
"Well push harder and maybe something good with happen for you." She heard the girl say next.
"I'm doing it. Don't act like I'm not trying." He let out a groan.
"Come on, keep going. I've seen you in action. You can do a bit better." She giggled.
"I don't think you've seen me in action. I'm just warming up. You haven't seen anything yet. Just wait." Kagome decided that that was enough. She didn't need people doing the freak nasty on her family's Italian imported and very expensive leather couch. She pushed the door open a little further and walked in. she didn't expect to see who was there, or more specifically what those who's were doing.
"Sango? Miroku?" she asked in confusion. Then she looked at the T.V. screen in which they were looking at.
"Yes Kagome?" both teens turned to look at the girl in question with matching curious glances.
"What're you…I thought I heard…I mean…it sounded like…oh nevermind." She waved it off and saw that they, in all actuality they were playing a racing video game and the sounds she heard weren't even close to what she was thinking.
"Having dirty thoughts Kagome? Tsk tsk. Keep your mind out of the gutter." Miroku said with a hint of humor in his voice and Sango slapped him on the arm.
"Shut it, Miroku. Those are the thoughts that you want. Not things that will actually happen."
"Fine, Sango. Rain all over my parade." He rubbed his abused arm and turned towards the T.V. with a pout. Sango rolled her eyes, but when she looked back where Kagome was standing only moments ago, she seemed to have disappeared.
"Okay." She said quietly to herself and looked back in the same direction that Miroku was.
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Kagome went outside of Inuyasha's door, yet again, and knocked, though she doubted he would hear it.
"What?" he yelled over his music. He had turned it down considerably.
"It's me, Kagome. I-" she was cut short when the door swung open, the force causing wind, which blew the bangs in her face away, before settling back above her eyes.
"Hm?" he asked, softer this time, the music only seeming to be in the background. Kagome sighed at his faraway aura and turned to look at him with gentle eyes. "Why are you looking at me like that wench?" he asked, the faraway look now being masked with his attitude. Kagome frowned and grabbed his hand, making his shut his door, and do nothing else but follow her.
"We are going to talk, whether you like it or not, because I'm tired of you acting this way. It's not like my Inuyasha," she said softly and Inuyasha blushed at the fact that she put a "my" in front of his name.
"I don't really want to talk about anything," he stated simply, though he knew he was lying to himself and to Kagome.
"Please?" she stopped and looked up at him. Inuyasha averted his gaze and let out a soft "feh". Taking that as a yes, she smiled slightly and began to pull him towards one of the roofs, their favorite spot to be together.
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"What were you so eager to talk about?" he asked silently, sitting down against the concrete blockade that prevented him from falling to his doom. Kagome sat down next to him.
"You, actually. What's up with you lately?" she asked turning her head to him, but still leaning her head against the concrete railing.
"Nothing." He said simply and looked down at his hands.
"I don't want you to lie to me. Look me in the eyes and tell me that completely nothing is wrong."
"Fine." He stated smugly. He turned to her and looked her straight in the eyes, their noses barely touching. "Nothing is…nothing's…" he felt himself trailing off because her gaze was too intense. It was daring him to lie to her. "Fuck this shit." He turned his head away and reached into his pocket for a cigarette and a lighter. Before he had a chance to blink, it was gone from his lips and tossed off the roof.
"Fuck that shit."
"What the hell, Kagome. That was my last one. Now I have to buy a new pack."
"You were going to have to anyway weren't you? That desperate for addicting shit rolled in paper?" she asked angrily. She scoffed, not being able to look at him. He glared angrily for a moment, then realized that wasn't getting him anywhere, he turned his head upwards to look at the sky, the sun beginning to set.
"What do you want from me, Kagome?" he asked quietly.
"I want you to trust in me and feel like you can talk to me..."
"I do."
"No…you don't."
"Yes I do."
"Then tell me what's wrong." He was quiet. His thoughts were jumbled in his head and he tried to make sense of it all. He wanted to tell her so bad; for she was the only one he knew would understand. But he had a knack for not being able to express his feelings in the best way.
"It's a lot. There's too much to pinpoint one specific problem."
"Start from the beginning."
"Kikyo." Was the first word, or name rather, out of his mouth.
"And."
"I don't want to be with her anymore."
"Why?"
"I'm finding out things about her, that I don't particularly find attractive."
"Like?"
"She cheated on me, Gome."
"I know. I tried to tell you, but you wouldn't listen to me. Too blinded by the booty, I suppose." Both were quiet for a moment before they both busted out laughing, at how ridiculous what she said had sounded.
"No. It's not that." He said after the laughter died down.
"Then what?"
"I didn't want to feel that pain of being rejected. I knew she was cheating. I knew she was a lying little bitch, but I went for it anyway. I guess I just realized that not everything can be my way." He frowned and pulled a hackie-sack out of his pocket and threw it in the air. "I'm trying to quit Kagome, my smoking. I'm trying my hardest."
"I know. But pulling shit like that will put you back to square one." she said.
"No shit." She punched him and he grinned. Then he looked back down at her with an inquisitive eyebrow raised. "And you?"
"And me?" she looked up and had to control the blood from rushing to her cheeks at how incredibly cute he was in the moonlight and under a blanket of stars. His hair glowed with the essence of a god-like creature and his amber eyes burned with great amounts of intensity and intelligence. She found that they couldn't keep his feelings hidden well, like a book to his heart and a door to his soul. He had a boyish grin on his face and his ears twitched every now and then at random sounds, everything about him, made her want to just kiss him and be with him forever. 'Like that would happen,' she thought sadly. She bit her lip and looked down at her hands, pulling her knees to her chest.
"What's up with you?"
"N-nothing." She stuttered. Inuyasha blinked. 'She's uneasy about something. I can smell it. Why won't she tell me?' she felt her chin being raised with Inuyasha's hand and she blushed slightly.
"That won't work with me. You managed to wheedle my crap out of me, so what's going on with you?"
"Too much stuff."
"First thing that comes to mind."
"Kouga." Inuyasha growled lowly, but stopped, rolling his eyes.
"What about the little sh-"
"Inuyasha! He's not that bad."
"Yes he is."
"No-"
"Fine, just keep going. What about him?"
"I like him, but not really in the way I believe he likes me," it was true. The only reason Kagome went out on a date with the boy was to fill in a gap she was feeling from not being able to be with Inuyasha.
"Well, why lead him on then?" he asked. She searched her brain for an answer. She couldn't really tell him the truth. No telling what tension that could cause. So she shrugged innocently.
"I…really don't know how to answer that." She swallowed hard.
"He doesn't even know how good he has it. The little shit doesn't deserve you." Inuyasha muttered, looking away from her.
"Inuyasha, did you just-" he grunted and she bit her lip lightly. "Never mind. Your turn." She said in one beat.
"Kagome?"
"Hmm?" she hummed quietly and rubbed her arms to create friction and warmth. Inuyasha looked down at her and put an arm around her shoulders.
"Ever wanted something so bad, but you didn't think that it was something for you to have? Like…you didn't deserve it, or you thought that the thing you wanted could do better than to be yours?" he frowned and laid his cheek on the top of Kagome's head.
"Yeah…" she whispered. 'I feel it right now.' She thought sadly, her eyes watering. She snuggled into his warmth and enjoyed the feeling of being close.
"Did you get it?"
"No."
"Do you still want it?"
"Yeah…."
"Hmm. Your turn." He said after a while, shifting. Kagome thought about what had been bugging her lately. Her dreams. They'd been about her mom. She had dreams of her childhood with her mother. They were fond memories, yet solemn at the same time.
"My dreams."
"About?"
"My mom." She said, her eyes automatically watering. She felt Inuyasha pick her up and set her in his lap. She snuggled into his chest and he wrapped his arms around her curled up body. He kissed her temple, knowing this was a sensitive subject, and he could smell her tears. He wanted to protect her in anyway possible.
"You don't have to talk about it if you don't want to." He whispered and pulled her closer. She whimpered quietly.
"I miss her so much Inuyasha…" he knew how she felt, exactly, if not more. He had to live with his older half-brother, Sesshomaru, and his younger brother, Kito. He brought Kito with him so that he could have a friend near like Sota, and left his older half-brother to himself. His parents had died when he was a young boy, about the time he started third grade. Kids weren't as understanding as they are now, and sometimes even to this day, they just don't get it. He was teased for not having parents. He didn't know why, but he was. He sighed sadly. The memory was fuzzy, but he also remembered someone being in the same predicament as him. She came up to him, and wanted to be his friend. He remembered that much. Kagome's silent crying, her sobs wracking her whole body, brought him out of his reverie.
"Kagome…I know…please stop crying. You know I hate it when you cry. Please…" he whispered and rocked her back and forth softly.
"She only died when I was eight. She shouldn't have died. And nobody liked me because I only had my father. And he was so busy with work. Nobody loved me. Nobody ever will." She said quietly, silent tears still running down her face. 'I love you, Kagome. You have no clue how much.'
She needs you.
I know that. You don't have to tell me twice.
So then what are you going to do to help her? Sit on your ass? You need to tell her you love her.
She has a boyfriend for fuck's sake. There's nothing I can do.
You know you need her too. Tell her before it's too late.
I'll tell her when I'm good and ready.
And when's that. What's to guarantee that she'll live till tomorrow, or you in that case? Something could happen and you wouldn't get the chance to tell her.
I know…The voice seemed to vanish within and Inuyasha seriously considered saying something to her right then and there. But he couldn't do that if she was taken. Even though she said she wanted to end it, he wouldn't take her away. She could end up liking him more then she thought. And he didn't want to jeopardize her happiness. He pulled her closer, and buried his face in her hair, breathing in her intoxicating scent.
"Please don't be sad, baby girl." He felt her nod absently and she snuggled closer to him, if possible. "Are you going to be okay now?" he asked, turned her face towards his. He wiped the tearstains away, and couldn't help but wince slightly at the pain and despair in her eyes.
She smiled slightly and kissed him on the cheek. "Thank you." She hugged him, and then hopped off his lap. "Let's go see what the others are doing, shall we?" the sad look was replaced by that of someone trying to keep optimistic. Inuyasha stood up and stretched his legs and arms and then they walked off the roof and to see what the other teenagers were doing.
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When they walked into the warm and safe confines of the house, everyone was sitting or laying in the living room trying to find something to do.
"So…bored…" Miroku said lying on the couch, and surprisingly his head was in Sango's lap. She was sitting up, but her head was rested back on the couch. Kito and Sota were laying on the floor, their heads next to each other, but their body's in opposite directions.
"Where are Kagome and Inuyasha anyway? It's not the same without them." Sango said, sighing.
"Right here. And I have an idea." Kagome said happily. The fact that she just spent an hour with Inuyasha, most of the time in his arms made her a bit happier. The sadness from before had died down a bit, and Inuyasha was glad.
"Oh thank all things holy!" Sota cried out and ran up to his sister. "What did you have in mind? Please! Spill the fucking beans!" he cried out in exasperation.
"Sota, don't cuss. It's bad." She hit him lightly on the head.
"We're gonna play tag outside. When's the last time we did that?" Inuyasha asked, a light smirk playing on his features. Everyone cheered.
"Why didn't we think of that?" Sango asked, looking down at Miroku. She stood up and he slipped off her lap and onto the floor. She ran up to Kagome and Inuyasha. "Let's play team tag." She said hyper.
"Oh yay!" Kito said getting up too and jumping up and down.
"I want to be on lovely Sango's team." Miroku said with a smirk and Kagome counted to five.
"Miroku…if you don't get your hand off my ass, I will be forced to take desperate measures." She said dangerously. Obviously he didn't listen and the impeccable slap reverberated through the room. Everyone winced as the force from the slap blew his or her hair back before settling.
"Dumb ass." Inuyasha said shaking his head. "Okay. Teams are as follows. Miroku, Sango and Kagome VS Kito, Sota and I. Sound good?" he asked.
"No!" Kagome shouted. "You can't have two half demons on one team. Unfair!"
"Well if you look at it, it's one demon and two humans." Inuyasha said rubbing the back on his neck, with a sheepish smile on his face. "Think nothing of it."
"Hmph!" she folded her arms.
"Well, gee Kagome. If you're going to complain about it, then why don't we do: Inuyasha, Miroku and I, against you, Sango and Kito." Sota said rolling his eyes.
"Fine. That's fair." She said sticking her tongue out at her younger brother. Inuyasha picked her up and lugged her outside, the others following and Kagome hitting his back half-heartedly.
Once outside in the huge gardens, Kagome was set down and they went over the rules.
"Okay. The rules are: three people to a team, six in all. You all get these," Inuyasha said, passing out walkie-talkies to everyone. "When one of your teammates gets caught by someone on the other team, they have to alert their team members. The team members that are alerted can come to their rescue at the specific place given, and come and save them from the jails. Who wants to be the jail keepers?" Inuyasha asked. Sota and Kito raised their hands automatically.
"Okay…" Kagome said.
"Now. You guys have to keep guard of the jail. Let's say I capture Sango. I have to bring her here, and Sota has to keep guard of Sango. Now, Kagome can come and save her if she can get past Sota. You guys can trade jail guards if your tired or you have a strategy or whatever. And that's basically the game."
"Wait. Now let's say I go to save Sango from your jail. Well can we have like a ten second walk time, before we are able to get tagged by the other team?" Kagome asked.
"Oh. Sure. That sounds good. Does everyone know the rules?" he asked. Everyone nodded his or her heads. "Okay. Walkie-talkies on. And you can go to your battle station. Our jail will be right here by the entrance. Your guy's can be on the other side of the garden. That cool?" everyone nodded again, because in some way or another this game would be easy for him or her. They could all sense presences and well we all know the advantages Inuyasha and Kito got. "Okay. Go. And alert us when you get there." Inuyasha waved jollily. Kagome rolled her eyes and headed off with her teammates.
"We've arrived your highness." Kagome said sarcastically. Inuyasha snorted and clicked off. "Let's get this party crackin." She nodded to Kito and took off into the deep woody garden of the mansion with Sango.
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All night long, the teens had their hands full. Kito and Sota just sat and talked to each other when nothing was going on around them, and the others played tag deep into the night. Sango and Miroku were off chasing each other somewhere in the woods.
Kagome walked around the trees, her walkie-talkie attached to the hip of her jeans and kept an eye out for any sudden attackers. She felt a presence around her, and moved out of the way, just in time to see a flash of red and silver whip by her. She laughed as she turned around to run away, using trees to dodge away from her attacker. Soon that flash of red and silver was running right behind her, and she giggled as she was tackled to the ground, the landing being soft, for Inuyasha using his body so she wouldn't get hurt. Then he flipped them over so he was on top.
"Gotcha." Inuyasha said and growled playfully.
"I almost got away from you for a moment there." She snapped her fingers a smile on her face.
"No you didn't. I just let you run for a while." She rolled her eyes.
"Shut up." she hit him playfully on the arm, and took deep breaths for air to fill her lungs, Inuyasha doing the same. She giggled as Inuyasha Eskimo kissed her, rubbing their cold noses together softly, but she pushed his face away, him chuckling softly. She kept her right hand cupping his cheek and sighed softly, looking into his brilliant liquid golden eyes and playing with silky strands of silver.
Inuyasha was having an inner battle. Looking into her chocolate brown orbs, he found that he wanted her even more. He felt his face slowly moving towards hers to claim her lips and she would've obliged willingly if they didn't hear a static crackle and a voice.
"Kagome, I've been captured by Miroku! Come and save me!" she shrieked with a giggle and you heard Miroku mumble something in the background. Inuyasha let out a string of profanities and glared at the source of the sound, before getting off of Kagome and helping her up. Kagome was upset as well, and she grabbed the device.
"I was captured too Sango. The game's over." She clicked it off and looked solemnly at the ground below her. Inuyasha grabbed her hand, intertwining his fingers with hers, which she didn't protest, and began to walk back towards the mansion's warmth. They both seemed to think the same thought at the same time, without truly knowing it.
'…I love you…'--
A/N: FINALLY!!!! I updated. Wow. You guys don't know how proud I am of myself. I mean. All this time. I would come up with good ideas but the shit never worked out. And what do you know? Sitting in the back of class brainstorming while I'm supposed to be doing my class work works wonders. This is basically all of my dreams mixed in one. I imagine something and I write it down. So hopefully this is a fulfilling chapter for you guys. I'll try my hardest to get my next update out. I think I'll do this one before my others, but that's no guarantee so don't kill me if it doesn't happen. Cause I'll shank you first haha. Jk guys. Thanks for reading. PLEASE review. Tell me what you think and I'll try my hardest to get a new chappie out. Until next time!
Later Dayz, TaintedMunkeyz
P.S. – BEFORE I FORGET, ANOTHER GENRE WILL BE ADDED TO THIS STORY!!!!!!!!! There will be lots and lots of angst. I've decided. I'm sorry if you want the lovey dovey nothing bad ever happens crap, but I'm not for that. So as of right now, be aware that there will be….drama…depressing material…and um…well there's a lot that goes with that mix. So yeah. Be prepared. TTFN!