Bloody tears, broken fears, and disappearing lies.
Summary: This is where B.B. breaks her heart and to the untrue lies about cutting and never reveals her true love. I am in Raven's P.O.V
Beast Boy woke me up and told me that he didn't love me because of my secret and i told him what secret and he told me that he knew about my cutting and he left me alone in the darkness. The next day i woke up and sat up on the bed and pull open the dresser drawer and i grabbed my dagger and put it to my wrist the blade to my pale skin and pirced it and the crimson blood dripping down my arm. One slice after another and another i thought of B.B and how to shed my feelings for him and wrote this poem: (Aka:Linkn Park:Breaking the Habit)
Memories consume Like opening the wound I'm picking me apart again You all assume I'm safe here in my room unless i try to start again meaning cutting
I cut another sliver of skin open and wrote more in blood
I don't want to be the one The battles always choose 'cause inside i realize That i am the one confused I then did one more slice and then wrote more
I don't know what worth fighting for Or why i have to scream I don't know why i instagate or say what i don't mean I don't know how i got this way I know it's not alright So i'm breaking the habit tonight I grab some alcohol and try to clean my open wound and write more
Clutching my cure I tightly lock the door i try to catch my breath again I hurt much more than anytime before I had no options left again I don't want to be the one The battles always choose 'cause inside i realize That i am the one confused I don't know what worth fighting for Or why i have to scream I don't know why i instagate or say what i don't mean I don't know how i got this way I know it's not alright So i'm breaking the habit tonight.
B.B. then knocked on my door and came in and saw my blood stained wrist and tried to clean it and then told me he did love me but was angry b/c he loved me and didn't want to see me hurt and i told him that i didn't want to get hurt in loving him.
He kissed me and told me it was ok and i am alright now and i gave him all my sharp objects and he disposed of them then we went ontop of the roof-top and he told me he loved me and sang this to me:" Raven if you ever die i will always cry,
you see i watch you in your sleep,
if you died because of me i would, would weep,
Raven Girl you got it going on,
Raven can't you see your the only girl for me,
cause Raven girl you got it going on"
I cried and told him i loved him to and this secret of "cutting" was over. And i read to my self:
You closed the door on me,
It will lead to jealousy,
Your hiding all you emotions,
Like they matter in some stupid potions,
The door is closed it doesn't lead to you,
And now it is gone,
You died because of it,
And now the door,
Is gone forever more.
And B.B. then tucked me in my bed and kissed me on my lips and said goodnight my love.
Most poems in this story are property of Ashley Stephens and are copy righted and it'd be great if you not clame them as your own.
Beast Boy woke me up and told me that he didn't love me because of my secret and i told him what secret and he told me that he knew about my cutting and he left me alone in the darkness. The next day i woke up and sat up on the bed and pull open the dresser drawer and i grabbed my dagger and put it to my wrist the blade to my pale skin and pirced it and the crimson blood dripping down my arm. One slice after another and another i thought of B.B and how to shed my feelings for him and wrote this poem: (Aka:Linkn Park:Breaking the Habit)
Memories consume Like opening the wound I'm picking me apart again You all assume I'm safe here in my room unless i try to start again meaning cutting
I cut another sliver of skin open and wrote more in blood
I don't want to be the one The battles always choose 'cause inside i realize That i am the one confused I then did one more slice and then wrote more
I don't know what worth fighting for Or why i have to scream I don't know why i instagate or say what i don't mean I don't know how i got this way I know it's not alright So i'm breaking the habit tonight I grab some alcohol and try to clean my open wound and write more
Clutching my cure I tightly lock the door i try to catch my breath again I hurt much more than anytime before I had no options left again I don't want to be the one The battles always choose 'cause inside i realize That i am the one confused I don't know what worth fighting for Or why i have to scream I don't know why i instagate or say what i don't mean I don't know how i got this way I know it's not alright So i'm breaking the habit tonight.
B.B. then knocked on my door and came in and saw my blood stained wrist and tried to clean it and then told me he did love me but was angry b/c he loved me and didn't want to see me hurt and i told him that i didn't want to get hurt in loving him.
He kissed me and told me it was ok and i am alright now and i gave him all my sharp objects and he disposed of them then we went ontop of the roof-top and he told me he loved me and sang this to me:" Raven if you ever die i will always cry,
you see i watch you in your sleep,
if you died because of me i would, would weep,
Raven Girl you got it going on,
Raven can't you see your the only girl for me,
cause Raven girl you got it going on"
I cried and told him i loved him to and this secret of "cutting" was over. And i read to my self:
You closed the door on me,
It will lead to jealousy,
Your hiding all you emotions,
Like they matter in some stupid potions,
The door is closed it doesn't lead to you,
And now it is gone,
You died because of it,
And now the door,
Is gone forever more.
And B.B. then tucked me in my bed and kissed me on my lips and said goodnight my love.
Most poems in this story are property of Ashley Stephens and are copy righted and it'd be great if you not clame them as your own.