Will I fall again into dismay?
Will I be ashamed of crying?
And I know it's never been the way that I described
But I am afraid of trying
She's the one who keeps me all excited
She keeps me begging for more
She's the one who deems me uninvited
Now it's over
"Go to sleep!" Harry hissed, getting annoyed at Draco's constant staring. Draco didn't budge.
"Quit staring at me!" Harry hissed again, sitting up and glaring at Draco. Draco shrugged, but didn't move.
"What is your problem?" The green-eyed hero was almost livid. Draco had been doing this for three weeks, ever since he had moved in. At first, Harry had thought it was sweet, but now it was preventing him from getting any sleep and his silver eyed lover refused to give him an explanation as to why he had commenced to staring at him during the wee hours of the morning.
"I'm just watching you." Draco offered. This seemed to be the only time they fought and it was usually forgotten by morning, but this time Harry seemed to have enough.
"Well, stop it! I'm sleeping in the guest room." With that, the black haired beauty grabbed his pillow and stormed out of the room. Draco flinched.
Never leave me, and don't deceive me
I'll keep on crawling my friend
Never tease me and don't leave me here
It's all the same in the end
The next morning, neither spoke of what had happened that night, but there seemed to be a tense void between them. When Harry left for work, he didn't kiss Draco goodbye as he usually did… but then again, they hadn't shagged that morning like they usually did either.
Draco looked at the closed door until it was time for him to leave for work as well. He didn't speak to anyone that day, just worked silently until it was time for him to leave. Picking up Chinese on the way, he headed back to their flat. Harry wasn't there when he got there.
There was simply a note saying that he would be sleeping over at Ron's and that Draco should not worry. Draco ate his share of the Chinese alone.
Now I find that I am weaker fake
That I am ashamed of lying
And I know things never feel the way that's right inside
And I am afraid of dying
'Cause you're the one who keeps me all excited
Harry returned that morning, only to find that Draco had fallen asleep on the dining room table, hands clenched almost painfully around his note. He sighed and picked the blonde up, carrying him to the bedroom, then crawled in next to him, curling his fingers around the smaller man's hip.
When Draco woke up a few hours later, he was disoriented. He twitched slightly, then calmed when he realized that Harry was holding him. A loud sigh left him, he had not realized he had been holding his breath,
That night, Draco was back to staring. Harry didn't say a word about it, but the next morning he was gone, leaving another note explaining that he wouldn't be back until Tuesday, that was three days away. Draco wiped away the tear that slipped down his face.
When Harry returned, he could not, at first, see Draco and the blonde did not answer when he called for him. He checked all the rooms, but did not find his lover. He called Hermione to ask if she knew where he was, she did not.
The night, Draco stumbled through the front door, carrying a large box full of his things.
"Where did you go?" Harry yelled, throwing the remote to the TV. onto the couch, to better face Draco. Draco shrugged.
"Don't give me that! Why weren't you here? I told you I'd be back today!" Draco frowned, but still said nothing.
"Why did you put your things in a box?" Harry asked, much more calmly now.
"I thought…I…I didn't think you'd come back; I was going to move back to my old flat."
"What? Why?" Harry said desperately, grabbing the box and then dropping it like it had burned.
"I didn't think you would come back." Was all Draco said, before going into the bedroom. That night when Draco stared, Harry just stared back.
You keep me begging for more
You're the one who keeps me uninvited
Now it's over
That morning Draco curled up next to Harry and whispered, "I do it for a reason."
"Do what?" Harry asked, wrapping his arms around the blonde and placing a kiss on the pale pink lips.
"Look at you."
"Okay." Harry didn't expect an explanation, he had never gotten one before, but this time Draco surprised him.
"I'm afraid." It was barely even a whisper and Harry more felt the words on his skin then heard them.
"What? What are you afraid of?" He tightened his arms further around the trembling man, placing another kiss on his temple.
"That if I stop… you'll disappear… that you won't be here when I look back." This time, Harry did feel them on his skin. Draco had mouthed to words into his neck, barely saying them aloud.
"I'll never disappear from you, Draco, never."
"You did. You disappeared just yesterday." His lover accused, looking up at him. Harry smiled.
"I'll always come back."
"Oh." Draco didn't know what to say to this, so he didn't say anything, just buried his face in Harry's chest and closed his eyes, letting himself fall back into sleep.
Never leave me, and don't deceive me
I'll keep on crawling my friend
It's only a symbol you're got me falling away
And I am afraid
Take back what I said
From that moment on, Draco didn't stare… much. And when he did, Harry just held onto him tighter and whispered,
"I'll never leave, love." And truthfully? He never did.
It's all the same in the end
It's all the same in the end
It's all the same in the end
It's only a symbol
HPDMHPDMHPDM
Silence: YAY! Sappy-ness! I liked it. I was thinking of it and then I found this perfect song and so I decided to add it to my "Bye Bye Boyfriend" series! I hope you liked it!
The song is not mine! It's Never Leave by Seether. He is a musical God! YAY!
Draco: what is with her and the out of character-ness today?
Harry: Still feels depressed about the sixth book I suppose
Draco: and there was like NO snoggage!
Harry: Wanna make up for it?
Draco: pounces