Mad World

A/N: HI! I know it has been a while since I have posted anything, but I have had a crisis that put me under a lot of stress and put me in a depression for about a week. SO, anyway this is my first attempt at shonen-ai. Its gaara/sasuke (my favorite pairing) this was inspired by Sick little suicide by TheFutureFreaksMeOut, go read it; and by the song Mad World. Thank you mistress of the sand for helping me with this. Sorry I had to take out the gaara raping to snoop dogg, but it will be back. HAPPY CINCO DE MAYO EVERYONE! FREEDOM TO MEXICO!

Disclaimer: I own nothing except this computer I am typing on. And the song Mad World is by Gary Jules and I give him full credit. Go download it LEGALY!

Gaara POV

Its another Friday night, as usual I'm stuck at home messing around with my computer, but I don't mind. It's around 7:30 right now, everyone is out somewhere and there is nothing good on TV.

" Gaara, I'm going out with some friends. I'll be back sometime before 2." My older sister yells from somewhere in our apartment.

" Ok, temari." I say loudly. A few seconds later there is a slam of a door and the turn of a lock, then silence. I'm all alone now, I prefer this over having my family around. Saying we were a dysfunctional family was putting it very, very lightly. Kankuro is probably out with his girl friend or some of his friends, and my Dad… where the hell is my dad anyway? He goes away a lot, probably business trips. Oh well, everything is better when he is gone.

Now that everyone is gone I can go watch TV in the living room get up and walk to the living room. Me and my…family units live in a 3-bedroom apartment, the only TV with cable is in the living room. Temari and kankuro are always fighting over it because of this I watch next to no TV. The TV is on some movie channel, Edward Scissor Hands is on. I just cant change it from this movie ( there has to be a law against that) so I flop down on our overstuffed couch with a thump and start to watch it. Within a few seconds kankuros and temaris two dogs come running up and jump on the couch and try to chew on my hair. I am always the one taking care of the two annoying rot terriers, jerry and nibbler, they are so annoying, but also very cute. Right now that is the only thing keeping them here.

About 5 minutes of the movie passes before my cell phone starts to ring in my pocket. I never give the number out to anyone, I even doubt my dad or siblings know the number, so who the hell could be calling?

I pick up and plainly say, " who the hell is this?"

" Hey, Gaara! You seem like your cheerful self today!" suprisingly Narutos voice come through from the other line."

" How did you get this number?"

" doesn't matter. Because you are coming to the $1.50 movies with me, Lee, and Kiba!"

" No. I'm not." I hang up and continue to watch the movie. Obviously the universe wants to keep me from watching this movie because a few seconds later there is a knock on the door. I really should have just sat there and ignored it, kept watching the movie. But no, I had to get up and open the door, of course standing there is none other then naruto, kiba and lee.

Kiba greets me with a very stupid " Yo, whats up gaara."

" Hi!" Lee says energetically.

" so come on, your going to the movies. So lets get going" naruto adds in.

" naruto I said no. I am not going to the movies." I slam the door right in their smiling faces and go back to the room. I give up on the movies and go and start playing Galaga. Shooting bees and butterflies is a great way to relive stress. After about 10 minutes the annoyances are gone I out on some music. The first song I listen to is " freak on a leash' by Korn. A great song. I start spinning in my computer chair and and starring off into space. A few more minutes pass and I out on the song Mad World, which I have deemed the theme song for my life. As the lyrics play I take a look around my room, it really is pathetic. 2 mattresses sitting on the floor ( on is kankuros) a cinderblock and plywood desk that my computer sits on, a radio, the walls are covered in posters of different rock bands, so much that I forget what color my walls are, and the floor is hidden from view by mounds of black clothes I have strewn across the floor. A lamp lays broken on the floor after one of dads drunken rampages a few nights ago, why does he always have to destroy my stuff? And because the lamp is broken I am sitting here in the dim light givin off by my computer screen. My computer is my savoir.

Suddenly there is a tapping at the window, I get up, move the black blanket I use to block the light out, and who other then the 3 el stupado are standing there. Better know as naruto, kiba and lee. " Oh, fuck no." I mutter as naruto holds up a sign that says ' Unlock your window!' they are some persistent mother fuckers.

We just stand there staring at each other. Me with a blank look, and the el stupado's looking…stupid. Finally I give in. if I don't just go with them now I'll probably walk into my living room and they will be sitting on my couch playing with jerry and nibbler.

" Fine, I'll be out in a little bit." I say loudly enough so that they can hear thought the plain of glass. They start doing this little happy dance as I turn to get my stuff to go.

I know this is a big fucking mistake from the start.

A/N: well ya know that was better then I thought it would be, but it's still crappy. I could have done worse but I just want to get this posted and started, it's the first chapter, they are almost never good. And imagine, Gaara playing with puppies, it's so cute! Oh and that song Mad world is the best, heres the lyrics.

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places
Worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going no where
Going no where
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression
No expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow
No tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday
Happy birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen
Sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me
No one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me
Look right through me
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Enlarging your world
Mad world