Disclaimer: I don't own Robin, Raven, or any other Teen Titans, nor do I own the show.

Summery: I'm still deciding on whether or not to have split viewpoints, and whether or not to continue this story at all. Someday I'll decide when the reviews die away.

Um kay- also, in other news, I'm hoping now to get this story done in less than six or seven chapters. Amazing Eh? I never thought the story line here would progress so quickly.

Anyway- enough stalling, here it is, Chapter 3 of "Forbidden Fruit";

((Chapter 3))
"To Be Tempted"

"All day and Night, my desire for you unwinds like a poisonous snake."
-Semar Sen-
"Love"

Desire; It was the longing I had, and craving I constantly felt to give into the temptation I felt so often around Raven. I yearned to touch her delicate skin; I wished and longed to kiss her beautiful lips. But I knew inwardly she didn't feel the same about me at all. All she probably wanted was the Czar; that sick sadistic man I knew she felt close to, even though he was evil. But was what the Czar said true? Was what Raven said really real?

'You have no idea what it is to fear a fight, because you know that you might be violated each time but a perverse psycho. You have no idea what it is to be touched by someone so forbidden, and so evil, and in the end- to like it…'

Was She really saying she actually liked that man?

After the incident with Raven, a whole week almost went by, where I couldn't bare to even look at her. But then again, neither could she. I guess at that time I was filth in her eyes, a self-righteous leader and hypocrite, trying to understand what I could not. I tried to comfort her that night but couldn't- I trod upon a bed of nails towards the real intensely alone Raven…only to be pushed away.

Attacks in the city continued, with this villain and that, each less daunting and easier to defeat than the Czar. I myself began to wonder if he had been our toughest opponent. But I tried hard not to think of the man when I could.

One morning later that week, I woke to find myself once more layered with the disgust of yet another one of my lustful dreams. Even with the discomfort between Raven and I, I was still plagued by my own thoughts and dreams of her. I was still bothered by what my own mind produced and constantly fantasized.

What was it about her I longed for? Something dark, something taboo? I couldn't even understand my own fascination. But then again, I couldn't understand Raven's for the Czar. What had she seen in him? Something wayward, and something mischievous? Did she like him because he was handsome, attractive, or had it just been the unthinkable idea that she and the Czar might have had something forbidden and dark together?

Somehow, I found myself insanely jealous. But me- jealous? I didn't do jealousy; I wasn't that type of guy. Sure from time to time I felt a little angry when some guy hit on StarFire back when we began dating, but the way I felt about Raven was immensely different. My jealousy towards what she felt for the Czar was way more intense, and was way more concentrated.

Before I knew what I was doing, I was dressed and out of my room, heading for the garage in the Titans Tower to go get my motorcycle. But before I could quite get there, I was abruptly stopped in the living room, by someone I hadn't talked to at all in days; StarFire.

Her brilliant green shining eyes which once would have melted my heart held no significance to me any longer, and her long red hair which I had loved so before didn't phase me at all. Not even her sculpted body and ignorant words could bring me to feel anything for her any longer. What I felt for her inside was nothing. The space she had once held in my heart was now void of her spirit. Was this the girl I had once devoted myself to?

"Robin!" she squealed as I clenched my teeth in pain from her high-pitched voice. Had I really thought it was an enchanting voice? Had it really held meaning to me at all? StarFire stepped forward towards me, and tried to give me one of her tight air- squeezing hugs, but I stepped out of her way, and continued to walk on.

"Robin?" She asked, he voice almost a low whine. 'How annoying…' I cringed. But then as I turned around, I saw her eyes, glazed over with sadness. Could I really think all of those horrible things about her? She was my friend, yet I still then no longer thought of her as anything more. She wasn't the girlfriend I had once had. I no longer wished to kiss those startlingly beautiful lips she had. Still- I felt sorry for her. I really didn't want to break her heart.

"I'm sorry StarFire. I've been so busy lately with finding out the Czar's true intentions and with research I haven't been able to see you at all. And I'm afraid I can't eat breakfast either, I need to go question the Czar further." I said trying to paint on a smile for her. With that comment, I received a glare from Raven. She Obviously didn't want me talking to the Czar anymore.

"Perhaps I could see you tonight?" StarFire questioned smiling once more.

"Perhaps." I answered trying to keep my composure. "Let's met tonight on top of the tower, there's something important I need to talk to you about." StarFire in return nodded understandingly and quickly gave me a tight hug, meaning she hoped that tonight would be special. Across the Room, Raven continued to glare at me while sipping her tea.

'I wish you didn't hate me so much Raven…' I thought to myself sadly as I looked over StarFire's shoulders. 'I try so hard to understand you…because I love you.'

That day I found out that the guard who kept watch over the Czar Muriel was named David Kintz, whom I had become good friends with because of my constant visits.

"What we still don't understand is why he did it all." I explained that morning as we walked once more down the hall.

"How can you explain a Psychotic man's actions? He wanted to destroy the city- he's a mad man." David explained gesturing around him. "All of the guys here a lunatics, the Czar is no exception."

"True- But the Czar seems more complicated than that. He seems to have a more real reason, I just feel like he's hiding it from us." I muttered with conviction as we neared the last cell. I guess I never noticed the last time I was there, that all of the cells where painted an odd gray color. It seemed like something that was peculiar to me, considering the number of prisons I had inspected always had white walls. Perhaps….No. Was the color gray because….

David noticed me examining the walls of the prison and grimly nodded his head. "They're like that because the prison curator had them painted that way. He thinks that gray reminds the inmates of what filth they are, and that white walls would only bring them the illusion of purity. It's a psychological thing."

I looked at the last cell we where nearing in response. Suddenly, the prison I now visited seemed even more gloomy and menacing. David left me once again in the sub chamber leading to the Czars cell, and locked the door behind me. Again- I was in a room alone with a psychopath whom I had come to despise even more. Only a thick Plexiglas wall separated us.

Hesitantly, I sat in the chair near the clear wall- all of this seemed way too familiar. But I had to know everything about Raven and the Czars relationship; I wanted desperately to understand her pain.

"Czar-" I started with uncertainty. But before I could finish my sentence, I was interrupted.

"This isn't business is it Robin? Our meetings never really are." The Czar teased.

"Right now I need to talk to you about your relationship with Raven." I choked out. Once more, the Czar floated to me from his corner, his straight jacket on.

"Oh really?" the czar inquired with a slight smirk on his lips. Somehow, I had the feeling he enjoyed mocking me. "And why would that be?"

"I'm asking the questions here damnit!" I cursed hitting my fist against the wall. Already my patience was running thin.

"Oh why oh why- does the little Robin love the Birdie Raven…." He chanted in a singsong voice as he spun around and around in the air. "Oh tell me why oh why…" My eyes narrowed to thin slits. I knew within myself, that he was right- but his annoying song began to get to me.

"Why do you want to know about us Robin? Why do you want to know about something that would only make you more jealous than you already are?"

"I'm not jealous." I retorted, stabilizing my voice. Inside, my emotions were a mess.

"Do you really want to know Robin- what we did in the solace of the night? Do you really want to know Robin- what the darkness concealed?" the Czar said as he leaned closer to the glass.

"I want to know everything." I confirmed, though in knew I was really quite unprepared.

"Oh in the darkness…" The Czar Reminisced. "How she used to moan…."

"What?" I shouted shocked at his words. "Raven would never have met you anywhere when we didn't met you in a fight- it's against all of the rules. Not to mention her powers would have raged out of control, they're powered by her emotions."

"Rules are made to be broken Robin." The Czar said laughing. "We met during the nights sometimes, and in the darkness- she wove a shield around us both with her powers, which I reinforced. Using it, it allowed her to scream- I allowed her to moan. She could relish in the pleasure of touch. Somehow- I think she liked breaking all of the rules."

"No…." I denied. I couldn't believe what the Czar was saying was true. I couldn't believe that Raven would have snuck out into the night to do those horrible things. And with him- our sworn enemy. Why did she do it? Why did Raven make love to our adversary?

"Because she likes darkness within a person. She savors and enjoys every bit. Deep down she knows she can't fight the evil within her that craves it. She loves the lust of the sinister dark." The Czar answered, reading my mind. To my surprise, I didn't jump back at his response, or react to him reading my mind.

"So she betrayed her friends for love?" I queried confused.

"She betrayed her friends for love. Love does things to people Robin. It turns them mad. Though I'm not claiming she loved me."

"She did." I sighed aloud miserably.

"Really!" I the Czar said shocked.

"But not anymore. I have the slightest feeling you broke her heart."

"Oh course I did. I always do that. I'm a wizard, the relationships we have never end very well." The Czar nodded in affirmation. But then, suddenly, his eyes changed and he turned towards me grinning from ear to ear. "You came here to hear about it didn't you Robin?" He laughed. "Of Course you did. You wanted to hear all of the perverted little details…." He said annunciating each and every word.

"What?" I asked dumbfounded that he would even think that.

"Oh yes you did, yes you did…." He chanted. You came because you wanted to hear how I made her scream, how I made her groan and sigh. You came because you wanted to know how good she was Robin…" with this he paused, "Well she was pretty damn good."

"You sicko!" I screamed standing up. "I never came to hear that!"

"Oh she came alright, thousands of times. I still have marks on my back where she clutched me and held tight when I made her reach her peak…"

"Shut Up! Stop It!" I yelled leaning against the wall for support. My stomach rolled, as I pictured in my mind The Czar and Raven in the darkness….

I couldn't take the thought of it. It made me sick. But the Czar only laughed at the sight of me queasy. He leaned in up to the glass and whispered through the holes things I thought I never would have to hear. Every single detail was laid out, he accounted for every single thing the two had done together. The countless nights, the moonlit serenades. He even relayed to me the number of times she came…. Until finally I couldn't take it any longer. I leaned over- and lurched, my body throwing itself into convulsions. My throat shuddered to let my previous undigested food up, as I tremor of sickness ran through me.

On the floor near my feet, a pool of thrown up food lay, it's stench quickly permeating the room. I couldn't believe it. Not only had my mind not been able to take it all, my body wasn't able to stand the Czar's revolting words.

"Clean up in isle Four!" The Czar yelled as he snickered and started to burst out laughing.

"God why…" I questioned aloud as I punched in the code to get out of the sub chamber. 'Why did I have to know…' David saw me stumble out and ran to me worried, and quite bewildered.

"You okay man?" he asked concerned.

"Yea… I just…got sick in there. I've not been feeling like myself lately." I answered as I gained back my strength to stand back up. "You might need a clean up crew in there," I said half jokingly.

"Don't worry Robin- with the Czar, talking to him alone is enough to make a guy sick. It's not what he says- it's the way he says it."

David's words washed over me, and the world swirled around me, much like that of a rushing hurricane. It all felt like a dream. A horrible intense dream I had yet to wake from. But as I tried to wake myself, I realized that this world around me wasn't a dream- it was reality. None of what I saw was a figment of my imagination I made up- it was all true and valid.

But what my mind wouldn't accept, what it rejected wholly was the images I saw in my mind of the Czar and Raven together. I just couldn't believe that she would really ever do that. No….I refused to believe the Czar's spoken words were true. I wouldn't give in to his tricks. He was saying it all just to toy with me. Wasn't he?

As my mind continued to spin, I fell to the ground once more. My body gave in, yet my mind would not. I would not give in to the lies.

Later on, I finally was able to recompose myself to be able to ride home to the Tower, though it took a lot to convince David I was all right. After seeing my collapse at the Jail, he became even more worried about me. But I knew I had promised StarFire a meeting that night; so canceling wasn't an option, even for a queasy stomach. StarFire was the kind of Girl you never broke your promises to. I told David I was fine, and left, making my way back to my home.

Still- it was hard for me to get out of my mind everything the Czar had said to me, and the idea that Raven would even do all of it with him to me was unthinkable. Was the Czar lying, or was he telling the truth? I couldn't be sure about that anymore either.

Trying to block all of it out from my mind, I walked hesitantly up to the towers roof, where a waiting StarFire sat watching the sunset. The crimson and ginger sky was littered with thin wispy clouds that crowded around the setting sun, all painted with a similar red shade. StarFire, standing with her back to me, watched the horizon intently, like we had done together there on top of the Tower so many times before. She was the image of innocence, something I couldn't stand any longer. I couldn't be with someone who was so pure, when I was littered myself with impurity.

"Star…." I started, as I walked towards her, cautious as to not touch her. She looked so clean, and so happy. I couldn't let the dirt of my soul touch her anymore.

"Robin, I waited for you like you asked!" StarFire said turning with a smile. But when she saw my frown she knew instantly something was wrong. "Are you alright Robin?" she asked. I looked behind her at the setting sun, its light quickly disappearing behind the expanse of water. Just as the light of day left us, I knew all too well that StarFire's light would leave me as well. No longer could I take content in such goodness. The time was coming for our time together to set.

"Star I can't be with you anymore." I blurted out- my heart already shattered. It was the almost two years together in a relationship with her I was breaking, along with her spirit.

"You do not enjoy my company?" StarFire asked confused.

"No that's not what I meant," I sighed exasperated. Why did her naive nature have to make this all so hard? "I mean can't kiss you anymore, I can't be in a relationship with you."

"You mean we're not friends anymore?" she, bewildered sputtered out.

"We're friends, we spend time together, but now to me you're more like a sister, not a future woman I wish to spend my years with in love." I tried once more to explain. When I saw her eyes blink twice and her head nod, I knew she finally understood.

"So you wish not to marry one day in holy matrimony," she confirmed.

"Yes."

"I see." With that she turned to walk past me, her heart clearly wrecked and her mind puzzled. To her, we had been so close she couldn't imagine a day living without me. But to me, I couldn't imagine another day where I wasted her time with the filth I was inside.

"I'm sorry Star. Can we still be friends?" I asked turning towards her.

"Yes Robin, but first I must recover from this painfully injury you have dealt to my heart." She cried out as I saw a tear form in one of her bright green eyes. Sadness, and sorrow leaked into my heart as I watched her walk away mixed with regret.

I watched the sky grow dark alone that night, sitting only with the solace of the moon to comfort me. Like me- it too sat in the dark, it's dim light trying so hard to fight the darkness. But it could not, even with the help of the stars, for they too were too faint. No, the night that day only reminded me of how utterly alone I was in the world now, my friends so unaware of what I was fighting against. And even if they helped me fight my desire, would I even be able to overcome it? Would I even be able to once more feel so righteous and good?

No. I knew then that my soul forever would be scarred from the darkness I held within it. The Desire, the lust, the hunger for the forbidden, and the yearning for the dark all added to the grime and filth that stained my soul.

The knowledge I had gained hadn't helped me in the end, it had only tainted with what I used to be; pure and good.

Sin filled me then, and I knew I would never be the same again.

Author's note:

Wow- that was an especially hard chapter to write considering how dark I had to make Robin become in the in the end. But don't despair my friends, he's still fighting with the only glimmer of light in his soul he has left. This is not the ending to this story, as I told you, even though the ending to this chapter did seem a little depressing and disheartening. Chapter Four is titled "To Pluck the Fruit".

Special Note: (When I typed special in my computer here, the computer wanted me to type in "Special delivery" :snickers: Sorry. Humph, it sounded funny at the time.) No matter if you already sent in a review, more are always welcome when new chapters come out. (Considering the fact that this story will really have few because of the high rating it has.)

Ultra Special Note: Right now I'm listening to Rammstein, and trying desperately not to hum "Feuer Frei!" and "ICH WILL". Damn German singers- the songs get stuck in my head way too easy. Oh and my plea remains the same; Do your part, Boycott Wal-Mart. Also: Three cheers guys- they're having the Olympics in London! Yippee! No crepes or fancy French wines there lol. Nope, only filled pubs, comfort food, and great ale.

With regards and even more random comments, hoping by some miracle you'll review-
I'll see you in the Ninth Level Of hell-
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