Disclaimer: I don't own Robin, Raven, or any other Teen Titans, nor do I own the show.

Summery: This might be the end of this story:SCREAMS: GOD WHY? WHY DO ALL GOOD THINGS END? OH THE MUTINY!

:Laughs: Nah- just kidding. I had you going there didn't I? Next Chapter there will be and epilogue, I'm sure I'll write one for you all. lol. As you all know, this chapter is called "To Taste It's Luscious Inside", So we all know it's going to have explicit content. It's really no wonder I have the rating in this story all the way up to M for mature. (Though that's funny considering the fact I myself am not that mature. I mean Really, I laughed two times at that thing in my special note about Special delivery. Ironic eh? Mature these days means nothing.)

Anyway, I'm going to get on with this chapter, because really, wouldn't you just rather read that? Here it is, Chapter 5 Of "Forbidden Fruit";

((Chapter 5))
"To Taste Its Luscious Inside"

CXLVII
"My Love is a fever, Longing still
For that which longer nurseth the disease,
Feeding on that which doth preserve the ill,
Th' uncertain sickly appetite to please.
My reason, the physician to my love,
Angry that his prescriptions are not kept,
Hath left, and I desperate now approve
Desire is death, which physic did not except.
Past cure I am, now reason is past care,
And frantic-mad with evermore unrest;
My thoughts and my discourse as madman's cre,
At random from the truth vainly express'd;

For I have sworn thee Fair and thought Thee bright,
Who art as black as Hell, as dark as Night."

-William Shakespeare-

She told no one. Not one word of our encounter ever escaped her lips in the following days and weeks, and she didn't even mention it to me once. Even when she had the chance, even when the newly regenerated and joyful StarFire mentioned my disappearance once, Raven never moved to raise suspicion.

Somehow, it seemed to me that she swallowed her tongue in respect and fear. Of Course she didn't want me to tell the other Titans about her and the Czar. That part was obvious. But also, in a way, I felt that she respectfully kept my secret, because I kept all of hers. But were these her real reasons for keeping quite? I couldn't be sure. Raven was still such a mystery to me, that everything seemed so unknown.

The days rushed by quickly, all seemingly the same as the next. Not a word of my disappearances was said. Suddenly, I found myself going into a routine that I became accustomed to. Startlingly very accustomed to; Days as Robin- Nights as the dark NightWing. To me, it was as if I was living two separate lives, not one alone.

And throughout this, Raven and I barely talked, only silently with glances, while the other Titans went about their daily routines of video games, movies, training, and such.

What seemed so sad about the course of events is that then, one could have mistaken everything for normal. But things between Raven and myself were far from normal. Not to mention between StarFire and I. And recently, with Beast Boy's declaration of Raven's love, things had just gotten weirder and more uncomfortable. The only person in that Tower I could talk to then comfortably was Cyborg, who really didn't want to get involved in it all. Though I guess he was trying to avoid the friction occurring because of the secret relationship he had had with Jinx that had recently become public. Tension between everyone was high.

But on a night so dark and dreary, the sky a near black-clouded mess, all of the Titans decided to put aside their differences for one night, and tried to get along. To me, it seemed like everything was going to work out between all of the other Titans. In my mind however, I doubted Raven would ever look at me without scowling.

"It was all StarFire's idea, I swear!" I said half laughing as StarFire shoved a spoonful of her pudding of friendship into everyone's faces. Beast Boy's face turned a bright red as he tried desperately to hold the pudding down, but ended up running to the bathroom in a hurry. As it turned out, Star Fire felt that all of the Titans needed to "Stop the unfriendliness", and the only way to solve this was through her pudding.

"Oh God! Get that away from me!" Cyborg yelled as he stepped away from the smiling StarFire who was holding a spoon and a giant bowl filled with a yellowish colored muck. I was glad StarFire and I had made up early that day and decided to be friends again. At Least I didn't have to eat that damn pudding. If only I could have repaired my relationship with Raven as well so that she would stop staring daggers at me.

"Friend Cyborg- come back!" StarFire said unhappily walking after him. At this point Beast Boy came back from expelling the horrid tasting pudding from his mouth and was looking rather sick.

"Don't sit next to me." Raven said when Beast Boy scotched next to her on the couch. Suddenly, to me, he didn't look too sick anymore.

"Aw Come on Raven- You know you like me!" Beast Boy said laughing and smirking. Inside of me, Jealousy raged.

"Beast Boy, she said don't sit next to her. You were just sick, maybe it's not a good idea." I said with the best 'I'm-The-Leader' voice I could muster. Truthfully, I just wanted him away from Raven. Beast Boy hesitantly got off the couch, only after seeing Raven give me a nod of approval.

"Alright ya all." Cyborg said as he took the last of StarFire's pudding of friendship, pretended to eat it, then spat it out in the sink when StarFire wasn't looking. "Tonight we all need some relaxation from the job- Lets PARTY!"

"Yea Dude!" Beast Boy said jumping up. "We're goin' clubbing….We're goin' clubbing…." He chanted while half dancing. In response across the room behind her book, Raven only shook her head.

"Oh I wish to come!" StarFire said dropping her bowl.

"Count me in!" Beast Boy agreed. I inwardly smiled at the scene. Once again, our team was it's old self.

"I'd rather stay here and meditate." Raven scoffed as she hid her face behind her book.

"Fine then- its just Star, BB, Rob, and Me then…" Cyborg started before I interrupted.

"Actually I'm working a lead for one of our cases, and I might be out late tonight," I lied "You guys go out and have some Fun." Swiftly I turned and left the room, but not before receiving a scornful look from Raven. She was the only one who knew truly what I was doing later on.

"So it's only us three, so what?" Cyborg said laughing and still smiling. "Lets go party!"

"Alright!" Beast Boy agreed, as he, Cyborg, and StarFire all walked out of the Tower. Headed for the clubs of the city, I knew they were off for a night of entertainment. Sadly enough, I wished I could have gone with them, but I knew my night shift started soon.

Quickly I walked to my room, changed, and headed out for yet another night of crime fighting. It all seemed so normal and usual- the sky that night so customary. But I knew something was different about that night, as I flew through the sky. I knew somehow, with the rain that was to come- change would come as well.

Cold, wet raindrops pelted the city from the sky that night, showering it, and drenching it to the core. They all fell so swiftly and quickly; it took me a short while to realize that a big storm had moved in. Great rumbles of thunder, amassed with bright streaks of lightning made me aware that soon I would have to go home. I kicked blue mumbo who was still on the ground and grabbed his wand and broke it into pieces.

"I thought this was broken awhile ago." I mumbled to him as I threw the left over pieces far away in the street behind me. It was broken far beyond repair anyway. Faintly, I heard the mumbo say something in a depressed sad tone along the lines of, "No….not my wand," and in response, I thrust my metal boots into his side.

"Do something with your life besides rob banks and cause havoc. Get a life Mumbo." I spat out annoyed.

"Who are you…?" he questioned looking up.

"If you really cared you wouldn't be sitting their crying over your stupid little toy." I answered as I walked away. Somehow, when I dealt with crooks during the nighttime, my cheesy one-liners disappeared. Only my disgust showed through. I felt bad for these people, whose whole lives revolved around sins and transgressions. If only they knew there was a better way.

Bombarded with the giant Raindrops, I made my way back home to the Tower, the sky above me blackening. The air was thick and humid, even as the downpour of drops continued. All I could think about was my own sins, and my own transgressions, which lately I had felt so free from. But when my mind came back to Raven, I realized I was still at fault. Perhaps I needed to make up with her and apologize…Perhaps I needed to repair our friendship as well. …

In the darkness of the Tower living room, I bumped into a body and fell backwards. "Watch where you're going!" I heard a familiar voice say.

"Well if you were a normal human being you'd turn on the lights when you are in a room so people wouldn't bump into you." I said angrily.

"If you were normal you'd stop sneaking out at night!" Raven hissed as she turned around and switched on the light.

"What do you know about normal?"

"A lot more than you, NIGHTWING." Raven ridiculed, as she specifically accentuated the word 'NightWing'. Fury rose within me. There I was, coming home to apologize, when she right off the bat insulted me. Who did she think she was? And further more, how did she know about what the criminals called me out on the streets? I should have known she would investigate the matter further after she found out about my night disappearances. Like me, she had to logically come to conclusive answers.

"Shut Up." I angrily snapped as I tried to control my temper. Like Last time, I was one the verge of exploding. "You know, I don't know why I even thought I could say sorry to you at all or even apologize!" I said as I turned and walked over to the couch. Behind me, Raven stood, shocked and speechless. Rare to me it was that she couldn't say a word. I turned my head and saw her that way, and my mind was stunned.

"What?" I asked as she continued to stare at me, with her mouth slightly opened. Finally she spoke, but not after closing her mouth and reassuming her customary composure.

"Speak before I decide not to listen." She said in her dark voice as she hovered over to the couch and sat on the other side. Outside of the Tower, thunder sounded as she continued to look at me, but now with a calm collected, yet icy cold expression. Her face was that of medusa, so chilling and livid I was afraid to look her way, otherwise I feared I might have turned into stone. I averted my eyes in the other direction.

"I wanted to apologize for the way I've been treating you these past 3 months." I started, feeling like I should with Raven in her current state. Even though I was angry, I knew I had to get all of this out. "I guess I should start by telling you about what's really been going on, I'm sure you've been wondering."

"Yes. Yes I have." Raven said looking down at her lap, her arms folded. She was quietly sitting there, her eyes diverted, and her expressionless face painted on. I took a deep breath and tried to hold in my anger, pushing it inside. I needed to tell her everything.

"It all started with the Czar." I sighed as I began. "He was the one who originally sent me into this downward spiral. Do you remember that last fight we had with him Raven?" I asked turning to her.

"Yes." She said after many countless moments, though the word seemed to have come out painfully.

"At that fight, he said something to me, about me wanting you because you were forbidden. Both you and I dismissed him as a pervert. And he was. But the fact is, ever since that comment I've had dreams about you, and I've liked you as more then a team mate, and as more than a friend." I paused once more and looked over at her, her face a blank slate. I knew this was how she'd take this- unemotionally. What had I expected, an "I love you" declaration back? Silence was her only answer, so I continued on.

"With these dreams, I was at first horrified. I was in a relationship with StarFire at the time. So I went to see the Czar, thinking he was the cause of the dreams. But he wasn't, I soon found that out. In fact, I found out way too much, and I learned of your relationship with him as well. Now my only question is why. Why did you do those things with him?" I asked. Looking over at Raven, I saw her stone cold eyes held themselves carefully, trying desperately not to reveal anything. But inside of them, a glint of sadness pierced through, mixed with agonizing pain.

"He was like Malichior. A real live, Malichior Wizard, almost a double. Wild, intense, yet so stunningly charming, he held the same characteristics. He was wise and intelligent, handsome and powerful. I fell for his flattery. Once again I was tricked." She bitterly spat out as she remembered. "All he really wanted was to use me. All he really wanted from our forbidden love was touch- nothing else."

'I'm so sorry Raven." I said, looking down at my lap. I knew the pain in her eyes was real. "Two times must have been hell. To be tricked two times…" I trailed off looking outside into the rainy city. Drops feel heavily against the Titans Tower's windows.

"You're not sorry." She alleged coldly, looking away from me. "You understand nothing of pain. You have no idea how I feel. In fact, in my case, you do not comprehend, nor have you felt the emotion I try desperately to block out and not feel at all. Desire and Lust are sins Robin, and last time I checked, I wasthe only one drowning in them."

"I…I…." I stuttered, my anger surging. I DID know what it was to feel so much pain. Didn't she understand that! Couldn't she take at least one moment and realize that I cared? Standing there, my fists clenched at my sides, I could hardly control me anger, until finally, I snapped. "You Bitch." I finally managed to say, standing up. "You fucking bitch. Can't you take that great intellect of yours and put it to some use!" I yelled as I threw my hands up into the air. "For Months I loved you- I've lusted for you! I've even tried desperately to understand how you feel and try to ease the pain the Czar inflicted upon you. But no- you're so damn caught up in your own misery that you can't see that at all!" I was frantic now, pacing back and forth in front of a very shocked Raven, who until then had never seen me so angry and upset. Though she didn't show it immensely, her shock was present in her slightly widened eyes.

Silently she sat however, not saying one word. "Well listen up Raven! You're not the only one struggling with pain. You're not the only one who struggles with the darkness they have within themselves. YOU'RE NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO FEELS ALONE! The universe doesn't revolve around you, you're not the only one who feels deep despair!" I shouted in her face, my whole mind fuming. Even as I had this break down- she just sat there, sitting mutely.

"I was crushed Raven." I told her, lowering my voice. Finally, after all of that, I began to calm down. "After I found out about the Czar and you. I realized it was sick of me to think of you in such dirty ways, and decided the sin in me had grown too much. I broke up with StarFire, and made this new suit, in hopes of making up for my sin. I'm not such a good person anymore Raven, I'm not who you think. All of the darkness within me I've suppressed over the years has caught up with me. I'm fighting against it. You may think you're the only one- but you're not. "

I stopped then, and took a breath. I at last had told her everything I had wanted. But when she just sat there and nodded, my eyes grew faint. I knew this was how it all would go. Inwardly, I already knew she didn't feel any of this for me at all. Like a cold ice statue, the ice queen Raven just sat there, soundless. I had poured my soul out to her, yet it did nothing to warm her wintry heart of ice.

Turning, I began to walk away, deep despair filling me. But as I did, her voice broke through, dark as always, but this time with a hint of pain. "My father was Trigon, the most evil demon ever to live. He raped my mother and made her give birth to me. I was spawned of evil."

So this was how she would respond. I hadn't expected anything more, just her understanding.

"Yes. You told me of this much." I said, nodding.

"Then listen up Robin." Raven directed. "I want you to listen very carefully." Getting up from her seat on the red couch, she walked over to me, and stood inches away. "I am made of evil- I am made of darkness, you must understand this. But you are right. It was selfish of me to think that I alone feel these feelings and emotions. Despair is what comes to me naturally however, because of my purpose in life; true evil and vice. I was only made for evil purposes, and my powers are such that I must hide everything so that none of you; my friends, get hurt. You must remember this." She paused then, and took yet another step closer to me.

"What you also must remember is that the darkness is who we are, no matter how much we want to fight it. Our daily struggles define who we are. Sometimes the darkness we have is good, and sometimes it's evil. We both are half and half. I see this now within you. "

"What I've also failed to realize is that from the day I met you, I've liked you." Raven acknowledged. Her lips finally curved upwards in a slight smile. "But I have a feeling things would never work out between us, because of who I am. In fact I am certain of this" She said turning away. Her smile faded, as she tried to walk away.

"Wait," I pleaded, reaching out. I grabbed her right arm and pulled her back towards me.

"I was afraid to do what I knew was forbidden; love you. But now that I know you feel the same…"

"Who said it was forbidden to love me?" Raven asked, her lips that had once smiled now forming into a frown.

"Well… you!" I explained. "You said you couldn't have and express the natural feelings all of us do, because of your powers. If you did your powers would surge out of control. I wanted to respect that."

"And you have, to a certain point. What you forget here Robin is that you never told me any of this. You never took the chance at all. However, even with this chance, nothing good would come of us together."

"Why not?" I questioned, my soul struggling to keep from crashing from the sky.

"I like you Robin- yet I do not understand why you would choose me over someone like StarFire. The reason a relationship with me would never workout is because everything would always seem so cold. I would only be there for you in the darkness…" Raven provided. "Expressing the way I felt would only happen in slight smiles and muddled comments, whispers and kisses. Only under a shield conjured from my powers could I ever truly express my feelings to you."

"And what of darkness haven't I already seen?" I said smiling, as I took a step towards her. Seductively, I took my hand and brushed her inner thigh, reveling in the touch itself. "I wouldn't mind living in the darkness with you…"

"You would hate it…" she started, frowning, her eyes downcast and her spirit in shambles. "You wouldn't like the darkness at all…"

"I think differently." I murmured, as I brushed her cheek with my left hand. Like what I had always imagined, her skin was soft and yielding. "I would revel in it."

"No- you would cower…" she argued. But before she could finish her sentence, my lips were upon hers, my body pressing close. Sparks traveled through our lips, as we both reeled in what we thought never could have happened. Slowly, after some time, I drew back and smiled.

" I would enjoy the darkness of the night with you, not cower in its wake."

At that same time- we both realized, no matter how impossible it seemed, neither of us cared anymore. Consequences didn't matter. The restrictions weren't a bother. Love, though unattainable as it had once seemed now was within our grasp. Raven began to let go of her will- though still fiercely it still stood.

"What is it about darkness others don't understand?" I asked plainly.

"The fact that it feels as well." Raven said as she took both of her hands and drew my face closer to hers. She pulled her lips to mine in a passionate kiss, and once again electricity ran through my body. Pushing her down onto the couch, I unclasped her cloak and threw it aside, my smile widening.

Lighting lit the room once more, as moment's later thunder sounded. Conveniently, in some way, the lights around us were suddenly out, draping us both in the darkness. Raven murmured a surprised response. "Don't look at me," she grinned seductively, as she wove around us a shield, to stop her powers from escaping and wrecking havoc on the Tower and city.

Somehow, the night became even more alluring to the both of us right then, its mysterious shadows tempting us more. Only the lights from the city far below us illuminated our forms, as Raven took off my cloak and belt. Lifting gently, she tugged off my shirt, and kissed my neck with her gentle yet luscious lips. Her hands stroked my body, massaging my back and chest, and even my shoulders. My skin tingled with her touch.

After thinking for a moment, I smiled, and began to yank down the top of her leotard, past her large breasts, and to her waist where I stopped. She nodded approvingly, letting me go on. I brought my head down to her face and kissed her neck lightly, up to her ear. Biting tentatively, I whispered to her, "Do you have any idea how long it's been since the sin first infested me, and how many times I've dreamed of this reality?"

"How do you know that all of this isn't just a dream?" Raven in a lowered voice replied, as she began to unbuckle my pants.

"I don't." I answered as I brought my kisses down from her neck to her collarbone, and continued to lower them. Past her shoulders, I went straight for her left breast, licking it and sucking it until it grew hard. I heard a slight moan escape Raven's lips, as she pulled down my pants in response.

"Maybe it is." Raven proposed as I grabbed her right tit and massaged.

"Then if it is," I started when Raven slid my pants the rest of the way off and threw them to the ground. "Let me never wake from it." I said as I pulled down her leotard more. With this I melted at her touch, the rest of the night both of our hearts a blaze. We were like two dark birds; our wings broken and our feathers pulled. So lost and abandoned, no one would touch our scarred souls.

But that night, the white marks where our blood wounds had once been turned into the pinnacles of our passion. Our blemishes and wounds opened, not to hurt again, but to be healed.

That night our scars finally became beautiful….

For Countless Minutes later, we lay there, completely naked, unaware of the world around us, because of the bliss we had just experienced. I held her close to my body, and listened to her every breath as she lay against me.

"They're going to be home any minute." Raven warned me, but didn't move.

"What do you think they'd say?" I asked reaching over, grabbing the articles of clothes on the floor and bundling them up in a heap.

"Well Beast Boy would sure have a cow." Raven sighed, shifting in my arms.

"Or turn into one." I laughed. Raven looked up and smiled at me. It was the first time I had ever seen her smile at anyone's jokes, let alone mine.

"Well then perhaps we should hide somewhere else for when they arrive." Raven advised, as she reached up and grabbed a hold of me. With a quick black flash later, we were in her room, on her bed, still in each other's arms. I threw the bundle of clothes I had on the floor and crawled under the warm blankets with Raven.

"Raven." I said aloud in the darkness.

"Yes?"

"I Love you." I declared. "I never realized it before, but the Eden I was in with StarFire was ignorant. I was happy- not knowing what truly lay a world outside. Outside of those gates- you were there, to show me true love without judgment. To show me darkness could be good."

"Sometimes misfortune turns out to be unbelievable luck." Raven pointed out, looking up at me. "Sometimes exploring what you know little about brings about surprising changes. With you- I knew that your soul never changed throughout this- it only revealed itself truthfully. Behind the façade, all along- I knew the true you."

"Why did you never tell me?" I questioned, "Why did you never point out who I really was?"

"Can a person tell a man his skills are obsolete, and expect him to believe him? Can a moth tell a fly not to fly into the spiders web and believe the fly will listen?" she beseeched. "If I had told you- you would have brushed me off and never have believed me. Just as the fly, you had to find out on your own that what you really were on the inside. You and to find your true self, by yourself." She finished explaining to me.

"Your darkness is like mine, evil yet good. We both are half shade and half shadow Robin. You are made of such good…. it warms my soul." Raven acknowledged

"Yes but you my Raven, must remember, you chill my soul."

"Is that a bad thing you suppose?" she queried.

"No. With you- it never is." I answered truthfully. "Like fire I burn, and Like Ice you freeze. Together we relieve our own sensations. We heal our own broken bodies and souls." I pulled her closer to me, as once more I drew in her scent, that of the lotus I had once dreamed off. But this was not a dream. This calming sensation I felt was not my imagination. With Raven with me I felt this way, with her I felt at ease. Not only did our bodies become one, but so did our souls in a way. Somehow, I felt as if I knew exactly what she was thinking, and she me.

I drew my fingers threw her lavender hair, my mind finally at ease. We could fight this darkness within us together, and reveal in what darkness we knew was good. Alone I had felt vulnerable and filled with sin, but together with Raven I felt strong not weak, and cleansed. My soul soared, as she kissed me once more.

Author's Note:

MY GOD. I CAN'T BELIEVE I ACTUALLY FINISHED THIS CHAPTER. :breathes in and out, but then looks at clock: Oh crap. It's Four A.M. right now, damnit. See what I sacrifice for you all?

Chapter 5 is finally Up Ya All- So Grab your partner and Dose E' Doe. Swing um' round and upside down. :;Scared I even typed that: Whoa. It REALLY is late in the night. I mean er- morning. Ah well. Reviews for this chapter are accepted and questions can be answered. I might consider posting and Epilogue, IF I get enough reviews. SO REVIEW, and vote for 555-666-777-Epilogue. (AinoMinako, don't actually call that number. lol.)

Special Note: This might actually be my last special note for this story. :cries: Ah well. To hell with it. Do your Part Boycott Wal-Mart. Listen to H.I.M. because they're just awesome. Drink TAZO tea, it's relaxing and luxurious. Type O negative Rules, Cell Phones are annoying; Poker's fun if you're winning, and spiders are beautiful. Oh- one last thing- Karma is a bitch. Remember that when you're pushing that little kid off the swing. Karma ALWAYS gets to you. Think boomerang baby- boomerang.

Ultra Special Note: Here's some advise; Eat something healthy man. I remember when I was younger I used to eat all the junk food crap- until I watched some documentary, so now I don't eat junk food at all. It really messes your body up for later in life. REALLY. Believe me. I don't eat bad food often because when I'm 50 I don't want to be sitting there with 20 pounds of extra weight, close to having a heart attack, with high blood pressure, and high cholesterol, while weird nurses keep sticking needles in me. I don't want to live like that man. When I'm 50 I want to be on top of the world- some crazy old lady who travels around and meets random people. Yea. Just saying.

:looks up at notes and shakes head in despair: Tis' just sad. REVIEW.
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