I didn't go to school today as my fingers were swollen up really bad, so mom though I should leave it for the day. There I was thinking maybe she was changing, seen as she has been nice over the past few days, but I never realised I was playing straight into her hands by staying off school. As I have already said there was always going to be a reason for why she was being nice, and I found out what it was today.
After she rang up school and told them I wasn't coming in, she decided to take Cazzy on a walk. She went out with her and so I went back to bed, but about fifteen minutes after she had left Dave came round. I'm not stupid, and it is pretty obvious that the two planned it together. Anyway, I got up to let Dave in, and he decided that he wanted to have a chat with me.
He told me that seen as I'm 15, its about time I get a job. I told him that I probably will in the summer holidays, but he started going on about how he can help me out right now. He says that a friend of his is looking for someone to help sell some things, and that he himself has been doing it for a few months and has made a lot of money from it.
He also said that I could sell it at school, which is why he is telling me now so I can try sell some before we break up for the holidays. After he rambled on for half an hour on about all the benefits of working for him, I asked him what I'd be selling.
He started talking crap about how it may sound and even look bad to people, but the fact is I'd only be selling it and nothing else. Eventually he got round to telling me that it was coke; and maybe something stronger, if I do well and get rid of the first set of stuff!
Can you believe him, he wants me to sell his drugs to earn him some money. When he told me I started laughing and told him to forget it, I wasn't going near any of his shit. He started getting angry, about how I was ungrateful, he is only trying to help me get some extra money. Sure, that's all he wants. I told him he can forget about me doing anything for him, and that he can tell his twisted sister the same thing.
He then decided to bring up the stupid chair thing, how he had to lend my mom the $20, as if bringing that up is going to change my mind. I told him that I'll get a legal job in the holidays and pay her back. He didn't like that I hadn't fallen for his so called 'dream' job offer. He is either really screwed up inside of thinks I'm really stupid. As if I'd sell his drugs, to earn him some money. I'd be stupid to work for him anyway cos its not like he would ever pay me.
He stormed off after an hour, fuming that I wouldn't do it, cos I'm an ungrateful brat. When mom came in later we had a massive argument, and I told her that if she wants some money, she needs to get off her ass and get a job, but I'm not doing it for her. She acted all hurt and everything, claiming she was only thinking of me. Sure she was, in a deranged way, but somehow I don't think most mothers would want their son dealing drugs, the people I know wouldn't, anyway.
I stopped at Jimmy's in the end, as every time I saw her she started on about it again, and I had to get out of the house or I'd go crazy. She is unbelievable, making out that I am in the wrong for not doing it! I can't believe her cheek, she really is something else. Maybe when I'm older I will send her somewhere to get her head checked out, it would be worth every penny to see just how much is missing in their!
Jack.