I got up this morning with Caz, as usual. After getting her sorted out I set off to Barns early. I got their about five minutes before and when he saw me in the waiting room he told me that I may as well start the session early as his last patient had missed his appointment. I felt stupid when he spoke about his 'patient,' does that mean I'm one as well? It sounds embarrassing, its not like I'm sick in a hospital or something.
When we went in his office I waited for him to shut the door before I apologised for my abrupt exit on Thursday. I said that I had a lot of stuff going on and wasn't in a good mood. He smiled, as though he was actually pleased I said sorry, and asked if I wanted to talk about the 'stuff' which was pissing me off. I didn't. He didn't seem overly concerned, just nodded his head as usual and pushed his glasses back up to the top of his nose before they slipped down again like they always do.
We did all of the usual things for a while before he told me that he had been thinking about referring me to someone else for a while. I asked him if it was good or bad, and he said neither, it was all progress in the long run. I hate people like him, why can't they give a straight forward answer, instead of talking in riddles all of the time?
Anyway, he said that someone would be sitting in on our next session, if I didn't mind that was, which I said I didn't. He said it was nothing to worry about, and would only be a one off. The rest of the session went okay, more stupid exercises to control my temper, (like they will ever work) and then more boring questions. I am not looking forward to next session though, its hard enough talking to Barns, I don't think I'll be answering any of his questions with someone else listening in.
I went home after that and got changed, into something a little tidier. I got my $20 from its hiding place, and met Terri. She got their a few minutes after me and we talked for a bit. She looked really fit, she was only wearing jeans and some sort of top thing, but she still looked really nice in it - I didn't tell her that I thought that though, I don't want to scare her away!
I asked what she wanted to do and we settled on going to see a movie. I asked what she wanted to see and tried not to frown when she suggested Dodgeball. I was like, 'okay cool,' and so we went. I paid for her ticket when we got their and she giggled and said thanks, which I think is a good sign. The film wasn't too bad I guess, it was just stupid humour; and I guess it was better than having to sit through a chick flick!
After the movie I walked her home again, but we went the long way this time, both of us were talking non-stop. She was going on about her older brothers and school, I told her about my new job which she thought was cool. She liked to ask me questions about the rumours shes herd about me having to go to therapy. I told her I go twice a week, and I guess she realised I wasn't really wanting to talk about it as she changed the subject. When we got to her house I hadn't even realised that we were holding hands! She said thanks to me and kissed me on the cheek, before asking if we could do it again, soon. She sounded pretty eager to me, but then I guess I did too, I've never known a girl like her before, she's not annoying like all of the others.
We decided that we would meet up on Friday night, just hang out. Before I left we kissed again, a proper one this time, before she said night and skipped up her yard! I couldn't believe it,, my stomach felt as though it had butterflies fluttering around inside it after that!!
When I got in Zack was asking where I'd been but I blanked him and went upstairs. I don't have time for idiots like him! I know I still haven't told mom about the job, I'll tell her tomorrow! I still can't stop thinking about Terri, its weird but its nice too. I just can't wait until Friday!
Jack.