Wednesday 11 August.

Today has been... interesting.

It started with me waking up by hearing something smash. I herd the noise and got up wondering what was going off as I could hear lots of arguing. After checking on Cazzy who slept right through it I went downstairs to see Dave and Zack shouting at each other threateningly, and mom stood in between the struggling to keep them apart. It looked like they were trying to rip each others throats out from where I was stood. I went in and they acted as though I weren't there, still threatening each other and trying to get past my mom. I went up to help but Zack told me to stay out of it. So I did, no point getting in the middle of something to do with those, its not like I like either of them anyway, they can try hurt each other as much as they like for all I care.

Finally Dave left, and Zack shouted after him that he had better watch him back. Dave shouted some other comments then slammed the door after him. Zack stormed upstairs saying how he was late for work. Before he left he glared at my mom, and blanked me completely. Once we were alone I asked what it was about and mom burst into tears. I took her into the room and tried to calm her down, but she was really upset. After a few minutes she asked me to go to the shop and get her some cigs. I started laughing, but she gave me a look that told me she wasn't in the mood for it. So I left it, I didn't want to upset her even more!

I got dressed and went and got her cigs, which she instantly lit up and began pulling on, as though it would make everything better. I again asked her what was happening between Dave and Zack, and she said it was nothing, just a misunderstanding. I took the hint that she wasn't going to tell me so I stopped asking.

Before I went out she asked me not to tell Zack she had started smoking again, he would be mad at her as she was doing so well. I nodded before leaving. I couldn't trust myself to talk as I knew I'd probably erupt into some speech about how Zack can stick the cigs up his ass, its up to you what you do, he has no say in anything, blah blah blah. I didn't waste my breath though, as I knew it would be a waste of time, she wouldn't listen.

I went out, still a little miffed about the whole Zack thing, but I just had to put it to the back of my mind for the time being. I went up to the top field and some of the lads were there so we had a game of football. It was okay, but their wasn't enough people for a proper game, so we left it after a while. I found Jimmy round the park and he came up to mine and we watched some T.V.

When Zack came in he said we were being too loud, he was tired from working all day and this was the last thing he wanted to come home to. I told him that maybe he should go back to his own home then, which was when mom quickly intervened before it escalated. Once we were back out Jimmy was like, who is that ass?, which made me laugh. At least I'm not the only one who knows it.

Jack.