When I got up this morning and mom wasn't in, and neither was Cazzy. I went downstairs and watched the news, but there was nothing interesting on. Zack came down shortly afterwards and started asking me where mom was, I told him I didn't know, and he started getting wound up, asking where she could be and stuff. He asked me to go round to Daves and see if she was there, and if she was to make sure she came home straight away.
I didn't want to start something and I was going to go see if mom was at Daves, but I am not having him tell my mom what to do. I told him to go find her himself, and he got even angrier, saying how I am not in charge, he is. He must have been real mad about something, as he was being nice to me yesterday, something must have really narked him off. Anyway, I started laughing when he said that, and told him that no one is in charge of me or my mom, so he should go somewhere where people will listen to him. I wasn't trying to aggravate him, I was just defending my mom really. I dont understand him, someday he is okay and others he is ready to blow up at the tiniest thing.
He stormed off upstairs again, and when he came back down he said he was sorry for going off on me, and to tell mom he is looking for her if I see her. I was like, 'sure.' I guess he didn't really need to apologise, it was me too, but I didn't tell him that, I'll let him feel guilty!
Mom came home later with Cazzy, she had stopped at Daves. I asked why and got no answer. I told her Zack was looking for her and got no response. I asked if she was okay and she told me to stop nagging her, then she went to bed, she said she was tired. She didn't look too well, she was pale and looked tired, her eyes were red like she was trying to keep them open. I stayed in and sorted Cazy out, tried to teach her to say Jack. It didn't work, she still isn't talking, she just wails at me laughing and pulls at my face.
I met up with Terri too, as planned. We walked around the streets, just taking really. We ended up sat on the 106 steps, and stayed there most of the night. Its really weird, I can talk and talk to her about anything and everything, more than I can with anyone else. I dont know why, I just can. She was telling me about her family, her 3 older brothers, and I told her about Caz. She got real excited when she realised I have a little baby sister, and asked if she could see her some time. I said I take her out for walks all the time, so she should come one day. I would have invited her round but didn't think it would be such a good idea, who knows what mood mom and Zack are going to be in, and I'm not going to risk letting them scare her away!
I walked her home again, but didn't get a kiss this time! Instead, it was a phone number, which I guess is just as good, if not better, isn't it? I know I haven't got a cell phone, but I'm going to save up for one as soon as I can. She said to text her when I fancy going for that walk with Carol, and I said I would. I'll just ring her from the pay phone one day.
When I got home Zack was out, and mom was ready for bed again! She had only been up 3 hours while I was out, and she was zonked, I don't know what's wrong with her. I played with Cazzy all night, let her make a big mess with her toys and her building blocks. Zack came in late and was really drunk, he was falling all over, I had to help him up the stairs. He went straight to bed. I don't know what was up with him either, I've never seen him that drunk before. Something is definitely up, and I intend to find out what.
Jack.