Chapter 5: Lavender Hearts.

"Harry, you ready?" Lav asked.

"Yeah babe… Hang on one more minute. I'm almost ready," Harry said nervously. "Okay, I'm ready." He walked out and Lavender gasped.

"I thought we were going to… Harry, are you?… I'm confused." Lav spluttered.

"Lav, you know how you got the hint that I was cheating with someone else too?" Harry asked. Here it comes. This is what Draco said to do. Its my funeral…

"Who is it Harry?" Lav asked, suddenly all serious. "Tell me. No, don't tell me. I don't want to know. I want to be with you Harry. That's all I want."

"Its Ginny. But Lav, I don't think you can be with me. I don't love Ginny, or Cho, or-," Harry said before he was interrupted.

"If you don't love them then why can't we work out?" Lav said in a tone that was clearly full of jealousy and rage. Crap Harry thought.

"Because I don't love you either. I was using you and Ginny to convince myself that I did love Cho. I know it doesn't make sense but in a way I kind of thought cheating on her would make me fell guilty and realize that I really did love Cho. And yeah I felt guilty but not guilty enough. I think… I know I love someone but I don't know who," Harry said.

"Fuck you," Lav said out of pure rage. "Fuck you, fuck Ginny, and fuck Cho." Harry was shocked. "I don't ever want to see your disgusting face again, you filthy little man-whore."

"Umm… Lavender, I didn't want-," Harry choked.

"DON'T EVEN CONSIDER YOURSELF WORTHY OF SPEAKING MY NAME DAMNIT. DISGUSTING PIECE OF FILTH! I DON'T KNOW WHY I EVER LOVED YOU." Lav screamed. "Get out. Get out NOW!"

With Ginny in the ROR

"Harry what are you saying?" Ginny asked.

"I'm saying that I can't be with you."

"Why?"

"Because I don't love you," Harry said, stony. If Lav was that bad Harry didn't want to see how bad the daughter of Molly Weasley would react to this. So he took the stony route.

Ginny started crying. "But I love you Harry," she said. "I thought that was enough."

"I've got to go." Harry left. Why am I so disgusting? He thought.

In the dormitory

Harry lay on the bed all by himself. He still hadn't the nerve to break up with Cho. Partially because he still didn't know who it was that made him feel complete. He had the feeling almost all the time. But he was around girls all the time, too. When he didn't have that feeling, he was with a guy, like Ron. So this didn't make sense. He made a checklist on a piece of paper.

The Girls

HermioneNo

Parvarti

PadmaNo

PansyHell no

He noticed how he left one and only one blank as he finished the list of all the girls in the entire seventh year. Parvarti. I've never really seriously considered being with her. He thought. But he realized how he enjoyed spending time with her almost as much as he enjoyed spending time with Ron and Hermione. He remembered last quidditch game how he noticed her cheering hard for him in the stands, a few seats away from Ron and Hermione. He smiled. Okay. Now, for Cho.

The next day

"Cho! Cho! Wait up!" Harry called. "Cho, I need to talk to you."

A/N

Muahahaha you'll never read about the interaction… But next chapter… you might find out if he can get Parvarti. Not much longer in the story now… Only a couple more chapters left I think. I dunno, I guess I''m not good at writing stories. But oh well…

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