I didn't go to see Terri today. I contemplated it in the morning, but I ended up at Jimmy's house instead of hers. Jimmy's mom Laura let me in as I waited for Jimmy to get dressed, she didn't mention her breakdown to me the other day and neither did I. I think that will be one of those unspoken things between us, well its not exactly like anything can be said anyway.
Me and Jimmy met up with Rob but we couldn't find anyone else. We played soccer between us, seeing who could keep the ball for the longest seen as there were so few of us. I hoped we could just play all day as it was the last official day of the summer holidays, Monday is a teacher training day, and its back to school come Tuesday, I'm already dreading it. After awhile we got bored though. We went back to Jimmy's and played on his computer a while but then the power went out, which pretty much sucked.
I went home, mom and Cazzy were playing in the kitchen. Before I even asked about Zack mom told me that he had stumbled in the morning, looks like he went on a two day drinking bender. She told me he wanted to see me but I didn't bother going into there room. I'm still mad about the phone issue, I might have stopped myself from reacting once but I don't know if I could do it again.
There was a letter still in its envelope on my dresser, addressed to my mom, she forgot to mention it to me. I guessed she left it there for a reason so I read it, it was from him again, Gary his name is. The so called 'father.' I read it through but the words didn't really sink in, more rubbish about how its not fair that my mom isn't letting me meet him. He really thinks that I have no idea about any of this, I think that's what is so sad about the whole thing. I folded it up and put it with the other one at the back of my dresser drawer.
Mom never even asked me about it, I'm guessing she forgot. It doesn't matter, I didn't want to talk about it. I went out for a walk because it was a little boring and the power was still out. I didn't see anybody in the village so I just kept walking, thinking about nothing, it felt really good. On the way home after a few hours Bob drove by in his van. I waved and he stopped the van, so I went over thinking he wanted to talk to me.
When he got out of the van it was clear that he was angry. He looked stressed out, I've never seen him like that before so I was concerned. I asked him if everything was all right and he asked me why I hadn't got back to him. I didn't know what he meant, but then when he asked me if I had my phone on me I realised what he meant. I told him that I was sorry but I lost the phone, yesterday. He didn't believe me, I could tell. I thought he would be mad that I lost the phone he practically gave me but he just asked how I lost it. I said it fell out of my pocket while I was out and I didn't realise until it was too late, someone probably stole it.
He sort of signed and gave me the 'okay Jack,' with a pat on the shoulder which told me that he saw right through my lie and wasn't buying it. He apologised for seeming so uptight, but they had been short staffed at the garage. He had been ringing to try get me to come in, but because he couldn't get a hold of me he missed out on three orders. He reassured me that it wasn't me fault and told me he would see me tomorrow before leaving.
I got home quickly even though I took the long way around. I feel really terrible about Bob missing his orders. I know that its not really my that I haven't got the phone, after all Zack smashed it up there's nothing I could do about it. But still, I should have been more careful, I shouldn't have let him find it in the first place. It doesn't matter now, Bob is clearly angry at me even if he was trying hard not to show it. When I get enough money I'm buying a new one, screw my mom and Zack, then I can definitely be there next time Bob needs me.
Jack.