Chapter Three:
January 19, 2005
We got a new person working on our shift. It's a guy. Is everything around her sexist. Catherine's the only girl on her shift, and I'm the only girl on mine. This sucks. New guy's name is Andy Garza. Andy. Can you comprehend how much this sucks? How much every time I hear Greg or someone say Andy I expect my friend to be there. But I know he won't be. I was at the funeral, I was beside him when he died. I heard his last words. His last words... "Stay strong for me Sar-Bear." He called me that to annoy me. Now this guy's here and I can't even bring myself to call him Andy. I don't talk to him much. I don't talk to people much anymore.
I think it's my fault the shift split. Eklie asked if Griss and I had a follow-up session or shit like that and I couldn't lie for Grissom cos I'd get so caught up in it. This blows. I never see the others anymore. Not that we're friends. God Catherine and I can't even really talk ever since I couldn't finalize Eddie's case for her. She doesn't get it does she? She said that it wouldn't be a happy thing for her daughter to hear. I know it won't kill Lindsey. Hell If I found out my dad was dead and the guy didn't get caught. If I ever found that guy I would hug and kiss that beautiful bastard. I didn't write that. I shouldn't wish death upon people like that. I don't even know what I'm doing anymore.
Grissom is stressed out and he's taking it out on Greg and me. It's getting bad. Greg got those shaky hands back again. I actually am starting to second-guess myself when it comes to cases because of Grissom. Damn him. I hate that he can do this to me. Greg...I feel bad for him. Andy's the only one not getting chewed out. Probably because Grissom doesn't know him and doesn't know what his weaknesses are so he can chew him out. Maybe I should take Greg to my beach house for a vacation. We could fish from the chair and pull up another one. I have a green one too. Maybe that can be Greg's old green chair? That used to be Andy's, but Greg should get it. The red one's Jessica's.
That's all counting on if we can get the time off from the barracuda dubbed Gil Grissom. I'm in the break room writing this now. Grissom's chewing out Greg right now. You know what, I've had enough of this crap. I gotta break it up.
Oh well I'm going on that vacation. I got suspended for a week. I smiled actually when Grissom said that. And then I turned to Greg and asked if he wanted to go on a vacation to the beach. Grissom had suspended him too. So Greg's grabbing his duffel bag of extra clothes. We're gonna buy stuff when we're there and I always have extra toothbrushes and stuff at that beach house. I'm now in the locker room waiting for Greg to finish up. Nick was working overtime and heard the argument. When he saw Greg and I head into the locker room he followed. Nick was shocked Griss would do that, but what shocked him more, was how Greg and I looked. We looked like hell. Greg and I haven't been getting sleep. Of course not with us worrying about keeping our jobs with Grissom's attitude. You never know. Nick was then shocked by how we took it. It was a blessing. Get away from Griss's attitude, -on my behalf- Andy Garza since I have to actually hear the name Andy, and get a vacation that is long overdue. Greg's almost done packing. We're gonna drive to my place and dump his car there in my spot. Then we're gonna drive in my car to San Francisco. Greg's from California around there. So he knows the area. We got talking one time about places we had both been to and it was great. Yeah, I told Greg when he started packing, there's an old green chair on the beach waiting for him. He smiled. Something I haven't seen from the younger CSI in a long time. Things might bet better things might get worse. I'll call Jess in the car and tell her I'm on the way. I only wish that in this week, Jessica's baby boy would be born. And then you'd hear the argument all over the world between Jessica, her husband and I. That baby is going to be named Andrew "Andy" Kenneth Ramirez, and he's going to like it. Beautiful name eh?
Sara Sidle.