Author: mikesh
Title: Why did my life have to turn out this way?
Summery: What would have happen if Darry had decided that he wasn't going to raise his two brothers?
Part: 2?
By the way because I forgot to tell you all in chapter one I don't own the characters or the story. If I did I would be really rich right now. lol
Soda's P.O.V.
It wasn't two days after my parents' death that my so called "brother" put me and Pony in
the boys' home. I hate Darry for splitting up Pony and me from each other and our
friends. I hope I never see him again. He can go and spend his life in Nebraska for all I care. I hope he
ends up being as miserable as I am. You probably heard what was said between my
brother and me so we'll just skip that part. I miss my brother Ponyboy. I was adopted on June 10, 1966.
When I was first adopted I thought the guy and girl were husband and wife. I found out the girl is a part time live in girlfriend. She comes over every night and stays until the next morning and then leaves. Then she comes back that night.
They go drinking on the weekends. I don't get is how they can go drinking every weekend like they do.
Before my parents died I had one drink and was sick to my stomach the whole next day and I got grounded for four months. I thought it would be my mom that would flip out on me more but it ended up being my dad. He got so mad that he wouldn't talk to me for two
days. It scared me because I've never seen him loose his temper like that. I hated my dad
for grounding me for that long but he said that it was for my own good. Now I see what he means after seeing the way Pam and Steve drink on the weekends. After seeing how my dad lost it
I see
where Darry gets his temper. I saw Darry blow up at our parents once because they asked
him what the fight with his girlfriend was about. He told them it was none of their
business but I found out latter that he broke up with his girlfriend because
he found out that she was cheating on him with a soc no less. When it happened I
I felt bad for him
but now I don't. I'm happy that it happened and he deserved it. The one thing that I can't
seem to get through my head is that my father will never see me graduate from high
school and my mom won't see me have kids or get married that's if I ever do.
The people I live with names' are Pam and Steve. Pam is pretty nice. But Steve makes me get up at
5 in the morning! Go running for an hour, take a shower, make my bed, eat breakfast and go to school. Then when I get home from
school I do chores, homework, running for an hour, eat supper and do supper dishes. Be in bed by ten and start all over the next day. I don't have to go running on the weekends. I can't go out at all on the weekdays either. His rules for me are: I have to be home by twelve on the weekends but if I
stay home there's no girls allowed over after 8. I kind of wonder what Steve thinks I'm going to do? Go knock her up? One he's home so he'd know if I did something and two I don't want to be a father at the age of 17! All I would do is end up
screwing up the kid's life. That would be if the mother let me even see the kid. If I told her that I was from the "wrong" side of the tracks, she wouldn't want anything to go with me anyways.
I found out that Steve is an ex sergeant but had to retire or he was going to go down a rank because of his age. So he chose to retire. Pam is an accountant and since Steve is retired he just goes and helps his dad with his carvings and then on the weekends his dad goes to shows and sell the carvings.
Steve is nothing like Steve Randle who's been my best
friend since grade school. Steve Randle doesn't have rules that he follows and he doesn't act like a stick in the mud. Steve Randle is also more lade back then Steve is.
The house that Pam and Steve live in is actually a house that belonged to Steve's grandpa and when he passed away he left it to Steve. It's a nice house, not too big or small. The good part is that at least Steve only
live 2 hours away from the boys' home. That way I can go see Pony if Steve will let me.
Steve told me if I wanted I could have my own car and it could be any car that I wanted. I don't know it might be kind of cool to have a car then I could go see Pony on the weekends but I don't really want a car all I want is my old life back.
I asked Steve why he and Pam didn't just get married since they're around each other all the time. Get this he said that they can sleep together but they can't live together for a long period of time. They just don't get along or something. I really don't get it.
I miss waking up to Ponyboy. What happen was after our parents got hit by the train Pony started having
nightmares, but once he started sleeping in the same bed as I do they just kind of stopped. I don't know why they stopped maybe he felt safer with someone around, who knows.
We're luckily that they let us have the same room otherwise I think the nightmares might
have come back. I was kind of afraid that they might not let us because Pony said he's
read that they usually don't have two people to a room even if they are related. People
thought it weird at first that we slept in the same bed. They didn't realize that we were brothers but once I told them that we were and why we shared a bed they were cool with it. I hope the
nightmares haven't come back since I've been gone. I gave Pony a teddy bear that I had as
a kid. I thought my mom had thrown it out when I was younger because I hadn't seen it since I was eight years old but I found it when I was
packing my stuff up. I had to take everything I wanted because I'll never be back there again. I already know that this summer Darry's going to sell the house I overheard him talking to Chris. I gave Pony the teddy bear before I left. I thought that maybe with something
that I'd own would help keep the nightmares away. Stupid don't you think? The part that
kind of pisses me off is that I haven't
heard from the gang
in three months. The boys' home had some stupid rule about no contact with your "old
life" because
now you're in a better place. A better place my butt. I said screw the rule I wasn't about to abandon my
friends or make them think that I had. But I guess that they have abandon me and Pony
because I
haven't heard from them
since I've left my "old life". The way I was sending them mail even though I was not supposed to is that a block away there's a post office. I was sneaking out after bed time. Sorry but when you're used
to hearing yelling at all hours of the night and then you don't its kind of hard to sleep. I was at the boys' home for a month and one week
before I got
adopted. It sucked knowing that any day Pony or I could be split up from each other.
I wrote to
Ponyboy a week ago to see how he was holding up. I know that its been harder on him since our parents died and we got split up. If I can I try to write him three times a week. I've
been doing it the three weeks that I've been here but the weird part about last week was I got the letter
back. I talked to Steve to see if he knew what was going on with Pony. And he said that
he got adopted and forgot to give me his new address. The boys' home told Pam and Steve if Pony got adopted then they would send his new address to them. That way we could still stay in touch until he could write me.
There's
sometimes that
I would wake up in the boys' home and be confused because I couldn't remember where
I was. If I could go and turn back the clock I would do it in a heart beat. I would stop my
parents from going out that night. Then I wouldn't be here and I would be back with people who don't tell me when I have to go to sleep. I'm madder at my brother
then my parents maybe I should be madder at my parents for leaving me like this but I
can't bring myself to hate them. I know Darry hates them because they didn't get to
see him turn 18th. I know he hurts but doesn't he understand that family should stick
together not break apart? I hope to heck that he ends up regretting it someday for sending his brothers away.
I just want to be back home with my parents, friends and brother. But there's nothing that
I can do until I turn 18 and can legally take custody of Pony. That's if the state will let me. As soon as I turn 18 I'm going to get a job and get myself fixed up so the state will have no reason to not let me have custody of him. Right now the best that I
hope for is that I'll get to see Pony this
summer because I won't turn 18 until March 27, 1967. On the first day here Steve told me that if I get into trouble I have to go to a private school but for now I go to a public school.
He thinks just because I come from the "wrong" side of the tracks I 'm going to
be a trouble maker. Yeah us greasers that's what we're considered on the East side might fight but we're not the ones that start the fight
it's the socs who are from the West side. I'm staying out of trouble as best as I can because there's no way I'm going
to some private school. I asked Steve a week after I was adopted why he only adopted
me and he said that two boys would be too much work. I don't get is why they adopted me when they could have
had a little baby. Wait I know why he didn't want to adopt a baby its because I'm old
enough that he only has to put up with me for another year or so. I would be just as
happy to be back at the boys' home with Pony. I sent
a letter to the new address where Ponyboy is living now. I hope I
hear from him soon. I really miss having someone to talk to. And waking up with him
laying on top of me. See before my parents died we had a dog that every night would go
and sleep in Pony's room but then sometime in the middle of the night he'd come to my
room. So I'd wake up with a dog on me. So when you get used to waking up with
something or someone on you it gets kind of hard to get used to when it doesn't happen
anymore. I hope the people Pony's living with will let him go back to Tulsa so we can
see the gang over Christmas break or this summer. Yeah I know that I said I was mad at them but I wrote
Steve and asked him why he didn't write he told me he did. Since they wanted us to
forget our "old life" they would only give you a letter if it was from a brother/sister that
had been there with you but got adopted. I'm hoping that Pam and Steve will let me go
back to Tulsa over Christmas break. I think they
would because then they could go on a romantic trip. Pam has asked me why I don't have a girlfriend. Like I'll ever
have a girlfriend. I don't want a girlfriend, well I have my eye on this one girl her name
is Sandy but she's the caption of the football team's girlfriend. So I'm not going to asking
her out any time soon. All the girls except Sandy at North Ridge are like the socs. A Soc
is someone who has a lot of money and likes to show it off too. Pam seems to want to use her money to buy my trust. She has quite a bit since she's an accountant. Pam told me once that she'd buy me anything I wanted. I was
half temped to ask them if she could buy me my old life back. I don't think that Steve likes that she's trying to get me to like her because of her money.
And before you asked no I don't have "friends." I know some of the guys but my real friends are back in Tulsa. Some of the girls have their
noses way to high in the air for the likes of me. Oh yeah Tulsa is two hours away from
the boy's home. And where Pony lives now takes three hours.