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Chapter twelve- Acceptance and a looong flashback!
Damien felt as if his insides had turned to lead and he knew that he had paled at least three shades (if that were even possible). "I-I'm sure I have no idea what your talking about.....Weasley!" Damien tried to recover by acting cold. "All I know is that Dumbledore's Golden Boy is off training somewhere! You disgust me!"
But the damage was already done. Ginny smirked knowingly and folded her arms, seemingly unaffected by Damien's rant. "I know its you.....I sent that letter to Harry yesterday and Ron and Hermione sent those to him earlier this morning! Your him I know you are! Why are you trying to hide it?! Don't your friends meant anything to you?"
Damien lowered his head in shame and sadness. Ginny wasn't mad at him just......disappointed. "I wanted to tell you and Ron and Hermione that it was me......but Dumbledore and Severus wouldn't let me...."
Ginny blinked, "But why? Why did you need to hide in the first place?! And why on earth are you calling Professor Snape by his first name?! And why did you pose as his son? AND where were you this summer?!!" She said this all very quickly and in one breath. Ginny looked at him pleadingly....expecting to get an answer from him.
Damien sighed, he might as well tell her she deserved to know.....after all she did figure it out....
"Gin....I'm so sorry....I really wanted to tell you guys but....." he trailed off and sighed, he had to get this over with..... "Gin.....I went over to the Snape Manor this summer and just got used to calling Professor Snape Severus...."
Ginny's eyes widened, "Why didn't you tell-" "I wanted to!" Damien burst out and Ginny jumped slightly. "I really did! I practically begged Dumbledore and Severus but they said it wasn't safe!"
"Why isn't it safe? Why did you have to go over there?"
Damien paused and looked down at the floor. He felt Ginny's hand under his chin as she gently pushed his head up to meet her gaze. She was looking at him in concern. "What happened? Was it your relatives?" she whispered. "What did they do to you?"
Damien swallowed and looked away from her concerned chocolate colored eyes. "They....were...unkind to me..." he murmured quietly and Ginny gasped.
"Y-You mean they...they......hit you?!" She whispered in shock. Damien didn't say anything and she suddenly through her arms around him.
"I'm so sorry!! Ron and Hermione and Fred and George and me all knew that they were doing something bad ever since the beginning of my first year! We tried to tell them we really did but they wouldn't listen! They kept saying that it was for the best!! Oh Harry I'm so sorry....." She ranted as tears poured down her face. Damien felt comforted by her concern and felt a warmth in the pit of his stomach.
"Its okay Gin...I'm alright" Ginny released him and wiped her eyes. "Are you sure? What about Snape? He wasn't to horrible to you was he?" Damien had to smile at her caring nature and he shook his head. "No, Severus was.....almost.....nice I guess.."
Ginny gave him a look as if to say 'ya and You-Know-Who needs a teddy bear to get to sleep...'
Damien chuckled slightly at her dazed expression.
Her gaze turned serious again. "Why are you hiding? And why are you pretending to be Snape's son?" Damien hoped that she had by some miracle forgotten about this.....would she hate him? No. Not Ginny he knew she wouldn't.....She was always so kind and caring and understanding......she would understand.....
"Gin....I'm not posing as Severus' son..." He murmured, looking her square into the eye.
Ginny's eyes quickly reached the size of golf balls, she gasped and her hands flew up to her mouth. She sat there like that for a couple of minutes, her eyes comically large and her hands glued to her mouth. Damien felt a slight sinking feeling.
Ginny slowly lowered her hands, her eyes gradually returning to normal. She blinked, "Well........that's certainly....irony....a-are you sure? I mean.....this isn't some joke that Fred and George put you up to is it?" She said this all in a quiet, dead serious voice.
Damien shook his head, "No....this is my real appearance......my mother was good at charms...." Ginny continued to stare numbly at him.
"O-Okay....I think I'll go to class now.....toodles..." She seemed to be in a daze of some sort as she glided out of the room, much like Professor Trelawney did.....
"Gin wait!" Damien called desperately as he hurried after the girl. He caught her in the hall that passed by the Snake Pit. "Gin.....please don't tell anyone about this! You cant! Both me and Severus would be in a lot of danger if this information came to light...."
Ginny seemed to snap out of the daze that she was in and she gave her head a small shake. "So.....you really are.....his son aren't you?" She whispered finally. Damien nodded, praying that she would run away, terrified. She didn't, indeed Ginny just stared at him for a couple minutes before a slow, awkward smile came across her young face.
"Well that explains your temper at least...."
Damien nearly hugged her, he had never felt so relieved...
"So...your okay with this...." "Of course I am..........Damien... Its definitely going to take some getting used to but I'll manage..."
A wide grin appeared on Damien's face, "Thanks......." He whispered. "Its good to have someone else who knows and is okay about it....." She smiled and they both turned to the sound of footsteps and talking coming their way.
"You'd better go...." Damien said to Ginny. "Don't want you to get in any trouble...."
She smiled and started to walk away....but turned and hurried over to him to give him a hug before saying quietly, "Its good to have you back.....I was worried....Your secrets safe with me...." With that she gave him a kiss on the cheek before turning and hurrying away, blushing.
Damien stood there, frozen in spot as he slowly reached to put a hand on the place where Ginny had kissed him. A wide grin once again spread across his face, much larger then the one before. He was however startled rudely out of his thoughts when Malfoy came up to him and said, "Come on! We're going to be late for Herbology!"
The Previous Night Sev's POV
Severus bid farewell to Damien before whirling around and heading for his dungeons. He only hoped that the boy could keep his cover from being blown. He did have confidence in Damien though.....the boy had most definitely proved it over the summer.....
FLASHBACK
Severus growled as he checked the Living Room clock.
Great! Potter was late! The boy had skipped dinner but Severus really didn't care about that.....all he cared about was teaching his son Occlumency so that their cover wouldn't be blown at Hogwarts.
He needed to teach him how to control his emotions......Harry got angry way to easily and Severus needed to teach him how to mask his feelings so they didn't show on his face.
Severus had vowed that he would go slightly easier on the boy due to the rather disturbing memory of Harry's that Severus had experienced last week of the boy being beaten up by his cousin's gang. Severus flinched at the thought. How many times had Potter and Black done the exact same thing to Severus himself? Harry of course had seen one of the many memories of Severus being humiliated by the two......Severus had never thought that he would have seen similar memories between Harry and himself but now that he had, he felt like it may have done Harry some good to know that he wasn't the only one who knew how it felt to be humiliated and beat up....
Severus was startled out of his thoughts as an out of breath Harry flew into the Living Room. Severus arched an eyebrow at the raven haired boy, who was now panting heavily as he kneeled over.
"Sorry.....Severus....I..fell...asleep...."
Harry paused to take in a couple more deep breaths before looking up at his Professor. Severus raised his eyebrows at the boy. "And why were you sleeping? Staying up to late are you?"
Harry closed his eyes briefly before saying, "No sir...Severus I just don't sleep very well...you know my.....nightmares...." He trailed off and Severus scowled in anger, "Still having nightmares? I told you to clear your mind before going to bed every night! Do you listen to anything I say Potter? I would have thought that you might actually put at least a little effort into Occlumency considering what happened last year...." Severus sneered at Harry. "Apparently I was wrong...."
Harry stared at him for a couple minutes but didn't react. "I do practice sir.." Harry said in a calm voice. "There not Voldemort related, their about Sirius........"
"Don't say his name!" Severus snapped predictably and Harry sighed. "How many times do I have to tell you not to say his name!"
Harry said nothing, he didn't even flinch. 'Fools wear their emotions on their sleeves' he remembered Severus telling him. No. He wouldn't make the same mistake again, he wouldn't display his emotions if it meant the safety of his friends.
"Legilimens!"
Harry was startled out of his thoughts as the spell hit him. Damn! He should have been on guard!
It was the summer after his fourth year, he was in the Order's HQ screaming at Ron and Hermione for 'leaving him in the dark.'
He was in Dumbledore's office, staring at the pensive at a small, misty figure of Professor Trelawney.
'The one with the power to vanquish the Dark Lord approaches......Born to those who have thrice defied him, born as the seventh month dies....and the Dark Lord will mark him as his equal, but he will have the power the Dark Lord knows not....and either must die at the hand of the other for neither can live while the other survives....The one with the power to vanquish the Dark Lord will be born as the seventh month dies.....'
Suddenly Harry found himself once again back in the Living Room. Severus was staring at him, an odd expression on his face....
"That.....that prophecy....was it....it was referring to you?" Harry slowly nodded, studying the expression on his father's face. Severus paled and turned away quickly. An idea suddenly struck Harry.
"Is it true? Before my birth did you defy Vol-You-Know-Who three times?" Severus sighed and turned back around to face Harry. "I don't know....but it really wouldn't matter...." Harry blinked, "Yes it would! It would change everything! You don't understand!" "I understand perfectly Potter!" Severus growled through clenched teeth. "The prophecy says 'born to those who have thrice defied the Dark Lord' I fathered you Potter, yes but you were not born to me, you were born to Lily and James....." Harry looked at the floor, ".....oh..."
Severus sighed, "We've wasted time.....Legilimens!" Harry braced himself this time as the spell hit him.....unfortunately, no matter how much he braced himself, it would never prepare him for the first memory that surfaced.....
Once again, Harry found himself at the Department of Mysteries, he watched as the second spell hit Sirius in the chest and he watched helplessly as his Godfather flew through the ragged veil once again.....
Harry clenched his teeth against the cry of agony that welled up in his throat. NO! He HAD to stay focused, he couldn't let his emotions get the better of him! Concentrating with every cell of his being, Harry fought the burning sensation in his eyes as he finally made out Severus muttering under his breath, "Stupefy!" he yelled, barely even remembering taking out his wand.
The memory faded away and the both of them were soon back in the Living Room once again.
Severus frowned thoughtfully at Harry. He had expected the boy to give up after he relieved the memory of Black dieing but he had kept on going and had even managed to ward Severus off. Severus felt a faint glow of pride inside of him but it was gone as soon as it came......
Harry was standing exactly where he had been before....staring straight ahead.....his face controlled and emotionless. Severus nodded, "Well done Harry....."
Harry nodded, his face still impassive but Severus could almost feel the turmoil of pain and agony radiating off from his son. Severus walked over to Harry and slowly, very hesitantly placed a hand on the boy's shoulder. Harry looked at him with glazed eyes, trying his hardest to not break down once again.
It was all in vain though as Harry blinked and a couple tears sprung from his eyes and slowly poured down his cheeks. Suddenly Harry found himself sinking to the floor, sobbing. He hadn't even cried for Sirius ever since the man had died.... He had always kept it locked up inside of him and now the dam finally broke and all the pain and sadness that Harry had been experiencing since that night had suddenly broke free at the first gesture of even the slightest bit of affection from his father.
Severus was at loss, what was he supposed to do now? He couldn't very well leave him there but Severus hadn't opened up to anyone in so long that he now thought that he had forgotten how to comfort someone.....especially a child....a broken child who had been through so much...
Slowly, trying to keep his distance from the boy but also trying to be close enough to comfort him, Severus bent to Harry's side and moved his hand that had been on the boy's shoulder, to Harry's back and started to pat it gently in what he hoped was a comforting manner. "Harry....even though I say that you shouldn't display your emotions...it doesn't meant that you should keep them locked up inside of you....it'll eat you alive....I should know....I did that to myself when I was your age and now look at how I am....do you want to end up like me? Cold and emotionless?" He said this in a placid voice trying to calm the hysterical boy in some way.
Harry continued to sob quietly though and Severus didn't know what else he could do so he merely sat there, a hand on the boy's back as he allowed the boy let all of his emotional turmoil out of him that had been haunting him for months.
Finally, after what seemed like an eternity, Harry started to calm down and Severus noticed that the boy was starting to lean on his hand slightly. For some reason this started Severus and he quickly pulled his hand away, unfortunately Harry was leaning on his hand and fell onto the floor unceremoniously.
Harry looked up from the floor to Severus (who had stood up so Harry wouldn't fall on him) with hurt in his eyes. Severus sighed and nodded to Harry, "Lessons are over for tonight" he told the teen quietly.
Harry slowly stood up, looking quite embarrassed from his break down but still a little hurt because of the fact that Severus let him fall to the floor....
"Good night Severus" Harry said emotionlessly when they reached their rooms. Severus nodded, "Good night Harry" before turning around and all but slamming the door in Harry's face.
Harry sighed and turned to his room, closing the door quietly.
Severus sighed as he sank into his bed once he was in his room. He was starting to get attached to the boy, there was no denying it no matter how much he wanted to.... Severus hadn't been close to anyone in a long while.....ever since his mother died no one had shown that they actually cared about him (except Albus that is....).
Severus now felt uncomfortable to be so close to someone now......this was Potter after all.....not anything special about him now was there? Was there? Of course there wasn't......
No. There was NO way that he was going to actually follow Albus' plan and get attached to the boy.......NO way in the hell........
END FLASHBACK
Severus smirked slightly at his antics towards the boy over the summer. He had been so cautious because he was afraid that he WAS going to follow the old man's plan and that he WAS going to get attached to the boy.....
Heh. He had sworn that he wouldn't get attached to the boy.....Even now he swore he wouldn't get attached to his son......even though he had grown fond of Damien....but you really couldn't help developing some kind of fondness for a person that you had spent a month with and who you had seen every day of the month......
Severus shook his head....he had these damn paternal feelings... Sometimes he wished he could just go back to the uncaring, cold bastard at least it would be a lot easier and less complicated.....
What would Lily think of him now? She would probably beam at him and say something like, 'I'm so proud of you Sev! You actually grew feelings! I knew you would eventually!' Severus snorted at the thought of his feisty red headed old friend....he missed her....
Severus was suddenly startled out of his thoughts as he felt a familiar pain shooting through his arm...
Damn it!
The Dark Lord was calling..........
() Mwahahahahaaaa!!
Big trouble for Sevvie......
Longer chapter this time!
I do hope he wasn't to awfully OOC because I wanted for him to feel some fondness for Harry and I don't think that he would leave Harry sitting in the middle of the floor crying but that may just be me.......
Well review! Please! Please!
Till next time....
Thanks of course to all of my reviewers!!
Chapter twelve- Acceptance and a looong flashback!
Damien felt as if his insides had turned to lead and he knew that he had paled at least three shades (if that were even possible). "I-I'm sure I have no idea what your talking about.....Weasley!" Damien tried to recover by acting cold. "All I know is that Dumbledore's Golden Boy is off training somewhere! You disgust me!"
But the damage was already done. Ginny smirked knowingly and folded her arms, seemingly unaffected by Damien's rant. "I know its you.....I sent that letter to Harry yesterday and Ron and Hermione sent those to him earlier this morning! Your him I know you are! Why are you trying to hide it?! Don't your friends meant anything to you?"
Damien lowered his head in shame and sadness. Ginny wasn't mad at him just......disappointed. "I wanted to tell you and Ron and Hermione that it was me......but Dumbledore and Severus wouldn't let me...."
Ginny blinked, "But why? Why did you need to hide in the first place?! And why on earth are you calling Professor Snape by his first name?! And why did you pose as his son? AND where were you this summer?!!" She said this all very quickly and in one breath. Ginny looked at him pleadingly....expecting to get an answer from him.
Damien sighed, he might as well tell her she deserved to know.....after all she did figure it out....
"Gin....I'm so sorry....I really wanted to tell you guys but....." he trailed off and sighed, he had to get this over with..... "Gin.....I went over to the Snape Manor this summer and just got used to calling Professor Snape Severus...."
Ginny's eyes widened, "Why didn't you tell-" "I wanted to!" Damien burst out and Ginny jumped slightly. "I really did! I practically begged Dumbledore and Severus but they said it wasn't safe!"
"Why isn't it safe? Why did you have to go over there?"
Damien paused and looked down at the floor. He felt Ginny's hand under his chin as she gently pushed his head up to meet her gaze. She was looking at him in concern. "What happened? Was it your relatives?" she whispered. "What did they do to you?"
Damien swallowed and looked away from her concerned chocolate colored eyes. "They....were...unkind to me..." he murmured quietly and Ginny gasped.
"Y-You mean they...they......hit you?!" She whispered in shock. Damien didn't say anything and she suddenly through her arms around him.
"I'm so sorry!! Ron and Hermione and Fred and George and me all knew that they were doing something bad ever since the beginning of my first year! We tried to tell them we really did but they wouldn't listen! They kept saying that it was for the best!! Oh Harry I'm so sorry....." She ranted as tears poured down her face. Damien felt comforted by her concern and felt a warmth in the pit of his stomach.
"Its okay Gin...I'm alright" Ginny released him and wiped her eyes. "Are you sure? What about Snape? He wasn't to horrible to you was he?" Damien had to smile at her caring nature and he shook his head. "No, Severus was.....almost.....nice I guess.."
Ginny gave him a look as if to say 'ya and You-Know-Who needs a teddy bear to get to sleep...'
Damien chuckled slightly at her dazed expression.
Her gaze turned serious again. "Why are you hiding? And why are you pretending to be Snape's son?" Damien hoped that she had by some miracle forgotten about this.....would she hate him? No. Not Ginny he knew she wouldn't.....She was always so kind and caring and understanding......she would understand.....
"Gin....I'm not posing as Severus' son..." He murmured, looking her square into the eye.
Ginny's eyes quickly reached the size of golf balls, she gasped and her hands flew up to her mouth. She sat there like that for a couple of minutes, her eyes comically large and her hands glued to her mouth. Damien felt a slight sinking feeling.
Ginny slowly lowered her hands, her eyes gradually returning to normal. She blinked, "Well........that's certainly....irony....a-are you sure? I mean.....this isn't some joke that Fred and George put you up to is it?" She said this all in a quiet, dead serious voice.
Damien shook his head, "No....this is my real appearance......my mother was good at charms...." Ginny continued to stare numbly at him.
"O-Okay....I think I'll go to class now.....toodles..." She seemed to be in a daze of some sort as she glided out of the room, much like Professor Trelawney did.....
"Gin wait!" Damien called desperately as he hurried after the girl. He caught her in the hall that passed by the Snake Pit. "Gin.....please don't tell anyone about this! You cant! Both me and Severus would be in a lot of danger if this information came to light...."
Ginny seemed to snap out of the daze that she was in and she gave her head a small shake. "So.....you really are.....his son aren't you?" She whispered finally. Damien nodded, praying that she would run away, terrified. She didn't, indeed Ginny just stared at him for a couple minutes before a slow, awkward smile came across her young face.
"Well that explains your temper at least...."
Damien nearly hugged her, he had never felt so relieved...
"So...your okay with this...." "Of course I am..........Damien... Its definitely going to take some getting used to but I'll manage..."
A wide grin appeared on Damien's face, "Thanks......." He whispered. "Its good to have someone else who knows and is okay about it....." She smiled and they both turned to the sound of footsteps and talking coming their way.
"You'd better go...." Damien said to Ginny. "Don't want you to get in any trouble...."
She smiled and started to walk away....but turned and hurried over to him to give him a hug before saying quietly, "Its good to have you back.....I was worried....Your secrets safe with me...." With that she gave him a kiss on the cheek before turning and hurrying away, blushing.
Damien stood there, frozen in spot as he slowly reached to put a hand on the place where Ginny had kissed him. A wide grin once again spread across his face, much larger then the one before. He was however startled rudely out of his thoughts when Malfoy came up to him and said, "Come on! We're going to be late for Herbology!"
The Previous Night Sev's POV
Severus bid farewell to Damien before whirling around and heading for his dungeons. He only hoped that the boy could keep his cover from being blown. He did have confidence in Damien though.....the boy had most definitely proved it over the summer.....
FLASHBACK
Severus growled as he checked the Living Room clock.
Great! Potter was late! The boy had skipped dinner but Severus really didn't care about that.....all he cared about was teaching his son Occlumency so that their cover wouldn't be blown at Hogwarts.
He needed to teach him how to control his emotions......Harry got angry way to easily and Severus needed to teach him how to mask his feelings so they didn't show on his face.
Severus had vowed that he would go slightly easier on the boy due to the rather disturbing memory of Harry's that Severus had experienced last week of the boy being beaten up by his cousin's gang. Severus flinched at the thought. How many times had Potter and Black done the exact same thing to Severus himself? Harry of course had seen one of the many memories of Severus being humiliated by the two......Severus had never thought that he would have seen similar memories between Harry and himself but now that he had, he felt like it may have done Harry some good to know that he wasn't the only one who knew how it felt to be humiliated and beat up....
Severus was startled out of his thoughts as an out of breath Harry flew into the Living Room. Severus arched an eyebrow at the raven haired boy, who was now panting heavily as he kneeled over.
"Sorry.....Severus....I..fell...asleep...."
Harry paused to take in a couple more deep breaths before looking up at his Professor. Severus raised his eyebrows at the boy. "And why were you sleeping? Staying up to late are you?"
Harry closed his eyes briefly before saying, "No sir...Severus I just don't sleep very well...you know my.....nightmares...." He trailed off and Severus scowled in anger, "Still having nightmares? I told you to clear your mind before going to bed every night! Do you listen to anything I say Potter? I would have thought that you might actually put at least a little effort into Occlumency considering what happened last year...." Severus sneered at Harry. "Apparently I was wrong...."
Harry stared at him for a couple minutes but didn't react. "I do practice sir.." Harry said in a calm voice. "There not Voldemort related, their about Sirius........"
"Don't say his name!" Severus snapped predictably and Harry sighed. "How many times do I have to tell you not to say his name!"
Harry said nothing, he didn't even flinch. 'Fools wear their emotions on their sleeves' he remembered Severus telling him. No. He wouldn't make the same mistake again, he wouldn't display his emotions if it meant the safety of his friends.
"Legilimens!"
Harry was startled out of his thoughts as the spell hit him. Damn! He should have been on guard!
It was the summer after his fourth year, he was in the Order's HQ screaming at Ron and Hermione for 'leaving him in the dark.'
He was in Dumbledore's office, staring at the pensive at a small, misty figure of Professor Trelawney.
'The one with the power to vanquish the Dark Lord approaches......Born to those who have thrice defied him, born as the seventh month dies....and the Dark Lord will mark him as his equal, but he will have the power the Dark Lord knows not....and either must die at the hand of the other for neither can live while the other survives....The one with the power to vanquish the Dark Lord will be born as the seventh month dies.....'
Suddenly Harry found himself once again back in the Living Room. Severus was staring at him, an odd expression on his face....
"That.....that prophecy....was it....it was referring to you?" Harry slowly nodded, studying the expression on his father's face. Severus paled and turned away quickly. An idea suddenly struck Harry.
"Is it true? Before my birth did you defy Vol-You-Know-Who three times?" Severus sighed and turned back around to face Harry. "I don't know....but it really wouldn't matter...." Harry blinked, "Yes it would! It would change everything! You don't understand!" "I understand perfectly Potter!" Severus growled through clenched teeth. "The prophecy says 'born to those who have thrice defied the Dark Lord' I fathered you Potter, yes but you were not born to me, you were born to Lily and James....." Harry looked at the floor, ".....oh..."
Severus sighed, "We've wasted time.....Legilimens!" Harry braced himself this time as the spell hit him.....unfortunately, no matter how much he braced himself, it would never prepare him for the first memory that surfaced.....
Once again, Harry found himself at the Department of Mysteries, he watched as the second spell hit Sirius in the chest and he watched helplessly as his Godfather flew through the ragged veil once again.....
Harry clenched his teeth against the cry of agony that welled up in his throat. NO! He HAD to stay focused, he couldn't let his emotions get the better of him! Concentrating with every cell of his being, Harry fought the burning sensation in his eyes as he finally made out Severus muttering under his breath, "Stupefy!" he yelled, barely even remembering taking out his wand.
The memory faded away and the both of them were soon back in the Living Room once again.
Severus frowned thoughtfully at Harry. He had expected the boy to give up after he relieved the memory of Black dieing but he had kept on going and had even managed to ward Severus off. Severus felt a faint glow of pride inside of him but it was gone as soon as it came......
Harry was standing exactly where he had been before....staring straight ahead.....his face controlled and emotionless. Severus nodded, "Well done Harry....."
Harry nodded, his face still impassive but Severus could almost feel the turmoil of pain and agony radiating off from his son. Severus walked over to Harry and slowly, very hesitantly placed a hand on the boy's shoulder. Harry looked at him with glazed eyes, trying his hardest to not break down once again.
It was all in vain though as Harry blinked and a couple tears sprung from his eyes and slowly poured down his cheeks. Suddenly Harry found himself sinking to the floor, sobbing. He hadn't even cried for Sirius ever since the man had died.... He had always kept it locked up inside of him and now the dam finally broke and all the pain and sadness that Harry had been experiencing since that night had suddenly broke free at the first gesture of even the slightest bit of affection from his father.
Severus was at loss, what was he supposed to do now? He couldn't very well leave him there but Severus hadn't opened up to anyone in so long that he now thought that he had forgotten how to comfort someone.....especially a child....a broken child who had been through so much...
Slowly, trying to keep his distance from the boy but also trying to be close enough to comfort him, Severus bent to Harry's side and moved his hand that had been on the boy's shoulder, to Harry's back and started to pat it gently in what he hoped was a comforting manner. "Harry....even though I say that you shouldn't display your emotions...it doesn't meant that you should keep them locked up inside of you....it'll eat you alive....I should know....I did that to myself when I was your age and now look at how I am....do you want to end up like me? Cold and emotionless?" He said this in a placid voice trying to calm the hysterical boy in some way.
Harry continued to sob quietly though and Severus didn't know what else he could do so he merely sat there, a hand on the boy's back as he allowed the boy let all of his emotional turmoil out of him that had been haunting him for months.
Finally, after what seemed like an eternity, Harry started to calm down and Severus noticed that the boy was starting to lean on his hand slightly. For some reason this started Severus and he quickly pulled his hand away, unfortunately Harry was leaning on his hand and fell onto the floor unceremoniously.
Harry looked up from the floor to Severus (who had stood up so Harry wouldn't fall on him) with hurt in his eyes. Severus sighed and nodded to Harry, "Lessons are over for tonight" he told the teen quietly.
Harry slowly stood up, looking quite embarrassed from his break down but still a little hurt because of the fact that Severus let him fall to the floor....
"Good night Severus" Harry said emotionlessly when they reached their rooms. Severus nodded, "Good night Harry" before turning around and all but slamming the door in Harry's face.
Harry sighed and turned to his room, closing the door quietly.
Severus sighed as he sank into his bed once he was in his room. He was starting to get attached to the boy, there was no denying it no matter how much he wanted to.... Severus hadn't been close to anyone in a long while.....ever since his mother died no one had shown that they actually cared about him (except Albus that is....).
Severus now felt uncomfortable to be so close to someone now......this was Potter after all.....not anything special about him now was there? Was there? Of course there wasn't......
No. There was NO way that he was going to actually follow Albus' plan and get attached to the boy.......NO way in the hell........
END FLASHBACK
Severus smirked slightly at his antics towards the boy over the summer. He had been so cautious because he was afraid that he WAS going to follow the old man's plan and that he WAS going to get attached to the boy.....
Heh. He had sworn that he wouldn't get attached to the boy.....Even now he swore he wouldn't get attached to his son......even though he had grown fond of Damien....but you really couldn't help developing some kind of fondness for a person that you had spent a month with and who you had seen every day of the month......
Severus shook his head....he had these damn paternal feelings... Sometimes he wished he could just go back to the uncaring, cold bastard at least it would be a lot easier and less complicated.....
What would Lily think of him now? She would probably beam at him and say something like, 'I'm so proud of you Sev! You actually grew feelings! I knew you would eventually!' Severus snorted at the thought of his feisty red headed old friend....he missed her....
Severus was suddenly startled out of his thoughts as he felt a familiar pain shooting through his arm...
Damn it!
The Dark Lord was calling..........
() Mwahahahahaaaa!!
Big trouble for Sevvie......
Longer chapter this time!
I do hope he wasn't to awfully OOC because I wanted for him to feel some fondness for Harry and I don't think that he would leave Harry sitting in the middle of the floor crying but that may just be me.......
Well review! Please! Please!
Till next time....