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"Andie come on hurry!" Tristan shouted.
"I'm coming; I'm coming hold your horses." Andie said coming down the stairs.
"Finally, let's get going." Tristan said grabbing Ami and her stuff.
"I don't see why I have to go see a shrink." Andie said in a huff
"I just think you need to talk to someone who can help you with your emotions and everything you're dealing with your mother being back." Tristan said.
"Alright I will this once." Annie said emphasising once.
"Good, well see about that. I think this will be good for you to talk about your feelings. I don't want you to relapse or to lash out like that again ok?" Tristan said.
"I'm not going to relapse. I'm fine. I'm eating healthy, I have three meals a day, and snacks in between and I'm not throwing it up." Andie said a little angrily.
"Well I'm glad, look this is just a precaution to make me feel at ease and maybe make you feel better." Tristan said looking at her and squeezing her hand trying to make her feel more comfortable.
"Ok, ok." Andie said giving up and letting her father do what he needed to do.
"Good." Tristan said happily.
"BOOK!" Ami shouted from her car seat.
"You want a book, babe?" Tristan asked her looking at her in his mirror with a smile.
"YEAH!" Ami said happily clapping her hands.
"Ok, ask Andie nicely if she'll read you a book until we get to Nana's." Tristan said.
"Andie bookie pwease?" Ami said looking at her with puppy dog eyes.
"She really has mastered the puppy dog face." Andie said.
"Unfortunately for us." Tristan said smiling.
"Andie bookie." Ami said.
"Ok, ok babe I'll read you a book." Andie said getting a book from the back seat.
"YAY!" Ami said giggling and clapping.
"Ok you ready for this?" Tristan said at the office with Andie looking a little apprehensive.
"I suppose so, I got no choice right?" Andie said quietly.
"Afraid so babe, how about we got this over with hmm?" Tristan said comforting her.
"Alright."
"Andie Dugrey, Dr. Canon's ready."
"Ok, I'll be right out here." Tristan said.
"Ok."
"Hello Andie it's nice to see you again." Dr Canon said as Andie walked in.
"Hi Dr.Canon." Andie said shyly.
"How are you?"
"Good."
"That's good."
"So how about we get started?"
"Ok."
"So your father tells me the reason why he made this appointment was you were having a hard time coping with the fact your mother is now back, is that right?"
"I suppose."
"Do you want to tell me, how you felt when you knew she was back?"
"I was angry and upset I suppose."
"Hmm." Dr Canon looked up at her as if to say go on.
"I was angry because she left without saying goodbye and the fact that she thought she could come back without any problems angered me." Andie said.
"Ok, that's a good start you also said you were upset, how so?" Dr Canon said writing a few things down.
"I think I was also upset at the fact that I felt so much anger towards her." Andie said shrugging her shoulders.
"So you still have good feelings for your mother?" Dr. Canon said writing down something else.
"I suppose, she is my mother after all but I'm just angry at the fact she left without a good bye or anything."
"Ok, so if you were to find out why she left do you think that the anger your feeling would somewhat lessen and maybe even disappear over time if you found out the reason why she really left?"
"I don't know. Of course I want to know for closure I suppose, but what I'm scared about is if she left because of us and that that she didn't want us in the first place. Really, I'm happy with my family being just my dad, my two sisters and myself."
"Do you really think that? You think you're really happy?"
"I think so. On some level I'm happy."
"Ok fair enough, so tell me about this outburst that happened at home after your mother had just returned."
"Ah, I don't really know what happened there. All I know and remember is that a couple of days after I saw her I felt this immense anger towards her and I lashed out. I don't really know how or why I just did it." Andie said sadly.
"So you lashed out because of your mother?"
"Yes."
"Did you feel good after this or worse?"
"I don't know blank I guess. It just relieved me of what I felt and that's what I wanted to happen."
"Ok fair enough, is that how you injured your hand?" Dr Canon said pointing to Andie's injured arm.
"No this happened at another time."
"So if you were to see your mother, would you talk to her? Would you be able to keep composure or would you lash out at her or after you have seen her?"
"I don't really know. I suppose if I knew I was seeing her I would keep my composure and I would get upset but if I was surprised I don't know what would happen then."
"Ok, so all this the lashing, the not speaking, it was because you weren't expecting her, she surprised you?"
"Yeah, I was happy and getting on with my life and she just appeared and I got scared I was shocked and angry that she had appeared again."
"Ok, is this one of the reasons maybe why you are so angry at her because you're scared she will leave again?"
"I suppose, she has done it once before what says she won't do it again. I don't think I could go through that again seeing my father that way. I couldn't do it again. I just couldn't." Andie said starting to become emotional. She had tears in her eyes.
"Ok, it's alright. It is not going to happen ok? It's going to be fine" Dr Canon comforted her.
"Ok."
"Good."
"So onto another topic, how are you handling life now that your mother is back? Had any bad thoughts or bad feelings about your body image or food?" Dr Canon asked.
"No. Yes, I'm still recovering from Anorexia and it does get hard at times but I haven't had any thoughts or feelings about myself or food or had bad thoughts about not eating."
"Good, so no attempts to deny yourself food and no negative thoughts about your weight or food?"
"No, well not to the extent that it was when I was anorexic. Yes those thoughts plague me nearly everyday and probably will for the rest of my life but that comes with the territory of recovering from an eating disorder."
"Yes it does and it does get easier but because of this big thing of your mum being back in your life, with her being the whole reason why you were anorexic. Your father and I are just worried that you will relapse."
"No I will not relapse. Yes, my mum coming back has been an obstacle to overcome in my recovery, but I'm recovering and I don't plan on ever relapsing. I couldn't do that to myself or to my family again."
"Ok good." Dr Canon wrote some more notes.
"So you think this has been a good session. Do you think you have realized something maybe you didn't before and released some thoughts and feelings you were holding in?"
"Yes I think so."
"Ok good. I think we should try this again soon maybe with your father and possibly mother later on."
"Maybe?"
"Ok good, I think were done for the day I'm going to have a chat with your father ok?" Dr Canon said standing up.
"Ok thank you." Andie said standing up.
"No problem. If you need to speak to me just ask your dad and we can set up an appointment for you, I'm always willing and able to listen." Dr Canon said smiling.
"Thanks."
"Hi how did things go?" Tristan said seeing Andie and Dr Canon appear.
"Things were good I think we had a slight breakthrough." Dr Canon said
"Good."
"Mr. Dugrey, would I be able to speak to you privately."
"Sure."
"I'll be right back Hon." Tristan said to Andie.
"Ok Dad."
"Ok."
"Take a seat Mr. Dugrey."
"Thanks call me Tristan."
"Ok Tristan."
"So how is she" Tristan asked.
"Well as I'm sure your aware Andie has a lot of anger towards Rory."
"Yes that's obvious."
"Ok well what she told me is basically she was surprised and shocked to see Rory and that turned into anger which is why she lashed out. She is mainly apprehensive and scared that if she lets Rory in to her life again, Rory will disappear."
"That's a fair feeling to have. I even feel like that." Tristan said.
"Ok fair enough, although what surprised me was all that anger and sadness she showed towards Rory, I feel she also was upset and ashamed that she felt like that towards her own mother whom she still loves. She just doesn't want to show it in case she gets hurt or even you get hurt, she is really worried about Rory hurting you."
"Ok so maybe to make her feel less apprehensive towards Rory, should I ask them to talk or what should I do?"
"I think maybe talking to Andie and Annie about Rory would be the first step. Make them feel less scared and more love towards their mum and then have a family dinner with the whole family including Rory and see how that works. Then maybe if things are still a little tense try family sessions here, but there is no doubting that this will take time a lot of time."
"Ok we'll try that."
"One of the reasons Andie was also apprehensive to see Rory is to hear the reason why she left. She doesn't want to hear that Rory left because of her. To her that would make it the truth and it seem more real. So Andie needs to know the real reason why Rory left."
"Ok, I know why Rory left should I tell the girls or should Rory?" Tristan asked.
"What was the reason?" Dr Canon asked.
"Rory was suffering depression, Post Natal Depression." Tristan said.
"Ok, so it wasn't because of the girls that's a good sign."
"Ok."
"Well I think it should be your decision on whether or not Rory tells them, if they are apprehensive to see her, you should tell them, but if you think it would be better for Rory to tell the girls then she should tell them, but all in all it's your decision what ever you think is best"
"Ok thank you so much. Did you find out if she is having thoughts about her anorexia because at the moment that's what I'm most worried about?" Tristan said.
"No, she told me that it's hard but she hasn't felt like skipping meals or had negative feelings towards herself or food at all which I think is a big step considering Rory was the main reason why she was anorexic. Andie is recovering remarkably well and it shows considering Rory is back so you have nothing to worry about there."
"Ok, thank God." Tristan said thankfully.
"Ok good I think that it is. I think this session was a good idea and that you should schedule a follow up appointment to this in a couple of week, after you have had some contact with Rory and the girls."
"Ok thank you so much."
"No problem."
"Bye."
"Bye."
"Hey babe." Tristan said walking out of the office.
"Hi Daddy"
"Come on lets go get Ami and Andie"
"Ok."
"But first how about we get something to eat or do you want to have something at Luke's and have your sister wait on us?" Tristan smiled knowing she would choose the latter option.
"I think Annie needs to work harder." Andie said smirking just like her father.
"Ok to Luke's we go"
"Good I'm hungry."
"Me too, so was today a good idea."
"Yeah I think so."
"Good, I'm glad that makes me feel better."
"YAY." Andie said sarcastically.
"Oh you're dead meat." Tristan said looking at Andie.
"What you going to do, you're driving." Andie said laughing.
"See I'm the one with the money. I pay for the food and coffee." Tristan said smiling.
"Well I can just ask Annie, Luke or Mel." Andie said back.
"Not if I have anything to do with it." Tristan said back.
"Ah come on you wouldn't do that you know how much I love coffee especially grandpa's." Andie said pouting.
"Yes I do, so you going to be nice." Tristan said smiling.
"Yes I'll be nice." Andie said smirking with her fingers crossed behind her back.
"Good." Tristan said laughing making Andie laugh.
They playfully bantered with each other all the way to Luke's.
I hope you enjoyed this chapter and I hope this gave you an insight to what Andie is feeling towards her mother. Enjoy and Review and tell me what you think.
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