For all my life,
I was shunned by society,
Not even my family wanted me.
I was feared,
I was unloved,
I was…hated.
I…tried…to stay away from it all.
I had to…
…to stop myself from hurting
…the ones that I cared for.
But once the moon was full…
I couldn't control it…
I was no longer…Remus Lupin
I would look at people's terrified faces,
…and without a shred of humanity
I…attacked them.
I had become….a monster.
I had always been ashamed of what I was…
…but there was nothing I could do.
I was made this way….
..and I would stay this way.
I knew, in my heart,
That I would be forever alone in the dark,
…never to know the tenderness and warmth of another being…
Never to feel love or endearment…
Compassion or affection…
Forever to be feared by others,
And looked down upon…
…as if I was worth nothing,
…as if I was nothing,
But then…
He came into my life…
He showed my hope…
And though I tried to run…
He stood there besides me…
And in the midst of all the hatred….
He showed me love…
…I was suddenly filed with a feeling so deep
It was ungraspable
I had developed a longing…
A passion…
…that I thought…
I would never feel…
His gentle touch and understanding,
Helped me to uncover my true feelings…
..and for the first time in my life…
I was…happy.
…I only wish,
That I would have cherished our time together more…
Because now that you are gone…
I am lost…
Alone…and cold…
I am completely lost for feeling…
…I can feel the darkness
Slowly beginning to re-diminish my soul…
And me remaining here…
Wondering why the one thing so close to me…
Had been lost …so easily.
…but, in my heart,
I know that I must stay alive…
…for Harry…
…because I know
…it is his dearest wish…that he is safe
..and it is the only way I can repay him..
For all he has done.